sometimes i hate how
i can put my life on hold
& forget about my own well being
just to solve someone else's problems...

all the time, i say to myself:

"i am not jesus...
i am not buddha...
i cannot save everybody."

they call it being "kind"
but they don't know that helping people
but being unable to help yourself
can be a form of self destruction too.

I was young, gullible, naive
When you promised forever,
I believed you with everything

I fell ******* a flat surface
You said you'd fallen,
But you had a safety net

Now, I'm broken and alone
And you're perfectly fine
And hate who I am

Don't be so quick to give your heart to anyone.
                                     *You're giving them a loaded gun.

I repent the way
You make me feel
Not a word you say,
My heart skips a beat.

You're this ghost
Invisible, yet, imaginable
You hold my hand,
You hug me tight
It's only a dream
It'll all be right.

Like swift winds
You swivel and fly
Up in the clouds
Of my dreamy mind.

You come and go
And provoke me to think
A thousand unimaginable situations
A thousand unimaginable things.

I wish this was a lucid dream
I wish I could control your emotions
But you don't feel what I see
You don't see what I feel.

I am joker faking a smile
An ear looking into your eyes
Laughing at your silly jokes
Loving it when you make fun of me.

I am the one standing here
Under the rain I drench and adhere
You in my thoughts
You in my mind
Yes, I am that shadow
In the curtains behind.

Yes, I am that girl
Your eyes never find.

Shrouded in mist you come for me
From the silence, from the cold.  
Waiting, watching has been your game.
Now you find me alone,
Hypnotised by the stillness,
Mesmerised by moments of sublime beauty as yet unseen.
I am helpless to resist.

What melody to find in silence,
What comfort in the earth!
Raindrops falling through trees echo through the forest.
A lone web hangs wet with dew.
A mushroom sits heavy with moisture on a tree stump.

The forest knows how to be in stillness
And make it's presence felt.