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538 · May 8
Memories
Rubyredheart May 8
On a river of memories
I drifted again today
to a garden of roses
a green field dotted with daisies
We napped there on a blanket that I still own
(just like these memories of you)

I wish you presented
In more recent memories, too
They miss you
Like I do
originally written 28th Aug 2024
https://youtube.com/shorts/HSKGxEC6UR4?si=Rl5wd8WXHvyg1feO
475 · May 24
Sorry
Rubyredheart May 24
I’m sorry I didn’t make a life with you
I’m more sorry that wasn’t even an option
because to be honest
I still miss

293 · Apr 2
Flip My Switch
Rubyredheart Apr 2
I’ll not touch you
If You don’t want me to
From your words & acts I’ll take my cue
But if you flip my switch & with your okay
I’ll make your mind go numb as you sway
To my hypnotic grind when I have my way
Caressing, confessing
secret hungers that crawl beneath my skin
The need to feel you plunge within
I’m years’ deep now, excitable
Sensations beyond all you imagine
Urging me to dance that dance with your permission
But ONLY if you flip my switch
If not, have no fear
Just friends, then, here
272 · May 5
Ready
Rubyredheart May 5
Is this because I hurt you
so Deeply?

I’m sorry
I truly am Sorry

Lay it all on me
I’ll listen
Just listen

I DO care!
Originally written 6th Mar 2023
but always true
237 · Apr 11
Epitaph for a Poem
Rubyredheart Apr 11
You were the rhyme
i thought i could write back to life
Until i learned
the Reader had long since died

“Rest in Peace, Poem Beloved”
as fresh flowers i lay
on an overgrown grave
https://youtube.com/shorts/C7kJ8o8mSvQ?si=Z4t8cnN5Ey8sbLHe
228 · Jun 4
Midnight Fear
Rubyredheart Jun 4
What if in my waning years
No child, friend or Love I find
close beside to truly know my mind?
This my midnight fear I ponder:
As time marches on
will I be left behind…
192 · Jun 12
Apology
Rubyredheart Jun 12
Please forgive me
I’ve been selfish but understand now:
You have more pressing worries than concerns of the heart;
More demanding business than that of this love.
Such distractions as passions are too much a burden.
I wish you well;
I wish you peace of heart and mind.
Published 20th Dec 2021 | Edited 1st Mar 2025
186 · Jun 2
Because
Rubyredheart Jun 2
Just hold me  
Wipe away my tears  
Promise me  
Someday  
Because I miss you  

I think I hear  
Why  
But it doesn’t stop  
Me crying  
Or wishing  
Because I miss you
  
Do you know what I miss the most?
Friendship
I miss being friends.
Originally published 6th May 2022 | Edited 13th Feb 2023 on DUP
184 · May 11
Sad
Rubyredheart May 11
Sad
Of course my heart would break for either:
death is death.
“code Adam” in the store today
fused my heart with his parent’s
heart beating fearfully for Wilder
age 7 in an orange shirt…
at least He was found
182 · May 5
from experience
Rubyredheart May 5
there’s no grey in black & white
until the bleeding starts
then, sometimes
there’s even color
170 · Apr 15
Return
Rubyredheart Apr 15
When we first met
I knew of little else--
Ignorant and innocent
You were my greatest love

Now I’ve been around
Sampled years of life
Yet I desire no one else
You ARE my greatest love
written 7th Jan 2022
Rubyredheart Apr 2
I’ve not driven Her streets alone with thoughts of you breaking through
since those jet-lagged days here from Taiwan…
Now, driving this eve I KNOW
with Her rivers and bridges, rainy days and viewing ridges
That this City holds hidden memories long—
See? She remembers still those 2 figures who sat & talked there on the water front…
Nor did She forget the love-entrenched girl scratching out (between clients) poetic lines
composed as her magical hands worked to relax
spasmed muscles…
Ironic that nothing yet worked to soothe
a spasming heart, denied…

This Sunday, more of Her streets I will see—
Like that one I was driving to work
when heart-break broke me until I thought
I’d just drive & drive on forever… though never Arrive…
I’ve arrived…Full circle but now
Unbreakable
As again a knife breaks through the rain
driving pain
Deep
(I don’t think you saw or cared to see
the wish I wrote that we go deep…
“I want you so deep…deep inside” as Vintage Culture sang)
I guess this is all to say,
as I drive through this tired city today,
Like these murky rivers etched on the map
There flows through my mind & my veins
a story—unfinished…
never to be
135 · Apr 18
Sleepy Ramblings
Rubyredheart Apr 18
I really wish I could hate you
Or, better yet, just not care
Because it’s weak how i wear
This need for you everywhere
It can’t be helped, this seeking you
Burns endless in my aching breast
Please let me know you more
128 · May 22
Ache
Rubyredheart May 22
My head aches from
this empty sameness
or maybe it just aches
from dregs of flu
I know my heart aches
from emptiness of you
yet to find the filler
to replace your space
Rubyredheart Apr 3
Aimless; trying to focus;
find I’m wandering ether-bound
Breezy lyrics ever ringing—
music in my ears, it echoes all around
Nothing yet can free reminders
aching love & numbing loss.
See their fingers clawing, reaching, helpless
for the witch they burned & tossed
Hurt & anger seething—fire-fuel
Sick that I’m the one let go
Though wings they took; Burned me…gone!
****, I’ll be their ghost flambeaux!
What’s that? Now my tonic you desire?
Now the witches brew you crave?
All that I have left to offer
are these deathly flames you gave…
Poetry reading: https://youtube.com/shorts/fYJQyVB2qGU?si=J2U7yYUB0moTqStp
114 · Apr 21
Hearsay
Rubyredheart Apr 21
You let my heart
run wild
with yours today

I wish I could say, it’s true…
but, rather, I just miss you
109 · Apr 3
into unknown
Rubyredheart Apr 3
Is it external factors
Halting more chapters?
Or an innate absence of appeal?
Collapsing love once real…
Empty sorrow
Of endless empty tomorrows
Piercing heart is all I feel
March 1, 2025
106 · Apr 20
Collapsing
Rubyredheart Apr 20
I will deeply miss
these spaces where your mists reside
yet I cannot abide the pain
that rattles my brain when you hide
and anyway,
that room has said “goodbye”
so must I (with mournful sigh)
still, I WILL so deeply miss
these spaces where your mists reside
https://youtube.com/shorts/xmQX3-mzcdo?si=41A-13jppEXJkUyZ
105 · Apr 21
Wrong. Wrong. Wrong.
Rubyredheart Apr 21
I told the wrong times
from the wrong time zone
But that’s the simplest of all the wrongs
Like the wrong second…triple…more-
Guessing myself
How much else was wrong?
The illusion?
Delusion?
Or conclusion?
Action? the reaction?
Wrong? Wrong? Wrong?
& this is why I beg:
please don’t judge me…please!
I judge aplenty
all. by. myself.
Judging these judgments as wrong
Ever & forever
Digging, digging, digging for answers
Yet all i find —
more questions, more questions…
& the ever echoing certainty
One thing won’t die
One truth remains
One desire burns eternal
Is it wrong?
Wrong? Wrong? Wrong?
I suppose it must be
Since you’re Gone, Gone, Gone
103 · Apr 18
Giver’s Sorrow
Rubyredheart Apr 18
Valuing far more than being valued
Decades & counting
Yet to find a lover who loves
as loved

sorrow
101 · Apr 3
Summary
Rubyredheart Apr 3
Then
I read the saddest good-bye’s
From cold grey eyes
Denying a glance my way
Now
Mournful another would claim
Gifts writ in your name
for desires you could not say
Ever
The longing holds true
I’m wishing for you…
But respect holds me at bay
100 · Jun 9
Pity
Rubyredheart Jun 9
Go, then!
I know the taste of shame
Erase the guilty memories of my name
but, please, in some hidden recess of your mind
find a way, a place to love me if you can
or pity if you must
Just, please don't hate me.
Give a care that I am heartsick & forgive
this contagion crafting errors of my ways
mistakes that further distanced you from me
and see
I just miss you still.
Originally published as part of the Alternate Reality collection under the title "Pitied--(part 2)" 22nd Dec 2021 | Edited 1st Mar 2025 | edited June 9,2025
Rubyredheart May 23
Speak to me in languages
of the sea, soil & skies
sing as the stars brushing velvet night
as the breeze teaching leaves to dance
Lace my lashes with flower dust
the glitter of time & memories past
splash the serum of love across my lips
color me with speeches of beauty
tonight
Sing me into sleeping dreams with the love in your heart
speak to me in languages
of *** and magic
Trace my desires
they all lead back to the art
when we were in love
with our hopefully
interlaced kisses
Speak to me
In whatever form your whispers take
As long as you promise
Future
98 · Apr 3
Worth
Rubyredheart Apr 3
So much I offer:
I would be your home…
a listening interested empathetic ear;
love, care, accepting all of you and more!
admiration, worship, undying affection,
appreciation, patience, love,
words, images, actions of deep passionate desire,
seeking to fulfill your every fantasy,
pleasure in your pleasure,
giving, understanding, long-lasting friendship
so much I have to offer
I KNOW my worth…
If you don’t, that’s on you…
others will…
just know, I’ll always care,
& you’ll always hold
My #1 position
So, if you ever really SEE me…
I have an epi pen ready…
Always,
95 · Jun 2
Not in the Cards
Rubyredheart Jun 2
I often cannot sleep in the deep
of night these days of late
when whispers of your memories
Rustle the pages of my mind
Until the world feels up-side down
hobbling along on a single foot
epitomizes sensations of art
meant to be shared by you
so I pretend to write and paint
playing at art as a child playing at life
whether calling it “house” or “family”
matters not when none of the actors
live in these cards
If only we could re-draw
would I hold your love in my hand
in another round of life?
94 · Apr 4
Don’t We All
Rubyredheart Apr 4
Yes
Don’t we all just want to feel
****
Smart
Attractive
Desirable
& mostly LOVED…
Don’t we all want to know
We’re valued
Admired
Appreciated &
Mostly LOVED

don’t we all just need to know
We matter?

I matter…I am ****…I am important…I am LOVED!
You matter! You are ****.  You are important! You are LOVED!
So don’t
Fade away
We MATTER
Always…
We all need to know
We matter to someone…
You are everything to me
93 · May 24
No matter
Rubyredheart May 24
Do you know that
No matter how much
You go away
No matter how much
You disappear
However much
You fade
It doesn’t matter
because I still will
Forever
Always
Love you
93 · Apr 18
Love Toll
Rubyredheart Apr 18
I feel you deep within my soul
I feel you engraving a hole
I feel you devouring my whole
I feel you deleting your role
I feel you erased; I lose control
I feel you evaporate my soul
I wonder what REALLY is your goal?
93 · Apr 15
Cry
Rubyredheart Apr 15
Cry
I miss your friendship!
I miss knowing...
There are so many reasons tumbling ‘round my head
As possibilities for why you’ve locked me out
They all begin with hurt and end with tears

I cried again tonight
wondering on the wrongs I might have done
I truly am so sorry
For every single one
I just want...
so very much I want
to know of you
to hear of you
as told by you.

Yet clearly this
is far too much to ask
i cry
missing you
written 1st May 2022
93 · Apr 6
Hungry Eyes
Rubyredheart Apr 6
The hunger written in your eyes
Traced in softest lines along your lips
Visions of the need you felt…
Twined around my heart
& stayed, remained
Rooted deeply in my past & now & evermore
Yes, they remain — these photos etched into my memories
favorite visions of desire
igniting my desire
Evermore
None other can compare
Lips speaking more than words
Beyond the promise of “I love you”
Did those lips lie?
Possibly forget?
Embrace a kiss more passionate?
I only know, those lips—
Echoes of a love so deeply missed!
Now every time I see such hunger in expression
I remember and desire you alone
& your hungry eyes
91 · May 7
The Nerve to…
Rubyredheart May 7
I wish I had the nerve
Wish I didn’t revert
to fixing, soothing, fawning, self-erasing
I wish I could remember how I feel,
find the words…at the right time
but mostly find the nerve

How many months am I allowed to hurt
after a couple decades of injury?
I wish I had the nerve
to take MY turn!
Then, I wish he would just listen.

Yes, angry now
that I don’t have the nerve
to carve out a place for MY hurt
Or better yet
to find my own safer space to heal
91 · May 9
Quietly
Rubyredheart May 9
Yes, quietly with you breathing softly here beside me
I might shyly reach a hand to grasp yours briefly,
a nonverbal recognition just to say, "I care"
the gentle softness of your breath, rhythmic, so reassuring
knowing you are here with me...

This, another dream I hold
hidden in that place of magic
where dreams and memories merge...
this longing to simply share a space with You
Quietly, Together...

I LOVE YOU
in the quiet moments, too.
yes, I love you
here, now, quietly
originally written 28th Jan 2025
88 · May 30
In one reality
Rubyredheart May 30
Heart
in so many pieces still
no you as glue

Remain
Meld love
Patchwork hearts
Meant to be
in a somewhere reality

I must believe

without remains
too empty

Come back to me
in at least one
reality
85 · May 8
always know
Rubyredheart May 8
No one I have ever known can even near compare
to the total hold you have on my heart

You are my perfect
You personify my every dream
You are the only one I desire

Always
Always
Always
Know
You are the One for me
originally written 10th Nov 2024
85 · Apr 21
Rudimentary
Rubyredheart Apr 21
I want to take you

Let basic instincts overcome
I want to let the Beast inside
Run Wild,
run Free
…just RUN
I want to merge, converge
with desire and passion and need
I want to hold your greed
hear you plead
with dilated eyes for more of me
I want to merge our rhythms, merge our rhymes
Merge your deep heart deep with mine
I want to feel you feel my deep inside
Let thinking stop & love the ride
Let rudimentary vision win
I want your all!
the Divine, the Sin
85 · May 24
Be
Rubyredheart May 24
Be
I will be there for you
When you are too tired
To be
Let me hold you
until you are ready
to Resume
84 · May 11
By the Handful
Rubyredheart May 11
There was a summer…mmm, a handful of days,
then one northeastern evening…
(sorry, our history becomes a bit of a haze…
were all those memories misleading?)
I wanted to borrow & hold & treasure
through several handfuls of always forever
but the past told me, “Best leave it be”
So here I am ruminating
Messing about with a handful of words instead
(of the simplest primitive kind sometimes)
maybe it all was just in my head
memories of a love imagined
connection ne’er before fathomed
echoes of soul-deep passion…
Could it have been a mere passing?

did I mention how I dread
bearing through seasons ahead
the empty spaces still?
I’d wished for a caring hand
and one to watch birds at the windowsill
pecking the moments to fill
Greying days with smiles and silences—Peaceful
now I’m not sure who would sit with me…
’cause no-one fits that wish you see
it’s quite a unique place
this heart-hole empty space
that the past of you once graced…
now it’s just called “The Missing”
christened with a handful of wishing
painted over with a handful of words
I’ll bring flowers tomorrow
84 · May 20
way Home
Rubyredheart May 20
You are where my dreams go when looking for a nest
My soul seeks yours in freeing words when needing peaceful rest
Your heart will always be The Missing Piece of my own
Though I still hope the “missing” leaves  and we are simply Home

...

but until then, I offer:
tuck my love & care in your pocket
and keep me there, safe
draw on it when you need
(you’re going in my pocket, too)
originally written 12th Jan 2025
Rubyredheart May 20
I considered another
Something only you
A hidden clue—connector of hearts
Our secret

I picture you as A hawk n me a phoenix
(I do like a bit of worddplay)
I imagyne majestic raptors
Soared the vast blue ether of your hometown...
& I remember as a child
searching Southern skkies for a red-tailed hawk...
+
I alwayz loved this symbol of you
before we even met

I can’t decide where your bird might reside:
maybe as a guardian perched atop a shoulder?
I would like to see it often
not have it hidden as so much else must be...
Should it rest a reminder on my wrist
of how my pulse beats to rhythms of your memory?

As a symbol, I prefer an abstract drawing...
Perhaps a single line?
or geometric design
reminiscent of Cathedral glass?
(Metaphor of our lives)
Should I incorporate the ampersand?my constellation?
The hawk could be a water-brush design
Unfinished?

...possibilities

I wonder
what you might suggest
as an image of your memory
Buried ‘neath my skin
must be annoying...it would be to me
83 · May 20
Put Simply
Rubyredheart May 20
Midnight aches
My body shakes
Stifled tear
to hold you near
Pleading ask
Remove the mask
Say truthfully
If you love me
All I know
I need you so!
Yet, sad these sighs
Hope only lies
83 · May 8
Addiction
Rubyredheart May 8
Yes, I confess
Addiction

I am addicted to images of you—
my eyes trace the lines of your lips,
imagined kiss;
memory feels how soft your hair;
mental fingers cradle round the edges
of your enchanting face;
your strong chest beckons to embrace;
large, safe, secure hands to hold,
fingers interlaced.

Yes, I confess,
I am addicted to visions of you
to being lost in the ever-changing blue,
the secrets beautiful
in your eyes.

Feed, Love, feed this craving need
for more snapshots
more frozen moments
more memories & more dreams
of you.
originally written 12th Dec 2024
82 · Jun 2
Heart Hole
Rubyredheart Jun 2
There’s a gaping chasm
Empty, hollow, waiting…
A you-shaped heart-hole
Sometimes tiny tidbits of your world waft this way
Drawn by magnetic pull, crashing into me
They help soothe the edges for brief moments as they land
Or sometimes amplify the absence  
only echoes of desire
Phantoms
  
True balm to ease this open wound
Would be your words, your voice, your image…
Your life aligned with mine…
For now the trickling ointment
Evidence of your existence
must satisfy
These droplets matter
To my aching heart.
  
I Love & Miss
You…
YOU—the missing piece
still
Originally published 5th May 2022 | Edited 24th Jan 2023 on DUP
82 · May 5
remain
Rubyredheart May 5
you dwell so deep within my fantasy
i cannot loose you from my longing
your name and touch flow through my veins
your body is my heat
your face and voice though faded, reappear
in watercolor visions of my dreams
your erasure fails
because you are my book of memories
you’ll ever be my always wish
when i frame my love
when i draw the walls of home
there you remain
my love
ever haunting my hope
originally written 16th Apr 2023
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