poison ivy
the looks so innocent
so sweet

the raindrops like pearls
brightening your evergreen
looks

do you feel lost
staring out of the window
at a nature wall
into the depths of it

not knowing who you are

I sit and think
what is life
is it worth it
is it even worth fighting for

but then I hear a tragic story
here and there
tears
pain
unbearable

and I reflect and think
I am healthy
I am alive

I should live

the simple things in life
lift my spirit

and the simple things in life
crush my spirit

a sweet word can mean so much to me
yet the happiness fades within days, hours, or even minutes

I wish I could invite joy into my heart
and make it stay.

I have always loved the raindrops on my skin
summer rain
or rain when spring just started

the scent of beauty
the scent of being carefree
the scent of being alive

I am so in love with the
rain

What do I know about this world?
What did I ever?

am I lost
am I searching
did I have found
and am I just blind?

The beauty of this world
seems unbearable
so tragic
so perfect

Do I ever fit in?

hands
intertwined
so in love with you

your skin against mine
all I need
all I want

you whisper i am so in love with you

And I am trying to believe it

Because why would you love someone like me?