the simple things in life
lift my spirit

and the simple things in life
crush my spirit

a sweet word can mean so much to me
yet the happiness fades within days, hours, or even minutes

I wish I could invite joy into my heart
and make it stay.

poison ivy
the looks so innocent
so sweet

the raindrops like pearls
brightening your evergreen
looks

do you feel lost
staring out of the window
at a nature wall
into the depths of it

not knowing who you are

I have always loved the raindrops on my skin
summer rain
or rain when spring just started

the scent of beauty
the scent of being carefree
the scent of being alive

I am so in love with the
rain

hands
intertwined
so in love with you

your skin against mine
all I need
all I want

you whisper i am so in love with you

And I am trying to believe it

Because why would you love someone like me?

What do I know about this world?
What did I ever?

am I lost
am I searching
did I have found
and am I just blind?

The beauty of this world
seems unbearable
so tragic
so perfect

Do I ever fit in?

I sit and think
what is life
is it worth it
is it even worth fighting for

but then I hear a tragic story
here and there
tears
pain
unbearable

and I reflect and think
I am healthy
I am alive

I should live