Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
Being your best friend
Is a must

Ashes to ashes
Waves on waves
The way that you speak
Must save lives

Ashes to ashes
Wind by wind
I never want us
Out of mind.

When confusion's my companion
When fear reaches into my heart
When I just want to cry

Like I did today

I only let the tears in for a split second.

Then I crank music
As loud as can be
Singing God's praises

And I bring back the dancing-the ballet
I learned as a child.

I danced around the kitchen
Losing myself in the happiness of Grace

Darling, in my eyes
There's no way to disguise
That darling, your so beautiful.
Stop putting yourself down.

I can see in you
A door to walk through
A way to escape this hell
Stop putting yourself down

I don't understand
How even a strand
Of you could be imperfect
Stop putting yourself down.

Am I the only one
Really the only one
Who misses out on fun
And stays out of the sun?

Am I the only one
Really the ony one
Who doesn't have a BF
Who doesn't have a love?

Am I the only one
Really the only one
Who sits around with no one
No one to love on me?

Am I the only one
Really the only one
Who feels this unloved
I wish I had "the one"

Lord, give me

Love
Of those around me

Joy
In your voice

Peace
With myself, and others


Patience
For the one you have reserved
For my arms

Kindness
Even when I don't feel like it

Goodness
To those in need

Faithfulness
To the ones I love
And the ones I don't

Gentleness
With the hearts of those I speak to

Self Control
With my sins

And life everlasting.
Bless me, Lord, I pray.

Who are you
To text me
Call me
Message me

Get my hopes up

Thinking it's him
Him

I fell in love with that
Calm smile
Happy
And content

I fell in love with those
Long
Smooth fingers
Intertwining with my own
And my heart

I fell in love with
Long talks over the internet
Tight hugs when I see you again

I fell in love with
His eyes
Bright
And dark
Knowing
And innocent

I fell in love with him
*And I hate myself for it.

Swag is for boys
That's what I liked then
But, just have to say
Class is for men.

I like my men
With bits of respect
Now, I gotta say
"Swag's" a defect

When I marry
Instead of some swag
I want some class
Sewn into my man.

half-form words....

sentences brok
en in two

thoughts never brought to

    wishes stuck
the  inside   confines
     of my head

dreams of golden castles and...
...ever after:
half-dreamt

lose the shackles
of this life
find the whole
among the many
broken parts

no thread completes
the picture

all
by itself

lines brokenly straight, if all alone -

there is purpose
beauty
promise
in the broken and the
shattered dream

each fragment fused
defines the fullness
of the frame

and beauty from the watered ash
will rise

for

together broken
           is
together whole

i watch you fade
into the night
of formless shadows
shapeless sins

they swirl around you
before the strike
of deathly terrors
shrieking fiends

breathe it in
you say
to hold the
powers of darkness
at bay

let them in
and they will play
a little pain
like dancing splashes
of pouring rain
so quickly gone

keep them out
and they will rend
the very fibers of your soul
and when your blood
drips
upon the thirsty ground
they will stoop to smell
your fear

so breath it in
the darkling mist
come let them play
within the midst
of all your halfway
dreams
and thoughts of bliss

-

but in the end
the deepest pit
by spoonfuls dug
tick by tock
a dragon's bane
may prove

and
if the gifting shadows
fade
you will see
in the looking-glass
not your own
but the mirror of a madman
driven by
that
precious fear
to sell the soul
of all that he holds dear

Everyone can see the effects of the hurt
And they tell me everything will be OK.

But they don't *see me