Why do I still need to know you're okay to fall asleep?

Why do I still want to see you smile?

Why do I still think of you?

Even though, I know that I don't love you.

I may not be agressive or violent
But Im protective
So dont expect me to be kind to you
Don't except me to smile at you
Don't expect me to think high of you
If you've done wrong to one of my friends.
They may have seen passed your mistakes but I'm not so forgiving ✳

Feeling forgotten
Feeling replaced
Im in a daze and feeling out of place

Need some people who want me around
I guess I just feel
Completely ignored

But I guess its just a taste of my own medicine

"Dont live the same day 75 times
and call it a life"

Can you tell me how it feels
To not care about a thing anymore?

Can you tell me how it is
That you seem so confident and not so insecure?

Can you tell me how to live
Without negativity by being positive?

Cause I can't see
The same light that you seem to see~

Over this past week
Everything has gone so well
Yet at the same time
Its been like hell

I'm either sky high
Or six feet under

This is too much
Im just trying to recover