her mouth opens
silent scream
her hands clutch her heart
so uselessly
salty tears curl around her cheeks
drip on her tongue
everything sounds like tv static
her lungs are in a panic

nausea ad nauseum
my guts twist & burn
just cut them out & let them steam on the floor
i don't have time for this

i want

i want to break everything
to throw it out the window & set it ablaze
i want to

****
i want to break you

cukf
w tnoa oe iytba rok

break
i want to *******

with unspeakable words like stones in my mouth
i sink to the bottom & drown

i have nightmares like shattering glass
my thoughts are poetry that i can't chase down
i bleed black ink instead of blood
i cry hot wax
i smell like twisted *** dreams
my ribs crush my heart into diamonds
& my saliva drips like silk threads

a crunch
a wet thud & then the slap of skin against pavement
broken cartilage
fractured bones
a valley opens
a dam bursts
thick black blood pools on the cement