I came home always happy
every day was my happy
no poetry of any philosophy
no thoughts any darkness of death

I came home always happy
I always had a sun in my heart
no one can believe that I can
be in sorrow
in sadness
and in the dark

so it was before
and this is no longer to return
that bright ray disappeared
disappeared
it can not be returned

so it was before
and this is no longer to return
the sun has disappeared
was lost
now it's night

dark horrifying night
without love in the heart without affection
now my childhood has passed
real life came
the sorrow has come

13.06.18

my eyes crying
my eyes crying
my eyes in sorrow
my eyes in sorrow
everyday
everyday

my eyes are dying
my eyes are dying
my eyes are dying
my eyes are dying
everyday
everyday


05.07.18

I'm on my way
fate cuts
fate blesses

I'm on my way
everyone hates
everyone loves

I'm on my way
and is insignificant
and beautiful

I'm on my way
and the path is wonderful
and the way is terrible

I'm on my way
I'm on my way
I'm on my way

I'm on my way

i want believe
i want believe
i want believe
in happines

i want believe
i want believe
i want believe
in sunny day

i just want believe
i just want believe
i just want believe
in blue sky

i want believe
i want believe
i want believe
in happy life

i want believe
i want believe
i want believe
in pretty day

i just want believe
i just want believe
i just want believe
but i can't

i want believe
but i can't
i want believe
but i can't
i want believe
but i can't

I walk every day like in the desert
I do not know what for
for whom and for what purpose
my existence

I walk every day like in the desert
in search of some answer
in search of some kind of truth
which in fact is not present

I walk every day like in the desert
bright sun beats me
cold of Russian frosts ****
but I'm going and I don't know why


02.04.18

dark
in
light

long long
time
in
light

yellow yellow
dark
in
light

my face
my eyes
in
light

in
dark


06.01.18

YES
AND
ONLY
YES!

30.11.17