I sat in the church parking lot
upwards of an hour
at 1 in the morning
to cry with the rain
and I just want to know
if that is how I'm supposed to feel
at 18
in the summertime

in sleepless nights
why do you want everything to hurt
when you could alleviate your pain
you sulk through the days
not caring who you've damaged
your pain is your burden
but you carry it so well
retrieve the memories of me
remember you and I
we didn't harbor pain
but you couldn't bear the harmony
so you cut the strings
and damaged the chords
our symphony's shriveled sound
no longer beat to our drums
your heart had changed tunes
but why is all I've ever asked
would you rather lay in a casket
surrounded by roses
than in the tall grass
on summer days
staring back at me

good boys can wait their turn
have me when I'm dead and ready
right now im physcotic
only care about narcotics
this raging traffic inside my head
symphonic, I'm overdosing
always going
catatonic
because I'm a doll hooked on adderall
you wish I'd fall
I know you wanna see me off the ledge
but I'm 6 feet tall
in my fur coat stillettos golden halls
turning gray alleys and we can't breathe
we can't breathe and death's a tease
******* thief
if you ask me
and what I wouldn't give
for a bad boy to just be good
treat her right, one night
to hold a hand with no claws
kiss a face, no bite involved
all these boys from outta town
already dead, and out of ground
giving me heartache, fade in, blackout
it's too **** late
just wanna sleep
take another pill, live-in hell
it's all you ever wanted
la princessa fell