Lying on this earth bed
The cold sky looking down
Thin air filing my head
No sound to be found

Broken smiles, broken hearts
Filing my thoughts
I was simply torn apart
And this was all for naught

My place of peace
Surronded by the quiet  
Surronded by trees
To clear my head for tomorrow's riot

The skies spinning around
But I the tears still fall
I stay planted on the ground
As the sadness calls

Tomorrow a smile will be back in place
But for now I can soar through space

Trembling beneath the weight of these words
These words that entice these broken bones
To sway to the memories reincarnating in my mind
This melody that brings these frozen tears to my eyes
So they hang by the thin threads
Crystallizing in my soul
Frost bitten by my breath

This song that brings me back to my youth
Brings me back into that careless mirage
Has me floating in my liquid dreams
Spiraling off every syllable

I crescendo with the feverish voice pouring into my ears
Cry with the beauty,
Cry for being homesick of those years
Where I was blissfully unaware
With these words heavy underneath my skin

We open our eyes
Estranged and confused to the world around us
We lay bare and vulnerable
Wide eyed and easily frightened

Time elapsed
We're kicked and pushed
Loved and hated
Given hope
It's torn away

We still fight
Told of a light
That can bring us peace
Bring us deliverance
From the pain

We smile although at night we cry
That familiar sting in your eyes and nose
That tug at your heart
Which pulls you apart

We create bonds
Give our souls to one another
As we continue to fight
Our bodies sore
Our minds slightly broken

And then we close our eyes
Tiny lights dancing behind
Our eyelids
Slipping off like dew on a morning daisy

We begin again

Landfill of broken integrity
Trapped beneath the weight of the world
Slowly drowning under the uncertainty
Of this path I was hurled
onto

Shuddering with the stench of death in my nose
These forgotten nightmares are churning in my head
I'm lying in a place where everyone goes
Once they are dead

The skies no longer gleam with little lanterns lighting the way
The streets are bare and desolate that ring with no sound
The trees are fossils of life that once swayed
Along with the wind that was once so profound

The world is but a corpse rotting away
Once filled with bright eyes
Is now forgotten while its flesh decays
Just another world to die

I sat before the court
Only each face staring back at me,
was my own

What are you dreams?
How about your goals?
What are the mountain tops
you climb to make you whole?

I closed my eyes
I tried to think,
but the harder I tired
the farther I start to sink

My only goal is to find my way out
This place is cruel and evil
Intentions are always stained
with some ulterior motive

Love is always killed by hate
The light becomes the enemy
It leaves me in a broken state.

My dreams were crushed,
before I ever dreamed
I stare in my own eyes,
and wonder what it's worth?
There's no love for me,
nothing here for me on Earth.

Sometimes I figure this place is hell
No way to prove it, so no way to tell
I fight the urge to torture myself
Somehow it's like settling my debts,
Debts that were dealt with someone
I've never met

The gavel smacks once
And the jury decides
I'm already imprisoned
In the prison inside

Left and right I was surronded,
I couldn't breath,
The air that managed to fill my longs,
Was opaque with dust and clouded,
I felt like I was falling,
And there was no wings to catch the wind,
And pull me up to soar,
I thought this fatal fall was something made up,
A myth to scare the kids,
But right now though I was planted to the ground,
I was falling,
With no control

Cold
So numb
Almost dead
Breathe in my last
Running from my past
Spun out I would have crashed
So torn and broken I lied
This whole life, I was pretending
I cry to see it now ending
Troubled I run away from my heart
To find what had really pressed start
Glue that held my fake smile
Love that lasted awhile
Heart put on trial
Pain went viral
Love spiral
Smile
Gone

Release these chains
But leave one remain
This one runs deeper than blood
This one lives embroidered in my veins

Rain pelts the sidewalk before me
cleaning away the past,
swept away like broken glass
leaving it empty.

The skies are dark
And my heart is sad
My screams echo
And only make the neighbors mad
My tears mean nothing
The never did
Slowly they unravel
My feeling I hid
I am bare
Before the crowd
This pain won't cease
And the roars are loud
I'm falling faster
Than I have before
I pray you save me
Before they seal the doors
Can you hear me?
I'm screaming loud
Can you hear me?
Above the crowd?
Please I lay here
Unshakle me
I'm dying slowly
As you watch me bleed
I'm not a monster
Though I feel I am
Because any things better
Than being human

Dew drops in the dawn
Cricket choirs overhead
The stars so neatly drawn
Above an earthly kind of bed

The birds will sing softly
As they dip and soar, alive!
Hearts beating like soft wings
Waiting for the sun to arrive

Blinking lights below sunrise
Take breath away, so honestly
I’d never seen fireflies  
Until you pointed them out to me
Blanketed by the tickling fog
Excited by the breeze
Surrounded by the comfort
Of the sweet tranquility of trees

Head back in awe
Gazing at the vast sky
Eyes wide with laughter
Who knows what comes
In twilights after
When you’re not afraid to die

To learn to live in the moments
That are bright like imagery
To hang off every word transpired
By brown eyed chivalry

For once to be distracted
To truly be at peace
I allow myself to be surrounded
By the safety of your trees

I had forgotten
The way it felt to smile
I let the memory fade
I haven't felt anything for a while
But worst of all I felt sorry for myself
This is what brought me back from the dead
I had forgotten to breathe
And had suffocated in my self pity instead
I had forgotten that I am not the only one
To feel lost and out of place
I think I forgot
That this life isn't a race
I let it slip my mind
That we're all in this together
That we stand as one
And suffer the same weather
I know I forgot the good things in life
Because I focus so much on the pain
I forgot about the sun
Because I always watched the rain
I lost myself in the dark
When the light was right behind me
I forgot to open my eyes
So I could see
Until I felt it inside
The music filled my soul
I felt it fill me up
Making me whole
I think I spent all this time sleeping
And now I've woken up
I forgot about fighting
And spent so much time giving up
Until I found the surface
Now I can breathe

Light shines in on our bodies as broken rays
Your warmth heats my frozen winter toes
It's these magical mornings I lay awake
That I finally feel like I am home

The way I see it you're all ready gone
I push away so fast
The way I see it I'll be leaving by dawn
This night was our last

I'll be packing my bags and leaving soon
Don't worry you'll find much better
When the clock strikes  at the tip of noon
My eyes will grow a bit wetter

There's no turning back I try to believe
In these words that I say
It's time to go, it's my time to leave
I've been ready to do this all day

The train goes by
I wonder why
I never boarded that train
Maybe love is deeper than
This fear of causing pain

Tall or is it small?
The quite whispers of the trees
They all talk in circles
Going around my head
The trees spin
And I sit
Within it's quiet company
Sleeping against the ground
Stroking the pain of my heart
I feed it my tears
It takes all my strength not to break
Holding on to my love
Holding on to the trees
On to the roar of the water
To the melting snow
To the reawakening birds
And the beautiful song of the wind brushing against the leaves
Holding on to the warmth that the sun pours
Loving us all
I walk ahead
Just to listen
And there as the birds all watch down
I want to live instead

Long pale fingers
dance across the old white piano keys
A sorrowful melody sings

The room is lit in candles
like a dream
and the darkness swells with passion
what does this mean?

One step towards you
feels like two steps back
how can I love you
when you can't love me back

The rain outside
covers the pain I hide
as I dance around the room

This mansion built on top of hopeless fears
is empty as I yell for you
no one hears

I just keep dancing
to the song you play
each note remains
in my head

I keep falling for the same thing
over again

You're the one that torments my dreams
and strings my heart along
with the same old
dance
and same old
song

I'm just a lonely spirit
drifting in this memory
of when you were the beast
and I was the beauty

Quivering under the pressure of the beasts stare,
My heart in his gripped fist, 
All will be well, 
Breath trickling down the bare skin of my neck, 
This phantom of my dreams haunting me, 
Insomnis dreams, 
Dreams yet so real, 
All will be well
Wake with a start, searching to locate the laughter, but the room is empty.
Slowly lie back down and pull the blankets securely around me,
Close my eyes and edge back into sleep, 
A cold dances down my spine, 
Another presence, 
Who, I ask myself, haunts my dreams?

Blink away the tears
Focus on the mirror
Look into my eyes
Rummage through the tossed away lies
To find
That in the mess there was a kind
Of letter closed away
From me, not meant to stay
Smooth it out and read amongst the lines
Deep breaths will keep me fine
Why?
Is it me?
You desert?

Headlights
Blinding me
Coming towards me
Now I can't see
I am not afraid anymore
To look death in it's eyes
My arms are outstretched wide
I see a light
Coming towards me
Blinding me
Headlights

Dark, always dark
The walls are painted by blood
So scared as the brilliant red
Drips in an uneven path
Stopping at my shaking legs
Slightly aware of my freshly sliced wrist
Everything begins to fade out to grey
I want to pass out
But the voices in my head screams
Telling me to open my eyes
Write the lies on the wall
Repent for your sins
It screams in my head
And as I push at it
Trying to escape
My skin tears open slowly
This time it's me whose screaming
Begging, pleading
Write the lies on the wall
Inside my head they scream
I want to move but the pain hold me immobilized
My eyes begin to bleed
I might just explode
As my head throbs
And my skin breaks
Thank god I woke up

When I write,
My whole word is clear,
When I write,
I escape this tainted mirror,
When I write,
I forget my self pity,
When I write,
I feel smart and witty,
When I write,
Time  stands still,
When I write,
words are at my will,
When I write,
I am proud of every piece,
When I write,
The rambling in my head seems to cease,
When I write,
Everything makes sense,
When I write,
I can explain all the things that are dense,
When I write,
I become complete,
When I write,
I become elite

In this torrid darkness
I cannot find my way
I've gone so far, I can't get out
Look what I've done to them
Look what I've done to myself
I've made a mess
And a fool of myself