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kanma Oduwegwu Sep 2015
For some reasons
It seemed so right
To move out of life
renting a space in hell
awaiting my death

This became my fate
On that painful Friday
as I ran through hate
Punching my face on glass
With eyes open and sore
I chose death to life
When I said those words
     "I QUIT"
that will hunt me for life
as I retell I sigh
remincing my rash induced pain
Swallowing spittle to give gain
Holding on to withdrawn hands
Screaming in my dreams
As I cuss loudly
Bemoaning my fate
When I chose the path
Not carved by God
as he clearly told me....as I moved far away
"My daughter please stop"
Repent and return
as hell is in front
and regrets pursue you

I turned and sought
those arms I love
rewriting my words
Hoping for good...
But changes will be as I still remember
My five insane minutes of hell!!!
kanma Oduwegwu Jul 2014
that day at the bank i fondly remember,
when you stood up to defend the stranger i was..
the smiles that followed left prints so deep...
as your caring self kept defending my me

i smile as i remember your voice loud and clear
as you gave instructions yet doing all the chores
leaving me to be "the child" that will make you proud
my mama you are....... the love cannot fade

i can't forget the moments of joy and sadness
always leading to a stronger us!

the days we wished never came.......
the peace we had never left.........
the joy we shared non can fathom
as your unique self is rare to behold.........

As night faded i remembered in my sleep that my mama so good was born on this day...........
I may not do all i ought to do
i may not say all i have to say
but i remember this day that you were born
for many may not know but "you are set to tidy the world"

For my roommate and great friend
* for the challenges we conquered together
* for that great bond of friendship
* for our joy that has no comparison

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY AMILY
    [for my roommate...........Udechukwu Lucy Amaka]
kanma Oduwegwu Dec 2014
sadness made a mark
in the still of the day
#lost an archive of poems that i had not documented else where cos i had to format my cell# wish i saved it to the clouds........ *unhappy*
kanma Oduwegwu Dec 2014
the smiles faded with the sun
having hopes to scrape the moon
leaving the dreams to fade
sending the faint leave all away

stupid stupor rock their being
making smiles the labor of life
leaving dust on sand dune tops
making clay to sound like Gold

moving in i wonder and smile
if the sun rose with my face
making my being target for the day
leaving all I'll laugh till dawn
kanma Oduwegwu Aug 2014
shaping their destinies
strangers partake
moving their fellowship
yet call it fate


choices forbade them
friends set to chatter
even in distress
murmurings must stir


live life to fullness
trusting your shadow
help now in transit
choice you must take
kanma Oduwegwu Nov 2015
These days in doubt
my sanity proven
culled from my lovitude
or should I say attitude
maybe solitude
'cos I thought I was on guard
Until fall I did
without a thud,
slowly the fade began
until the voice stopped
no more reprimands
questions stopped
conscience slept
and I roared
happy to soar
then it returned
Fear,
pain,
uncertainty
and I retraced my steps
not without scars
for this haven we savoured
with its perks and glints
now hold ashes
for me,
us,
I can't sit still without thinking
of purity sold
guard let down
to lovitude's joy
as sorrow flooded
The wasted me

I might not relate to this
but I do translate it
can I still sit in your arms
without regrets of disappointments thrown
of regrets without end
for that moment this madness began.
kanma Oduwegwu Dec 2014
Birthing three but mothering five,
Having the waves that conquer guilt,
Pushing the pain of weeping Kiddo's outta my heart with the space I create.

Conceiving three but cuddling five,
With the wild heat of motherhood in me,
Making their pain seem less that day
Wiping their tears with the space I create.

Loving five with an uncommon gait,
Breaching the gap that smears their plight,
Wishing the sun will shine tonight
Making them one with the space I create.
*I only hope he wouldn't say no to this strange request.
(God helping me)
kanma Oduwegwu May 2015
left after suckle
as babes in the wood
he whispered his goodbye
with sour quavering lips
the wonders of stardoms
that captured his heart
now i mean all
to myself only and life

he left with a buckle
to get me a ram
and came back so gleeful
i left all to hear
he ranted of stardom
but left me behind
the moment that struck me
my life took a turn

he left with his sickle
and i found my me
the entity hidden
beneath his towering gaze
now i peeped at the world
for the first time in life
this thing would not be
if he never said bye

i live with my sparkle
i got all alone
the moment he left me
i picked up and ran
i caught on with age grade
their laughter and all
i now drill the wonders
of pure water mines.
kanma Oduwegwu Dec 2015
I wake this place up
To bare my woes to the world
letting youngster recover from health
Giving guilt covered in laughter
This job i'd gotten from d onset of time....
Treachery , piracy,poverty and purgatory.

But this day I reawake
Shake my conscience with warm milky drinks
hold my hands by myself with myself
forgiving past and present hurts
reminding my self of the star in the dream
the visions of light....made plain to me

Will I let all this go?
having hangover keepsakes of no worth?
******* grinds and grinding peace?
Playing with hearts that look like flesh...
as the woman in me reminds me
Star-girl you rock .....don't give them a chance
The wounds will heal and the scars you'll forget
Overlook the pains
Push through this bush
The the road so bright is behind the ticket.......
****bitter after taste of rash, sour decisions
kanma Oduwegwu Oct 2015
This day is drawing high
and shadows now flee
for perfection has come
and gladness knows me
and this cause that I pled
for so long as I trod
Waiting and hating
the gladness of sunrise, sunset and all
refusing to trust God
when the world was on the run
Leaving this Shield
My Rock and Salvation
diving heads first in the sea of pity
Till I found this new life
now this day I await
was born on the seventeenth day of October, and as long as I remember I've always dreaded that day. Despite all the pomp and laughter that accompaines that day I've always had a secret fear until this year...now I'm FREE!!!!
kanma Oduwegwu Apr 2016
expected it sooner
we are all made of clay
chaff,dust
too ***** to be clean
I swallowed all guile
hoping for good
held on to shadows
until this day
my eyes flew open
I stagger to stand
it won't reoccur
but I'm too weak to know

expected it sooner
my tears won't flow
not even for joy
that moment happened
I took my stand
the verdict so true
I guess you'll doubt
so sorry but its true
the little girl has grown
now word can't reform
I'm sorry but its true

I left fear behind
at home with the maid
now bye to you I say
anything holding me is gone
swept,crushed in anger and gone
i'm finally free
free to fly, to soar
I knew all this since dawn
but will this really last...
i'm clay and I remember
can I bear his piercing gaze?
kanma Oduwegwu May 2016
expected it sooner
we are all made of clay
chaff,dust
too ***** to be clean
I swallowed all guile
hoping for good
held on to shadows
until this day
my eyes flew open
I stagger to stand
it won't reoccur
but I'm too weak to know
expected it sooner
my tears won't flow
not even for joy
that moment happened
I took my stand
the verdict so true
I guess you'll doubt
so sorry but its true
the little girl has grown
now words can't reform
I'm sorry but its true
I left fear behind
at home with the maid
now bye to you I say
anything holding me is gone
swept,crushed in anger and gone
i'm finally free
free to fly, to soar
I knew all this since dawn
but will this really last...
i'm clay and I remember
can I bear his piercing gaze?
the **** of innocence is not necessarily in losing virginity but in purity lost, our society has lost it, many of us too.
kanma Oduwegwu Sep 2016
Sitting up, sunset peeps
Relieving some tales
I hope to retell
Of fathers that fathered
my eyes got to twitch
at sore dumps and roadblocks
their fate almost mine
but fate's can be blessings
For the best I have got.

It's not father's day
a normal day a-passing
but I can't ignore a ruby
let alone this Papa shining
Of all fathers that had fathered
My heart Twitch's on daily basis
Love with wonders
All surfacing
Calming stories
I go retelling
Unending blessings
and this I know
My daddy is rare
So glad to tell.
kanma Oduwegwu Jul 2014
Touch 'em in hiding
give 'em your smile
thanks from a shadow
slender arms song

give 'em a scolding
reduce their pain
lift up the covering
condemn their pride

leave 'em for karma
chasten their hearts
move in with vigor
but remain unseen
kanma Oduwegwu Feb 2015
I wonder how it feels for them out there
is love this rosy?
or filled with thorns
does his name bring smiles
to their lips without watch
or I'm uniquely blessed to feel this way

does his shadow chase shadows
that cluster their days
or bring more burdens of sorrow filled tales
with tears of hate that never will end
or joy as mine brings that brightens the moon

is love this rosy?
or its just me.....
that's blessed and favoured with
a great man like you.
kanma Oduwegwu Oct 2015
SALIENT BLESSING

On days like this
My wishes turn sour
Remembering the sound of your laughter
Holding onto the reins your humour threw
Remembering your rants, insecurities and all
Pushing me into a heap that never forms
Ava; forever, together
as turtle doves in Denver
I hold on to the shadow unleft
Cleft,  bent, swept
unknown yet renowned
unseen and covered
But like cover stories,
The first pages of magazines
Hold your face, story and all
But do they see this?
as I do or no
Does your name ring bells
In the world as in my heart?
or I'm back with my wordless questions with no audience to listen or nod
Am I this me or it's just you
this inspiration,
Method,
Moment,
Melody,
Music,
That pushes my pen and ignites lines unknown
as you remain unknown
and I ***** endless apologies.

When will this end?

This era of parading filth,
Homes in disarray,
men bound to labour,
Women as men in labour

What will befall the children
The testimonies of God's goodness
Evidence of creation not evolution
facts to hold on to
Moving miracles in torn clothes

When will this truly end?

Leaving this diversion,
I still honour you my grandmother
Silent heroine, moulder and mentor
taking in all the guile
fighting in weakness
holding on in pain
carving out tomorrow's moments
from today's baggage
pleading not with nature
Demanding nothing absurd
but silently unknown
I scream to the world

Wishes never last
as dew they know not when they leave
holding nothing, taking non
leaving the earth neither wet nor dry
But not you
making impacts silently
giving good
Despite the receipts
I hold nothing back as I rant of your good
Nnem ukwu onye efoma
You are blessed among women.
** nnem ukwu on ye efoma means my grand mother with a good heartheart.
kanma Oduwegwu Oct 2015
Lines aflow and about
rushed to welcome thee
and the bundle in thy hand
pushing buttons that said;
Hey!!!
Look straight
This poem is unread,
Unrevealed and strange
Hold tight....

Hold tight you did
This mama rare
In tears, pain and joy
you provided and chastened
leaping at the tiniest of successes
pushing boldness forth
caring like we were just one
but as for one, you did for all
with the grace on you
that I desire an inch.

those from that blessed womb
this sojourn is sweeter 'cos of you
#Losechukwu and Uweoma
my CEO's and executive minsters
You sweet-talked me to victory
#Ebubechukwu and Obianinulu
My pretty sisters from one blessed mother
Prof and Wizzy- Brain
being an Oduwegwu born Female would have been Boring without you guys

Friends, sweethearts, mentors, Fathers, Mothers, brothers and sisters. I wonder the turn my life would have taken without you guys.

Dadddyyy
I mentioned you last, cos I didn't know if the space above would be enough.
My Hero, Mentor, Teacher, Provider
You are many things in one thing
breaking odds and making roads
soothing our pain from afar
Daddy mi
I appreciate you
Having you is more than an inspiration
Words flee for fear
From your personality great
so stop I must against my wish

SUCF UNICAL &  DLCF UNICAL
God has blessed me through you, turning the frightened little girl into a confident woman right under your roof.

Space is pleading
and heed I must
for future chances I crave
and deny it can
but God knows my heart
He's been faithful and true
Giving me new chances
With each dawn of the day
I'm grateful for life
and chances about
Living till this day, is only from Grace

Grandmother divine
Nnemukwu onye efoma
I appreciate you!!!
Sharing this month with you
Is fulfilling and uplifting
You birthed the best and prettiest woman I know # C O Oduwegwu
Moulded her with thy hands
and taught her to groom us
I'm grateful for your birth.
Inspiration and strength
I draw from your life
When the day comes to go
You'll pass with smiles

Finally I stop
but I wish not so
but Gladness overflows
and you I must mention
My Children in DLBC Afia-eze
I love you guys
Your laughter, creativity & high-spirit
Bring strength to my bones.
kanma Oduwegwu Jan 2016
Eating deep, this green coloured skin
I'm coloured, I was told
I look real
But chose green
a reminder of me....unsmiley & mute
Noisy with lines, in contest with me
a life so battered it became the best
a name handed me in the moment I didn't decide
my favourite pastime
Pain.....
Healed in batches mostly by me
Lifes turn held nothing ....
except in my hands
new hopes I held to
....but from my pocket it came,
I'm responsible for all
no captain or coach
invincibility held hands
only I knew nothing new
grief
as old as its name
I guess this so boring
So I do not say.
kanma Oduwegwu Nov 2015
In anger and hate
I stormed out the house
the shadows of love
we built to our taste
in concrete and blood of relatives left
I wish I could stay
but never will I

I remember things
but to forget you I forget
holding hurt and guile or me and my thoughts
rarped up it tots that never was bought
I really wish I remember to forget you
but never will I

Where is this coming from?
What do I want from you
I left and I remember
so why not forget
kanma Oduwegwu Jul 2014
storms of confusion
thundering's of words
life with it's warmth
passed through the sea

labels of laughter
gifts of great smiles
holes around caves
moved life to bliss

care to be taken
lifes to be watched
hope in their thousands
cares to the wind
kanma Oduwegwu Jul 2014
Hope for tomorrow
thundering s in my mind
unclamped whispers
finishing the days as the come

lingerings after comments
expecting the no comment
reminding me to live
for life itself has a time

unknown yet known
in the nativity of reality
promising to remember seems mild
as i might never forget.
HOPE FOR TOMORROW
kanma Oduwegwu Dec 2015
Blessed hatred
push me in
As many more mourn my stand
It's too high
cliche
controlling
Confusing
But I love it.

It built me up,
Gave me rules that changed my exsistence
I might not follow through
But the pang of guilt at deserting reminds me of my stand....

It gave me values
Love,
Life,
and reasons for actions

My words depend on it
my appearance, actions and all
It's not boring as they say
But the excitement of growing pushes me on
                          
I might seem weird
wacky
Or brain washed
but the courage to face each day
my life has gotten
Living by Grace bound by laws....
Many people say this Jesus thing is outdated and controlling but for me, hope and strength for each day I draw from my masters love. It truly pays to serve **JESUS**
kanma Oduwegwu Feb 2015
these lines won't stop
till something starts
as pain goes on and i sleep in peace
with dreams for tomorrow
that they don't have

i wish but don't
to stay with them
to ask these questions
that cloud my head
and clear my mind of strange weird stuff

i think they dream
'cos they're human too
of the morrow bright
that never come
or horrible faces
with bombs to ****
and shatter their dreams
without much thought

I dream of a dream
to soothe their pain
but can this still work?
when death abounds
or increase their pain as i try to help

they seem to be soft
but no not them
for the pain that strengthens
even the lame
has come to them
and given them speed
but help they need
and without the us it might get to us

This faith that says
Yes or death
does it bring peace?
or more of death
to innocent fools that believed their pranks

My heart is washed
with tears of mine
as i write these lines
that give me guilt
for watching in peace
as they die strange deaths

I know i can help
and so i must
for destinies are buried
in tombs unmarked
for no one can tell
the dreams that lie there

some miss and miss
and never return
yet they flush our eyes
with economy sheets
to **** our hearts that pleads for peace
and leave these souls
to suffer till doom

we believe in you
Oh! creator divine
look at our case
and seal their lips
for help we want
and peace bring forth
as in a matter of days
we might be sold

I know their fate
may become mine
if i shut my lips
and gather more wealth
for so we have lived
forgetting their pain
these brethren in need
that we really don't see

*will your choice bring peace?
or many more deaths
in a few days the general elections will take place in my country (Nigeria) and many people are roasted alive, massacred, beaten to death daily in the North and a Muslim is at the top front for presidency please spare a little time to say a prayer for us...... For the innocent die without any record
kanma Oduwegwu Dec 2014
i want to apologize in advance for this post*


heaven tumbled as grasses rebelled
could this be rain?
or mere thought of water


pain now grasp my being
making me wonder if i could love him right

his love wraps me around and i bask in his peace
but i have this fetish that he might make me cry

he has given me no reason to doubt but i chose to live in fear
the result i now bear..... pain
i fear him.. his love, care, and shadow
but i hope he will one day understand  why i chose to say goodbye

closing my PC as he walks closer
i outta understand why
loving the feel of you but battling with the pain it brings
Two
kanma Oduwegwu Apr 2016
Two
I'm double
i'm not the me you know
lashed and and released by pain strung cords
i'm different
inseparable, covered
undiscovered
confusing, i know
my me is unknown
hidden by shadows
pls help me elope
I need wide space

i'm busted
crazy and know it
today I lost the battle
of myself, with myself, by myself, for myself
hands up in surrender
I move no further.....failed by trials
I want to elope.
Notes (optional)
kanma Oduwegwu Dec 2014
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kanma Oduwegwu Jul 2014
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kanma Oduwegwu Feb 2015
I wonder how it feels for them o
kanma Oduwegwu Dec 2014
laws that i create
and space overcame
the spottish help of Scottish fellows
that screams danger
and i still proceed
with caution to the wind
i walk on harms way
waiting to embrace the sharp embers of a furnace made with steel
of fairytale dinners in hell
and fatigued fluttered strongmen
bound by vain skinless hounds

songs that i write
with rhythms misplaced
moves the devil to dance
as i pine for all i want
the harmless danger i breathe
of harmful sour cream
i mix wheat with vinegar
and smile as i eat
as that weird stinging pain
stabbed my heart of all its might
with the help i freely gave,
withered me just before me

lines that i sketch
lead me to doom
helping vain and pain go through
wanting harm that looms abroad
withered  hands i dare not stretch
moving pains now bang my head
searching for my muse, that i might never find
i know i just have to get away from this new venture but i can't

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