How steep the passing,
How righteous the fall,
Lay me down
As you draw my spine,
As you claim to see it all.

I have no vision,
I have no career,
I pay my bills
As the final curtain bows,
As foreclosure is coming near.

There is no patience,
There is no advance,
Left in doubt
We will circle the drain,
We will leave things up to chance.

Ever smiled so hard it hurt your face
Ever laughed so hard you heart started to race
Because in that moment you were happy to be you
Proud of who you are
because in that moment you knew
that you don't intentionally hurt others
you don't intentionally feel the way you
In that moment you knew you found you

Hello my forgotten hymn
I can hear you in my head
I can see your face again

Sleep I need you so much
I crave your covers I touch
I long for the softness
Let me join you
Please sleep I need you

and it's five am,
and i should be getting
ready do to something,
anything,
but no,
i decide to
sit on the cold,
white bathroom floor,
with a lit cigarette,
and an empty bottle
of wiskey next
to me,
while in the bedroom,
my lover sleeps peacefully
on the squeaky, messy bed,
and patiently awaits
fot my arrival
back in bed,
which will never come.