Luna Maria

Luna Maria Dec 2020

I've been staring at the word
"online"
under your contact name
for the past hour
its staring back at me
I'm desperately waiting for a reply
(nothing)
i let jealousy take me over
because I know you're texting her
instead of me.

you're both online and i'm just here crying.

#sad #love #abandonment #fear #anxiety #text #texting #online #obsessive

Luna Maria Nov 2020

promise me

“don't leave me here, please.“
I begged myself,
while I was shaking and crying

I begged myself not to leave me in this.
In this awful state of mind.

and I promised myself that things would get better.

#sad #leaving #mind #thinking #alone

Luna Maria Nov 2020

I miss you

when you left
I searched every object in my room
because maybe one of them
still contains your smell.

still searching for pieces of you

#love #relationship #missing #long #distance #comfort #smell #lover

Luna Maria Nov 2020

to blossom again

stepped on
was the flower,
little did she know
she could grow back
and maybe become even more
graceful than she already was.

she only needs to realize that she's the same flower as before.

#sad #flower #blossom #graceful #change #power #love #different #growth #growing

Luna Maria Nov 2020

holding on

it feels like
I'm watering a flower
which is already dead

am I holding on for too long or

#dead #flower #nature #sad #love #feelings #giving #up #loving

Luna Maria Sep 2020

a giver

I've always loved you
so much more
than you loved me.

I am made to give so much love and I wonder if anyone will give me ever the same back.

#sad #love #loving

Luna Maria Sep 2020

a bright light

I hold the lighter
to light up her cigarette
and as I see her silhouette in de dark,
I wonder

can I also light up her life like that,
can I make it better
can I be a small, bright light.

<3

#special #moments #friends #first #time #smoking #wonder #cigs #life #living