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536 · Feb 2013
disrupted silence
Ironatmosphere Feb 2013
crows struggling to escape
crushing the atmosphere
trying to find happiness and cheer

dropping rocks into the blaring ocean
breaking the silence
being swallowed by the waves motion
532 · Oct 2013
Forever glowing
Ironatmosphere Oct 2013
There is a heart
Pulsating inside my chest
Glowing
Forever glowing
Radiating love
Ironatmosphere May 2014
This is a time when
Words have lost their meaning
Jumbled together like a dismembered jigsaw puzzle
This is when
The melody in your head
has been replaced by noise
Nothing makes sense enough
To even be titled
As nonsense
This is when
lost
doesn't even begin to describe you
530 · Feb 2014
Broken imagination
Ironatmosphere Feb 2014
Maybe I liked you because I thought you were broken
Just like I am
But as it turns out you never were
It was just my imagination
529 · Mar 2017
longing
Ironatmosphere Mar 2017
She longingly looked up at the stars

They were taunting her
Shining with their beautiful yet flawed perfection

They were shrinking her
******* all the oxygen out of her lungs
Slowly burning her life force to dust
Letting her become
One of them
527 · May 2017
Forgetting
Ironatmosphere May 2017
My plants are dying
I have lost my perception of time
It moves like the water I keep forgetting when to give them

Sometimes I feel myself staring into the darkness
And I can’t remember the last time I blinked
Or how long I’ve been there

I can’t answer the simple question of what I’ve been doing all day
Because I can’t remember if what happened,
Happened today or if it happened at all

I can’t tell my imagination from reality
I don’t know what is really happening
And what is just a dream

So, I think my plants will keep dying
But maybe some of them
Will even outlive me
526 · Mar 2015
Don't forget sunblock
Ironatmosphere Mar 2015
Never leave me in a place you can find
Hang up your curtains to shield me from the sun
I am your darkest secret
You better keep me in a place you can’t find
Never find me bleached from the sun
I am your darkest secret
Don’t let me rest in your head
Bury me in the ground instead
I am your darkest secret
Don’t let me ever be found
I really don't know why I wrote this or what this even is. My fingers just started typing and I let them.
524 · Dec 2013
Emotional Carcass
Ironatmosphere Dec 2013
I don’t let people in
I am my own therapist
No one gets to see the inside of this emotional carcass

My secrets are guarded
By seemingly logical thoughts
They can’t escape through my sewn together lips
Even if I would want them to

I am my own therapist
I don’t let people in
*ever
514 · Mar 2013
Perfection is a paradox
Ironatmosphere Mar 2013
Perfection is a paradox
If you’re perfect you have a flaw
Your lack of flaws  
The things that make you special
Human
Unique

If you’re not
You’re perfect
Your flaws
The things I love
The things that make you special
Human
Unique

I love the things you’re not supposed to love
It’s what makes you special
Human
Unique
I want someone who loves me because of my flaws, not someone who loves me despite of them.
508 · Jan 2014
Nothing
Ironatmosphere Jan 2014
You can’t push me down
You can’t make me hate myself
You can only make me hate the blindness of other people
And their idiotic need to push people down like they were tears
You want to be the highest on the power ladder
Instead of climbing you force other people down with a kick in the face
But you can’t push me down
You can’t control me
I am my own master
What you personally think means nothing to me
People like you mean nothing to me
Nothing at all
504 · Oct 2015
The floor is my best friend
Ironatmosphere Oct 2015
How do you tell somebody that you think you need therapy
That you’ve lost all of your creativity
That all you do is eat
Sleep
Cry
And repeat
That the floor is your new best friend
Because it’s got the best view of the ceiling
How do you tell them
That you drown your time with movies
Trying to escape
To a different reality
Where you are anyone but you
Because being you is more than you can handle right now
How do you tell them
That you just want somebody to hold you and stroke your hair
And tell you everything will be alright
How do you tell them the truth?
501 · Apr 2014
Over
Ironatmosphere Apr 2014
It is over
And we know it
We are preparing
We are drifting
So that it will hurt less
And it would have
If I hadn’t noticed
Because now I know what is happening
And I can only stand here watching
While this era
This great era
Is coming to an end
495 · Feb 2014
Alien
Ironatmosphere Feb 2014
I feel like an alien
Like I am on a planet that isn’t mine
And it is crawling with these disgusting creatures
That look exactly like me
And I will never escape
489 · Mar 2013
Heartless
Ironatmosphere Mar 2013
Waking up
Hands covered in blood
Chest aching
Nothing but a hole left
Seems like I
Drunk on dreams
Ripped it out
And mailed it to you
Guess I’m more heartless now than ever
486 · May 2014
Will we know?
Ironatmosphere May 2014
Will we know,
When we say goodbye,
That it is goodbye?
Or will it be just like any other day
Saying goodbye
Thinking I know
That I will see your face again
When I won’t
When I’ll never hear your voice again
And you’ll never hear mine
Will we know
When everything we are stops existing?
Will we know?
484 · Apr 2015
Rewind
Ironatmosphere Apr 2015
My body is splayed out on the asphalt
Limbs twisted in unnatural ways
Seven floors up a window hangs open
Cracked skull
Broken bones
A little pool of red

Rewind
*What am I doing?
477 · Nov 2013
Stuck on repeat
Ironatmosphere Nov 2013
I have almost completed 18 laps around the sun
18 laps of winters turning into spring
18 laps of summers turning into fall
A circle of life stuck on repeat
Just like I am
Just like my life
I am stuck on repeat
Never really living
Just counting days
Waiting for the next hour to come
The next day
The next year
I am stuck on repeat
Waiting for the life I haven’t lived to end
Forgetting to enjoy the journey
Looking at the wall instead of the view
I have completed almost 18 laps
Stuck on repeat
475 · Sep 2013
Future
Ironatmosphere Sep 2013
The future lies before us
untouched like fresh snow.
474 · Mar 2013
I wish
Ironatmosphere Mar 2013
I wish I was an otter
And that you were one too
You'd never drift away
We’d stay forever together
Always holding hands
Otters hold hands while sleeping, so that they won’t drift away.
471 · Dec 2021
Lines
Ironatmosphere Dec 2021
Lines have appeared on my face
It's uncomfortable
Evidence of a life lived
Even though it has just begun

And I wish that I when I'm old
And the lines have deepened
And my skin is sagging
I'll look in the mirror
And see only a life well lived
465 · Feb 2013
You. It's all about you.
Ironatmosphere Feb 2013
Thoughts of you spam my mind
I try, but fail to concentrate
On anything but you

Every song is about you
Every book is about you
Every film is about you

My eyes are missiles
Automatically targeting you
My ears are malfunctioning hearing aids
Blocking out everything but your voice  

Every dream is about you
Every day is about you
My life is about you
It's all about you
456 · Oct 2015
Ripping off my skin
Ironatmosphere Oct 2015
I want to rip my skin off
This layer covering me
Hiding me
Shielding me from the sun
My fingers are itching
I’m banging my head against the wall
Clutching at the metal bars
I’m going crazy in this world
This world that is too small
There are too many people
And I don’t have anyone at all
448 · Mar 2014
Saltwater
Ironatmosphere Mar 2014
And in the morning
I find myself
Wondering
Where did all of the saltwater come from?
447 · Feb 2014
Enjoy (10w)
Ironatmosphere Feb 2014
I want to enjoy
the world
before
we ruin
it.
446 · Sep 2014
I really do
Ironatmosphere Sep 2014
I miss singing
I miss singing at the top of my lungs
So loud the whole neighborhood hears
I miss singing
Now that I live in this house that isn’t my home
A place that never seems to have enough air
For me to even breathe
I miss singing
I really do
445 · Sep 2013
Animal
Ironatmosphere Sep 2013
My heart is a circus animal
Confided in a cage
Scratching at the walls
The visible pain invisible
To people passing by
443 · May 2017
release
Ironatmosphere May 2017
Maybe I’ve been holding the words in too long
Because now they are too afraid to come alone
442 · Mar 2013
Fairytale (short)
Ironatmosphere Mar 2013
They told me the tale of a fairytale place
Filled with a beauty I had yet to face
The most harmonic tunes one would ever hear
And as many butterflies you’d like, my dear
Everything tasted better than your favorite ice cream
A more wonderful place than one could ever dare dream
I climbed up the ladder into the sky above
On my quest to find some infinite love
441 · Feb 2015
Lessons of the day
Ironatmosphere Feb 2015
. My mascara isn’t really waterproof.
. Food can’t replace happiness, no matter how hard I try to make it.
. It still smells like puke, even if it’s only been down for 10 minutes.
438 · Jan 2015
Don't look
Ironatmosphere Jan 2015
I don’t like it
when people
look at me.
I’m always afraid
that they will see
the cracks
in my soul,
and realize
that they don’t even
want me
as a shadow.
All the words that occupied my mind disappeared into the oblivion.
433 · Dec 2017
Guilt
Ironatmosphere Dec 2017
Sometimes life feels like
a punishment
Like it is this thing
that is keeping you,
Stopping your soul
from being intertwined
in the treetops
Or roaming free
in the waves
And dancing
in the wind

And then the guilt comes creeping
Shouldn't you be happy?
Shouldn't you be content?
You have so much
How dare you ask for more?
430 · Dec 2013
walk with me
Ironatmosphere Dec 2013
Walk with me under the dead trees
Tell me secrets that are lies
Let the shadows tattoo my skin
Look me in the eye as tears run a marathon down your face
Unlock the doors to your heart and mind
and  
**let me in
427 · Mar 2014
Every road
Ironatmosphere Mar 2014
They say that every road leads somewhere
And
To just keep going.
But I want nothing more than to lie down on the pale asphalt
And stare at the stars
Forever,
Because I can’t possibly believe that any moment,
Any other moment,
Big or small,
Could be any better
Than this.
423 · Feb 2013
Dancing in the rain
Ironatmosphere Feb 2013
Dancing in the rain
Blinded by reflected sunlight
For one moment feeling absolutely free
412 · Jun 2013
Oxygen (10w)
Ironatmosphere Jun 2013
You are oxygen to me
I cannot breathe
Without you
Ironatmosphere Feb 2014
When I saw the new layout of hello poetry
My heart sank
They had ruined the home of my broken soul
Torn out the pages of my dear old diary
And sprinkled it like snow
In a sea of useless functions
411 · Jun 2013
Raining
Ironatmosphere Jun 2013
It started raining again
And then it stopped
Leaving no other trace than a wet street and damp grass

But the thing is
I know it will start again
If I just wait long enough

Because it’s always there
Hanging over my head
Like a balloon
This poem isn’t really about the weather.
409 · Mar 2013
Nuclear (10w)
Ironatmosphere Mar 2013
This love is nuclear
Powerful enough
To destroy
Absolutely everything
407 · Dec 2013
miniature oceans
Ironatmosphere Dec 2013
And at night
I break down
Creating a thousand miniature oceans
1 december 2013
397 · Mar 2013
You didn't truly exist
Ironatmosphere Mar 2013
I painted a picture of you
In my head
After a few seconds
It had spread
Infecting my body like virus
The idea of a perfect you
Shutting everything out

I dreamt in the daylight
Gave you qualities you never had
Forgetting who you really were
My heart longed for someone
Who didn’t truly exist

I fell in love with a perfect picture
I fell in love with an idea
I fell in love with an illusion
Not you, in conclusion
395 · Jan 2013
Invisible darkness
Ironatmosphere Jan 2013
Invisible darkness
Enveloping cold
Silent screams
Fading gold

Angry Ocean
Blushing sky
Deafening silence
Trying not to cry
389 · Feb 2014
You were the sun
Ironatmosphere Feb 2014
If I was a tree
You were the sun
And now that you are gone
I am dying
388 · Mar 2013
Run. Faster.
Ironatmosphere Mar 2013
Faster and faster
I run
Feet on pavement
My lungs, aching
My legs, sore
My mind raw
I push on
Faster
Faster
Almost taking off
Almost leaving this sorry-*** place behind
385 · Feb 2018
Diary excerpt
Ironatmosphere Feb 2018
I stopped taking them
The pills
I didn’t want to rely on them
To be happy, but not too happy
Or to sleep, but not too much
And to eat the right amount.
I wanted to be able to do it by myself
Without the manipulation of my neurotransmitters
And surprisingly enough
I could
I can
I’m fine
Balanced
In a way I haven’t been in years
But I’m cautious
I lied to my psychiatrist
She doesn’t need to know
My mood could flip in an instance
I could spiral again
Loose control
And fall down the same hole I just climbed out of
So, she doesn’t need to know
I need the pills to still be there if I need them
If not for a change in my biology
But for the hope
That makes the fall bearable
384 · Jun 2013
To live forever
Ironatmosphere Jun 2013
There once was a boy
He wished to always live
to never die
He forgot that
No one else
Would live
Forever
Everyone else
Would
Die
While he would stand there
Watching
Unable to do anything
To
Stop it
There are things scarier than dying.
383 · Aug 2014
Is this a mistake?
Ironatmosphere Aug 2014
I can’t breathe
I feel like I’m suffocating
Like my brain will just stop working of lack of oxygen
There is no going back
382 · Mar 2016
Time
Ironatmosphere Mar 2016
I hate time
I hate that it moves fast and that it moves slow
I hate that it always keeps moving
And that there is never enough
I hate that it is unstoppable
And that we can never go back
377 · Nov 2013
rock star
Ironatmosphere Nov 2013
I don’t care if I look stupid.
Right now,
I’m a rock star.
368 · Mar 2014
Among the Trees
Ironatmosphere Mar 2014
Red fur
Black long socks
Almost floating
Through a palace of trees
Golden eyes gleaming
In the velvet night
Perfectly
Quiet
The fox says nothing.
Ironatmosphere Apr 2016
My body is too heavy
I just want to lie down
And stare up at the stars
As birds and time fly by

My body is too heavy
I just want to lie down
Buried under pillows and blankets
So deep
I am nowhere to be found

My body is too heavy
I just want to lie down
Let my arms rest in the damp grass
And let the sun warm my mind
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