If I was lost in space
I would spend my days staring into the stars
And my nights basking in their shallow glow
Until finally the stars would be permanent fixtures on the inside of my corneas
And I could throw myself out in the oblivion
My last breath slipping away
My body becoming stardust

You’re a **** every day
But I fell for you anyway
You insult me like you’re trying to win a prize
I write poems about your eyes
You said:" I hate you"
I want to date you
What's wrong with me?

It’s hard to realize that we are all dying
I am dying
With every breath I take
With every step I take
I get closer
I just hope that I will live all the seconds I have left
I just hope that when I die
I will have done almost as much living as dying
From the moment I took my first breath
I was dying
From this moment
As I take this breath
I will
Start
*Living

I don’t know what has happened to me
I am not the person I became last year
I am not the person I was when I became me
How could I lose myself so fast?
I barely had time to open my eyes
Before I was gone
What happened to the me I had become?

Let’s pretend
The thick layer of tape isn’t there
Covering up the cracks
On the newly manufactured heart

Let’s pretend
Until the tape
Yellows
And falls off
Like dead skin

This year
My goal isn’t to find love
This year
Love will have to find me

I hated love
The love I felt for you
But now it’s gone
And I kind of miss it
All that is left is numbness
I am numb

My heart has been sterilized
It is clean of feelings
And maybe, just maybe
It’s better this way

I feel happy for you two, I do.
But not happy enough to want to stare at you for two hours straight
Waiting
While you hug and play with each other’s hair.
I don’t need to be reminded that I am alone,
That nobody wants me,
In the most painful way possible.
I see what you have
And I want it.
So,
The next time you ask me to go for a walk
Please, just wait till you can bear to leave each other’s arms,
So I don’t have to stand there
Waiting and watching,
While my life gets shorter and shorter,
Constantly reminded that
Nobody wants me.
Nobody
At
All.

I feel like ripping off my skin
Tearing piece after piece of pale off
Letting my raw exposed flesh breathe in the sunlight
A snowfall on the asphalt

I’m *obsessed with the infinite
I’m obsessed with forever
I’m obsessed with the never-ending

But I don’t believe in the infinite
I don’t believe in forever

Everything has an end
Good or bad
Everything
Is
Going
To
End

I wrote you a letter
A love letter
I decided to send it
So that you would know
That somebody out there loves you
But I just couldn’t
Find
A
*******
Stamp

Lately I’ve been fascinated by evil
As if the heaviness inside would be better of as darkness
Because if it was then maybe I could take these stones
that are weighing me down
And throw them far, far away
Removing them one by one
Until I was finally weightless
Floating
Free

Hair caught in mouth
Shouldn’t be what love’s about
Staring at the yellow sky
Every time I realize you don’t love me I want to cry
Wishing I was dead
Grabbing a blanket
Going to bed

This song is about realizing the sun is shining
That deep down there inside you is a calm
There is a happy
There is a great big world
And the sun is shining
On you
And everything you’ll ever do
This song, it is for you
It exists only for you to go out and grab life by the shoulders
And live it
Live it
Live
Live your life
This song is telling you to live your life
Because you can
And you want to
Because you are living
Your life

On the day of the first snow
I say farewell
Waving goodbye to the autumn
I welcome the cold
The muted colors
And the sad beauty of everything
That is dying

I don’t write much anymore
Words no longer work in my favor
I don’t even know how to talk to people
I can’t seem to figure out small talk
I am boring
Everything I say is boring
My life is hollow
There is nothing to say
Nothing to write
Nothing
Just quiet
I am quiet
I have nothing to say
I am nothing

Sometimes you make me feel
Like I’m the sun in your universe
And I’m happy
But then I realize
The sun
It’s just
Another
Star
However brightly
I might shine
I’m just
One
In
A
Sea
Of
Never ending
Beautifully twinkling stars

This is a piece of my inner core
Please take it, please like it
And I’ll give you more

I hate to describe myself with just one word or tell someone my favorite anything
I am more than one word
I am more than one thing
I am a thousand different pieces
With just one you can’t ever see the full picture

I am more than one piece
If you want to know me you have to lay the puzzle
I will never be one word
I am a thousand different pieces

I want the sun to appear on the sky and bury me in a blanket of rays
I want to dance while it turns the ground into a zebra
Stripes everywhere I step
I want to feel the fresh spring air smell the right amount of cold
I want to sing while shadows dance on my eyelashes
And I want to run
As fast as I possibly can
Till my face is as hot as the sun
and I can
finally
taste the spring

In the most beautiful of places
Oceans made of mirrors,
a sky made of glass

In a golden forest of green
hides
a hell

Screaming souls
trapped in cages,
feeding on their own bodies

Their entire existence,
A dance
of pain

You broke me into a thousand little pieces,
Because you would be happy with just one.
And now that you have it
You will keep it forever,
In a blue wooden box under your bed.

That smile on your face will now stay permanent,
Because you know that
Without it I can never be whole.
And you like your things
Just a little bit broken.