Eyes Wide Open and you still dont see me.

I couldnt sleep last night because i was in your dream with you
Satisfying our lusts of adventures

Dont worry if your having hard times

Just remember

That we all fall before we rise.

I hate when music conjures up unwanted emotions.

You caused me pain

Now I know I cant trust a soul.

knowing that the beautiful
Romantic guys in the movies
don't Exist in the real world
But at least my imagination
Lets me think "he" exists

You should only fear things you do not know.

I would love to explore the world

But only if im hand in hand

With someone i love

& that would mean this was all worth it.

I see the world so beautifully
From the cotton candy sunsets
And the dancing trees
The Oceans waves
The peach sun rises

I've never seen a soul in this universe
Appreciate the world for what it is

And I've come to the conclusion that its the people....

Who make this world so evil.

The forest was dark and shallow
As I strolled through it
Nature pulling me deep in

There was not one
Injured bone in my body
but I still felt broken

I heard a loud cracking noise
To the left of my direction
A stick broken in half of some sort

I stopped walking to listen because I heard it again
And darkness was no longer in my vision anymore
But there standing in front of me
Was a 9 foot tall white wolf
With piercing green eyes...

(TBC)

How is it possible
to have a massive amount of feelings
for someone who obviously doesn't even care for you?

And someone please ...
Tell me how to get over
This ****...

There's this ache I get in my chest
Mixed with pain sadness and anger
It's an un welcome visitor

Every so often it comes
And it wont permanently go away


It comes when you ignore me
Or when I receive very bad news
It loves to hurt me
It's the secret agenda  


It feeds off my tears and heart ache
It possesses my insides
And tries to take away my faith

The un welcome visitor is my downfall
But I won't let it win...

I will forever wish for a off and on button on emotions.

And till this day
I still regret the chances I didn't take.

Stop blaming yourself
When life did you wrong.

You all inspire me to write and you excite me with your creative minds
But when my excited fingers reach my keyboard
I think of nothing to write about
The feeling is nothing but depressing.

There's so many amazing poets in this world. (:

If I were you
I'd cherish every moment with me
Because I won't be this way forever.

It would be so out of character
To treat people how they treat me


But oh how sweet
Revenge could be

And whenever you feel alone
I want you to take comfort in looking at the moon
Cause even though I'm not there with you
I'll be watching the moon too ~

Oh what a beautiful sight death has become .

We swam to the bottom of the ocean
To find beauty
But all we found was                       Darkness

Why must you haunt my dreams
           & invade my mind

Your lips are my pain reliever.

I'D Rather Feel Pain Then Nothing At All .

Right now things seem the same but months from now where gonna say they were so different ~

A black and white setting is what reaches my vision
Blurred voices going back and forth

I was here and it was two of me
One stading next to him and the other me watching this all play out

His eyes were wet and red pleading me to say something
But I was speechless
needless to say a heartbreak goes a long way
Big or small
There were still things I should have said
Things like

I need you
We've connected in so many ways
You woke up a part of me that I thought never existed
I thought you would be to good to be true because your everything that I've always wanted
Your all I have, all I want
And I love you.

Now your gone and this hurts because these are things that I should have said :(

Run warm water
Set colorful candles around the tub
Dim the lights in the bathroom
Lay in the tub and forget everything
Forget the pain
Sorrow
Sadness
Heartbreak
Because none of this matters at this time
tend to yourself
Clear your mind
Body
And settle your soul
And if someone in your house calls your name
Ignore them
Because this is your time

While sitting in my room
Only watching tv shows
I've come to the realization that they
All had the same subliminal message
they showed me that some of the people closest to you could be your enemies
Like your friends and even family

I've come to the realization that even a certain light could be a disguise of darkness
I realized that this bottle of ***** and these shot glasses of patron
Only numb this seemingly temporary pain
And could literally **** up my life

I hope you all someday come to the realization that nothing is really what it seems
So don't make a temporary decision to fulfil a desire for your demons
Cause all you'll get in return is a lifetime of regret

I don't know maybe it was the way you smiled at me everytime our bodies brushed one another's when we would walk side by side
Or maybe it fascinated me how much
You loved every single thing I did
And how much you inspired me to be better
Or maybe just maybe it was the fact that when every single thing seemed wrong in my life
You would figure out a way to flip every situation and make it feel right
                   And for that
I Love You

Big or small lies are lies
And the pain from it never dies
It crawls deep into you and hides
Waiting for its time to rise
A dark force it forms to be
It may take a while for you to see
It has a face and two feet
It's just like you and just like me
oh what a beautiful creature pain
Could be

Why do we make promises we do not keep?
Why do we anger loved ones?

Why are we all looking for love?

Why are we always sad?

Why are we all angry?

Why don't we see life's purpose?

Why ??

Because we are all Human.

I'm very much comfortable being alone
I enjoy nothing more than my own
Company
Happily free to do what I want and tend to myself
My confidence is built only by the way I view myself
Yes my loved ones opinions count but which one matters most than your own?
Yes it's nice to have a lover or date
But you have to learn to be happy with yourself
Before your even happier with someone else

I carry you with me like another main accessorie on my body

Your stuck to me like a leech in a ***** lake
Longing for blood

Constantly racking my brain preventing
Me from moving on to a happier place
in life

Your my past

Why cant you leave me alone and let me be
You live in my blood stream and control
My every thought

But your my past

See I tried a therapist
and I tell you what they say to me isnt
Helping

why do they try to convince me that my problem comes from deep rooted childhood memories

How can they know that if I told them my childhood was great

Well that's how I remember it

So **** the therapist thats trying to convince me that this isnt my fault

Because it is all my fault.

I had a dream about you last night...

You were running but you didnt seem to see me

I called your name but you didn't seem to hear me

I was there all along but you never noticed me.

I know now that my dream was just a mirror reflecting the reality of my situation.

So in reality
Im always there, and you ALWAYS avoid me.

Slowly sensing an altered reality
Or maybe its a parallel universe
Scrathing our earth
Hypnotizing and brainwashing our youth
Its working
Where falling under the invisible trap
Forced to think that we are suppose to live this way
Forced to think that depression and suicide is the way to go
Forced to think that there is no way out
They are WRONG

Someone tell me why I have the overwhelming feeling
To lay down and Die
But I will never take my life
But what if Im never satisfied
I'd let someone else hold the gun
While the bullet sounds the sky
And the birds fly out and cry
I'll be Floatin up and high
GOODBYE

Im takin longer puffs
Im drinking eight more beers
Cause theres no tellin what happens when night comes near
The clock hits midnight our hearts are racing
And baby Im lovin the way your lips are tasting
The musics roaring
The bass Is shaking
And I have no idea how im getting home tonight
But I wont fight
The temptation To hold back my tears
Im way too depressed and wisers than my years
So im using this night as an excuse to drown my sorrows In these drugs
And hopefully the next day i'll remember what I did and who I was

Im misguided and misunderstood
Frankly like sticks and wood
Feeling useless and unwanted
How could anyone ever want this
A distant sense of a ghostly presence
Taking my place in my absence
Substitute my every move
But being me takes constant practice ~

My Ears burst awake soothed by the thunderous Melodies Of the storm outside my window
The lightening crackling and lighting up my dark bedroom
My hand crawls across the bed reaching for you
Wanting you
Yearning you
But I remember that your gone
My body is not use to you being away
Its to imune to the way you take care of it
My lips are slowly going back to its color
At least ever since you've been done with them
My heart is no longer red and pumping
In fact im conviced its left my body
Along with my mind and my soul
And you
Your all Gone