(I) have always seen you differently
You have never (lied) to me
(You) have such pure intention and
I am not used to honesty
As the caterpillars (are) changing
You remain the same
Think they are (perfect) anyways
That is....
Special
But (to) be frank
I do not need you
I am a caterpillar and I can manage on my own
Grow on my own.
I shall go on being (me)
And you can have your flaws young man.
I don't need a mirrored dream.

"Hold me **** it!!!"
She screamed at the top of her lungs.
She couldn't breathe.
Everything was closing in on her...
Except his arms on her waist.
Somehow, though all she desired was to be free from this captivity in her head,
The only thing that made her free
Was being encased in him.
His eyes shown bright upon her
Feeling her pain like it was his own
He ran.
Ran as fast as he could.
Wrapped his hands into her short hair
Pressing her face into his shoulder.
He whispered into her delicate ears,
He the only sweet song to awaken her
from this nightmare.
She awoke from her daydream.
She was no longer in his embrace,
But she still felt closed in.
She ached for him.
It was all a dream.
Little did she know,
His eyes still shine for her
Even now.

Why didn't I cry
When you all walked out the door at once
You were my everythings
The people who meant the very most
And yet
Not a single tear
We shared
Long walks and talks
Boy drama until midnight
Going to the movies with your parents
Not a single tear
I cried when he broke my heart
You were there to tell me he wasn't worth me
And there again to tell me I wasn't worth you
I cried when she lied to me and left me alone
She left me in your hands
And you dropped me
You are a fool
A gossip
A coward
And I failed to see that when I let you embrace me
But I see that now
I loved you guys
And I still don't understand
How as weak as you left me
I didn't cry.

You stare at yourself in the mirror And wait for things to become clearer But all you see are broken pieces Sewn together into a thesis There are dark clouds above your head And seeing them fills you with dread You don't understand why they say  "Shut up dude just go away" Neither do I I see a kind and intelligent guy You always know when to lend an ear Or when its time to joke and jeer But you can't see what my eyes see Silent always is your plea If you need a shoulder to lean on I'll be here from dusk to dawn Remember that they are wrong Even your failures are a beautiful song I can see the dark clouds fade And for today at least, with sunshine they'll trade.

The knife in the back was held by one,
It holds the bottle Daddy couldn't drop,
Mine crack and bleed because of my condition,
My grandfathers curled up as he lay dying, just as his mind had years before, as I watched,
My mothers shook as I held her close,
I held his and he pulled me down into hell with it,
And my grip is becoming weak,
Its so hard to hold onto you, when the hands are pulling me away.
Nothing has been handed to me, but pain.

I would do anything to see his eyes roll as I yell about cleaning up his room,
Or to feel the emptiness in the house as he leaves with his girlfriend for a movie,
I would do anything to hear footsteps sneaking in the front door at 2am,
I would do anything to pretend, again, that I didn't notice.
I would do anything to hold my baby boy.
Just to see him off to college.. that day we awaited never came,
Nothing will ever be the same.
"My sweet angel" sounds somewhat more real and sour now.
I feel as though I have lost myself with him..
And to have him back in my arms,
Well,
I would do anything .

White walls separate me from you
I stare blankly into the magazine
Glancing up at the looming door
That I know you are behind
I just want to knock it down
To get to you
To sneak past these nurses
Sneak past the patients
Sneak past the rules
Because I have found with you and I
There are no rules
I find it funny
That I care about you most
And I am the one trapped out here
Waiting
While they hold your hand
And whisper "it's alright"
Even though it is not
I imagine being next to you
Letting you talk
Shortly about brains
But mostly Harry Potter
You laugh in this scary place
But I know in real life that is not the case
White walls separate me from you again
I miss you
Are you okay
Do you need a blanket
A hug
What is happening in there
Why won't anyone tell me
After all I'm family too...
Yes
I'm family too
But only you see that
You see through the white walls that separate you from me.