Sometimes I wander
Don't really know where to
Letting thoughts and emotion go as I walk through
places I will not remember

Its a beautiful day to live.
Its a beautiful day to die.

But I shan't die today.
I have to much to do
of my souls journey.
Yes to do merging
with the suns powerful ray's
and drifting clouds.

Too much to do to integrate
between the raindrops pitter pater
and the moment that calls.

No, I shan't die today.
for the heart tells me so
and I shall follow its lead-
gratefully surrendering
inside trust, inside day.
Its a beautiful day.

I don’t mean to alarm you
But I am dying
I’ve been dying for awhile
And I hope that when I go
I join the ranks of the greats

Robin Williams
Audrey Hepburn
Robert Frost
George Washington

Names everyone knows
Names I grew up admiring
Aspiring
Wanting
Wishing

Everything tries to be them
And falls flat
Probably because I’m dying
And when you’re dying
You aren’t as great
As you once thought

My jokes will never crack a smile
On the wrinkled
Cavernous face
Of Mr. Robin Williams

My beauty lies inside
Since I lack the seraphic
Elegant
Graceful
Beauty of Audrey Hepburn

My words are mere letters
Where they could be scars
And stars
Like Robert Frost

I lack courage
I lack leadership
Greatness finds victims aside me
Leaving me
Always one step behind
George Washington and his armies

Bet he keeps those armies in his sleevies

I’m dying up here
Just like these sucky jokes

I’m dying here
From school
From work
Anxiety
Grades
And all the like

And I’m dying in here
From loneliness
Ostracization
Failure to complete
Lack of motivation

I’m dying here
Can’t you see