Elixir of liquefied malevolence,
Manifestation drowns your paradoxed spirit. Orbs of pure solar white lights try to penetrate, but darken desires engulf the sanctity of all once was a sanctuary to a blessed being.
This,This! Corrupted soul yearns for once made it a heavenly sage.
The plunge it has taken weakens the very core of all Angelic beings it once centuries ago had been.
Falling ,sentenced to be a Dammed Angel for not speaking, choosing to stay.
Wishing to return, wallowing to be a Magnificent white winged spirit once again.
But at last it will never be.

The Five train trails pass my balcony under dim
Fluorescent lights flickering beneath towering oaks
Canopying high above and yet,
Still below the placid night sky
Two small girls sing atop our concrete division in
Shapes of adorable keys about love and how they'll
Never leave
Whilst several men two slabs across
Discuss the gossip of their lives under, but yet within
Billows of smokey haze
While I write them out briefly in the cool breeze amongst
Plumes of misty clouds,
The moon dimly shimmering through their cloak.

The Five train right on time.

If only the world could always be as such.
People Living.
Just living.

A brief silence.

I close my eyes, the humming of airplanes over above the
Bellows of my thoughts, the thumping of my heart in sync
With the cricket's harp, and wonder if it's God I feel
When the richness of these particle like moments fill me
                                      
                         ­             The world feels content.
                                      Nature feels alive.
                                      Life feels at peace.

The Five train right on time, thumping along the tracks conjoined
With the night's serenade.
Sublime.

Nonexistent you
You make me want to see the next day
You make me love every minute of life
You make my heart feel lighter
You remind me how dark I am
You make me want to open up to love and life

Just like you're nonexistent, these feelings are too

Everywhere I let my eyes wander
All the faces I dare to glance upon
They're all the same

It's all water
Placid as glass
Every detail coagulates
Into one blank page
A diary of lost souls

I feel pulled under
By the cascading heights
Of my insecurities
Constantly wondering;
Does anyone else see this?

If the world is invisible to us all
Where do we aim our eyes:
*To the clouds?

Still
thinking
of you
Takes away
my breath
Like
your presence
takes away
my life

feeling too much
or nothing at all
from hot to cold
to hot
to cold again
with her heart on fire
with her soul in flames

getting lost
throwing herself into the fray
running around
from the left to the right
to the left
to the right again
with a heart on fire
with a soul in flames

trapped in the crowd
loosing her way
completely lost
to find herself someday

I'm lost
I can't find my way back home
How did i get here in the first place?
I'm too afraid to walk back home in the dark
Can someone please help me find my way back?
I have alot of things going through my mind right now
What if someone is following me?
I need to find my way back