You told me that you used to be a king.
You showed me your crown but it was only a pile of ashes.
You showed me a history book, from an abandoned library, with your story ripped out from the seams.

I traced the edges of the pages and felt your past on the end of my fingertips.
I know it's been so long but the thought still brings you to your knees.

You said you had to watch the sky fall for hours and hours and hours that evening.
You were so close to the stars, and you told me how you used to talk to them during the night.
You used to live with them, you told me.

Everyone thought you were crazy but I could see in your eyes, they were family.
But you witnessed their deaths.
Wings couldn't help you
gravity has betrayed you.

It's time to stop holding your breath and just let it fall out.
Sweetness sings a lullaby you forbid to listen to.
You believe that nothing will ever be as sweet as your past.
No love can replace, for you lost all your brothers and sisters that night
so you have nothing to lose.
No secrets,
no family
just you.

Pick yourself up and dust off your shoulders
because you're a soldier and have no time to rest.
You can't escape this life because you sold your soul for this
and in the next year, you'll be buried right under your feet, six feet deep.

Will it be your hell?
******* alone surrounded by nothing but chains
for years and years.
Calling out to empty shadows and swallowing dust over these times.

Will it be your heaven?
In the summer of ninety-six
with the night lite up with fireworks on the fourth.
Chasing the sparks because you're a child again.

Pick your feet up and march to the drums of your family.
You promised to always protect your family
and this is all you know to do.
Giving up your life for your brother's
is what you were trained to do.

Your heart is weak but warm.
But you will not be needing it for long.
You find peace in the night
but always keep a candle lit,
to keep an eye on your brother
because he is all there is.

Things can't be rewritten or reversed.
You've just got a confused mind
and acted out of grief.
But you're always able to rewind to the night
a bullet took your brother.

These lifeforms made a deal for you, that they knew you'd take.
They could care less about your feelings.
They could **** without warning,
but you trust them with your brother's life on this one.

So now you stand a man with a deal to die
but it's all worth it because now your brother can live.
Selling your life so he can have his back was the best birthday present
you could give.

I still remember looking out the window
And putting my hand up to the glass
Wanting nothing more than to go outside

For the first time in a long time
I wanted to escape
I felt like i could leave the bad places
And finally be free

But we had class
And it was time to go

I've never felt more understood
Then when you came up to the glass
And you wanted to go outside too

People were looking at us
Looking at us like we were crazy
And when i looked to you
You smiled

That smile told me that we would be okay
We could be free one day
And I'll never forget it

The next day you told me we could go home
And our friends laughed
You had that glimmer in your eyes
That glimmer told me you understood

You understood that I was longing for a home
I was lost and alone
And you showed me that it was okay
That i would find my way and i wasn't alone

You've always understood me
And I suppose thats why i fell

Everytime I see that smile
The one that shows me the whole world
That smile that tells me i'll be okay
I fall even harder

Rain has always thrilled me
But I never thought
Rain would help me realize
It wasn't that i liked you

I loved you
And i always will

I fell harder than the rain did that day

// 11:31 pm