Already weak and vulnerable,
       A poison in my mind,
   You took advantage
You claimed I was strong,
       Manipulated,
               Used
                   Me.
But the unkindness of you,
Made me see the
     Goodness in me,
And I
   B
      R
         O
       K
         E
            Free.

"Just do it!"
"There's no other way out!"
The voices cry.
"It won't get better!"
They get louder.
They won't leave her alone,
Won't get out of her mind.
"No one will care!"
The voices yell.
She can't handle it any more.
"I'm not okay, I'm not okay!"
Her screams don't come.
The tears are falling.
Her heart is breaking.
No one can save her
From her biggest enemy,
Herself.

It doesn't matter how many times
I manage to break or fall apart
With the pieces of me that shatter on the ground,
Put back together and repaired with gold
This lovely mess that makes up me
Is the only me I'll ever want to be.

I was torn between
Living the life that I was used to,
Hiding behind my hair,
Being happy to go unnoticed,

And changing my life
And living to my fullest
Without a care
Of who is watching.

Every night
She read the stars
As if they were words
Writ across the sky.

She found peace
Within the constellations,
Put together
With such care.

It's as if they were poetry
So bright against
The dark night sky
Waiting to be loved.

And she loved those stars
The stretching sky
From where she lay
Upon her mossy bed

So far away yet so very near
They brought her hope
That she belonged
Somewhere in that sky

Memories of my past
Wait to be washed away
Like the dirt that hides
Underneath my fingernails

I am only a quiet whisper,
    A hushed sigh,
        Barely audible
To those who don’t care.

I am only a silent scream,
    A cry for help
        Gone unheard
In the darkness of the night.

I am only broken loneliness,
    Faint sadness,
        Unseen tears,
*I’m only waiting to be noticed.

I hope to one day rid you
Of the darkness that has
Plagued your life
Be the light that leads you
To the end of the tunnel

Everything fell apart,
Her heart and mind, a mess.
But what did she do
During her all time low?
She pushed through
And became stronger
Than she ever was

My mind is like a hurricane
       A raging storm
And in the centre,
In the eye of the storm
          There is calm
              There is you

I watched the leaves rustle and dance
In the towering trees above me
Reaching for the stretching skies.
Getting lost within the expanse
Of the Galaxy that lay
Just beyond my fingertips.

And here it comes,
The ache replaced by anger
Fueled by the betrayal
Your lies, your actions...
I hate you.
There, I said it.
My love for you
Replaced by burning hatred.
I am done, we are through.
No more.

So much like the sun
Warms the earth
You have warmed my heart
I've opened up
The walls have fallen down
I see things in a new light
All because you
Made your way into my heart
And stayed a while
Calling it your home
And you could stay forever
If you really wanted to
I surely don't mind

If I were to
Follow my heart
It would lead
Me straight
To you

The ground was soft
Like a bed full of clouds
The day the that I fell,
And kept falling hard,
For you, my dear

If I could be anywhere in the world
I would be with you
Because no matter where I am
As long as there is you
I am home

There's silence in her ear
But rumbling thunder
Through her mind

February fourteenth
Is just a day of reminders
Of a broken marriage
And the years of loneliness
That went along with that

I may be a wanderer
A lost soul
Searching for its place
But when my heart's
Tied to another
I will always be happy
To wander back to them

The hardest part about all of this
Was telling my heart to not get carried away.
But it was hard to not fall in love
When your arms felt like like home
And your presence offered comfort.
I tried, and so did you, to stay composed
And fight the feelings that slowly built.
Here we are, and it scares me so,
To have given myself to you.

She's so full of rage
Boiling at the surface
Ready to explode

Oftentimes I don't understand
The things that are going through my mind
Or the words that come out of my mouth
And sometimes I'm just completely blind
To the things that I do, the actions I choose
And the hurt I inflict on those I love.
And in my heart of hearts, in my deepest depths
I don't mean any of the negative things in my head.
These actions, and words, and thoughts of mine
They always end up hurting me, destroying me.
I want it all to be erased, to have a clear, calm mind
And when it happens, my happiness will be my greatest achievement

Although
my smile
is genuine,
the sadness
deep within
my eyes
is just as
real.

We never fight
We spit venom in the form of
Snarky remarks, hurtful comments
And bitterness
But we never let the anger boil over
Into screaming matches or wet faces
Until long after one of us has gone to bed
And the tears start to pour
And all the hurt comes out
Until it's time to carry on
And pretend everything is okay.

I have these thoughts in my mind
That tell me to just go
Leave it all behind
Maybe you'll find happiness elsewhere
Because it's obvious that I can't be happy here
No matter how hard I try
No matter how much I want to be,
The stress and anxiety
Are just too overwhelming.
Maybe if i lived a life on the go
Never staying in one place too long,
Maybe I'll find myself
Find inner peace,
Find happiness.

I can feel your sadness
It courses through my veins
I feel it burning, aching,
Yet hoping away the pain

I can feel your tears
Flowing vicariously through mine
Rolling silently down my cheek
Settling on my lips, like wine

I can taste your pain
Bitterness upon my tongue
Numbing poison; breathing it in
Settling inside my lung

I could take the hurt away
I could make you feel whole
Just please let me back in
Allow me back into your soul

Why don't the words flow,
As they once did?
Flow from my heart,
Flow onto this page.
Where did they go?
Are they hiding deep within?
The words are not coming,
Not coming to bring relief.
My emotions, my feelings,
They stay deep within.
They make my heart ache,
They won't bring release.

I want to fall into a deep sleep
Of which not even my
True love’s kiss can wake me.
A sleep of which only
I can wake myself from.
**I would awake only when
My demons have finally
Left my mind alone.

These words are floating
In my mind, ready to be
Written on this page.