Here I am now,
Back at square one.
I broke my vow,
Wanted to be done.

Threw all my fears,
Down to the ground,
Wanted to hear,
All of your sounds.

Lost in this maze,
Full of attraction,
No longer can aim,
Deprived of all action.

Tired of hearing,
Words of complaint.
Everyone’s fearing,
Of their own fate.

Blue eyes, brown eyes,
Losing time, losing fights.
Dark skin, light skin,
Refuse to fit in, but not in the end.

They hate that person,
She is depressed.
That one will burn it,
They’re getting less.

I’m done with these people,
They’re not who I see,
When I sail life’s waves,
And reach all my dreams.

They don’t appreciate,
All that I love,
Not trying to hate,
Just wanting enough.

They’re all too busy,
‘Bout what they’re seeing.
Me, I don’t want much,
Just a brand new beginning,

Where I choose to risk,
All that I’ve owned,
For the one who I miss,
The one who will know,

When you ask them a question,
About my favorite things.
They’ll know the depression,
They’ll know how it stings.

Her heart melts,
Just like her jeans,
She’s never felt,
All of the things,

Left inside of her,
Breaking her down,
Wanting to be heard,
Screaming so loud.

She doesn’t like,
All of her body,
Just trying to fight,
Not being gaudy.

She’s always hated,
Her beautiful face,
She’s always stated,
“It must just be fate.”

Her heart is broken,
Crumbled in pieces,
Love’s only token,
It only increases.

She’s just confused,
Questions herself,
Despises the abuse,
Thought it would help,

Ease all her pain,
Fill all of her cup.
Used to feeling rain,
But not feeling love.

She feels the need,
To straighten her hair,
But never concede,
The feelings she bears.

You never realized,
How cold you could be,
Until you've binded,
All that you’ve seen.

Thought I was sane,
Holding emotions,
But I’ll never say,
My reasons and motives.

Stuck in your ice,
Hoping to freeze,
So I can fly,
And leave with just me.

I wanted the snow,
Caressed the flakes,
But forgot the boats,
So I’d never row,

Away to my island,
Calm and alone,
No one too silent,
No one to know.

You never thought,
Of how cold it gets,
Til' you wish for heat,
Wishing she’d left.

Screaming for heat,
Yelling for warmth,
Taking the feat,
Among Winter’s storm.

Thought I was warm,
Just as I held,
All of your core,
Every single cell.

But never understood,
My heart will freeze,
All that you say,
Switch it around,
Make it my way,

Giving it meaning,
Giving it purpose,
Holding its feeling,
Only to serve it.

I never knew,
Of my disparity,
Until I flew,
Away to sincerity.

Never wanted heat,
More than I do now.
I’m stuck here to freeze,
Left here to drown.

My hands full of stone,
From all that they’ve touched.
Refuse to keep them alone,
Wanting to run,

Towards all my dreams,
Seeing them clear.
They all just seem,
Like they could be here.

Left here with options,
Falling from fate.
Never did see them,
Til' it was too late.

Saw it in her eyes,
Colors of fantasies.
But she never knew,
She lacked the keys,

Unlocking my door,
Finding my splinters,
Locked in my core,
But never is in her.

Her eyes spoke of hope,
Faith in her dreams.
But she’ll never know,
She’s not what I see,

When I look at my future,
Seeing my beauty,
Visioning of her,
She’s all I see.

Caught in the middle,
Of all these affections,
My conscience dwindled,
My phone’s dead reception.

I want to leave,
This place full of greed,
Only to bring,
The girl of my dreams.