I fell for you
I don't know why
You are a mess
but so am I

You asked me
"why didn't you tell me
you like me so much"

It's because
I feel seclusive
with you
seclusive from
the rest of the world
and I clung onto it

You can see
when I am in pain
You're the only person
in this world
who is on the outside looking in

You're the only person
I have been able to
share that with
and I let you in

When it started
slipping away
it all began
to feel meaningless

I feel as if
I may over exaggerate
and I often over think
but that's who I am

That's the pain I carry
it's a blessing
and a curse
to feel that much

I am a wheel
and I continue to spin
because life continues
to push on the pedals
that make me spin

I am dizzy from
all the life I have
felt
and spent

I often fall
sometimes with a laugh
but sometimes I get bruises

I am sorry
I expected more
maybe I am crazy
but I like who we are together
our lives will pedal well
together

I don't tell people about my poetry
Why?
Because its my escape
That God gifted me with
So I can find truth
In the world.
Also So that when I die
Someone will find it
And then they will understand.
And they can continue
to learn about me
And know struggles are real.
I like to believe
That I'm not a lost cause.
And neither are you.