It *****
To want to die
When your life starts to come together
But your mind is screaming
Begging
End it here
Before it gets worse
Before it comes back to get you
The depression says
No
Not. Enough. Energy.
The anxiety says
It'll get much much worse
My heart
That
Left a long time ago

Someone asked me where home was for me,
I paused, I didn't know how to answer without saying it was you
you're my home
now I feel really alone
Kinda empty inside
And that feeling won't ever go away

The rain is falling,
and the skies are gray
It’s beautiful
but that's not how it was
when we woke up.
This morning,
the sun was shining,
and we were smiling.
Then the rain came
and washed the smile right off my face.
The spider dreads,
the clouds are here,
and where we stand
Is blurred.
And I’m hiding.
The rain is falling.
My smile is gone,
and my eyes are crying.
because they all want you,
and I’m not with you.
The messages mean nothing,
What if it happens again.
Breakdown or not.
I’m scared to lose you.
My everything is you.
My papi, no one else’s
My chulo, no one else’s
Im real scared, that she’ll worm her way in
She’ll take you away, maybe i won’t even know
I’m begging, tell me I’m wrong, because i have fear
My heart is heavy
An anchor weighs me down
I’m supposed to be home,
But i feel kinda alone.
Because my home is with you.