Tess Calogaras

Tess Calogaras Mar 2016

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You were a saturated colour against an endless field of grey.
Florescent beauty;
You wore your smile like a crown of roses.
For months I watched you try to find water in a *** of dirt.
You just blossomed so quickly that I could not feed you fast enough.
I’m sorry if that made you weak, or made you wilt.
I’m sorry if it made you feel like you weren’t my evergreen.
You were my evermore,
my everlasting,
my everything.

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Tessa Calogaras

#love #heartbreak #poetry #broken #life #loss #relationship #romance #thoughts #lesbian

Tess Calogaras Mar 2016

It's international womens day, here's a poem about being one

I am a self-made machine.
I respond to admiration and attention.
Selfish being
unsure of the right response.
Wires tampered;
my mouth a dribbling mess.
proclaiming my love
to everyman
and hiding as soon as a retort.
There is no love within my jaw.
I often ponder,
am I fueled by normality?
Doing what we're designed to do?
Perhaps the world whispered to me
that women need to be
a constant yearning;
Hungry skin under ****** bones
never satisfied.
thought churned into mush
but still so hard
to swallow.
I find desperation.
Mere affectionate action,
making my stomach bleed.
Though as they waltz away,
I thirst for their hand
to cup my shoulder blade
hand to their shoulder seam.
What is a girl supposed to do.
Love pushes itself against me
and I find myself ungracefully
turning all that pleading for appreciation
straight into the void.

Tessa Calogaras
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#love #metaphor #hate #relationship #day #dancing #constant #needs #international #womens

Tess Calogaras Mar 2016

Break ups and bad beginnings

So many times
Trying to turn reasons
Into rhymes
Newest muse
Desperate attempt
Only to fall short
As soon as attention
Noticed
Wide eyed girl
Obsessed may I
Lacking depth
As soon as
Emotions copied
Or furthermore
Replaced
Gravity
With weights and stools
Climbing higher
Reaching further
Grasping air
While the painted red smile
Walked further north
And the Abled girl
With wide frames; golden bay
Lingered patterned
Against broken scooters and watched
While I made a fool over feet
In autumn leaves and new beginnings
You held my arm
While minds wander
Of heavenly thought
Of what it would be like
To hold your hand
And not mess it up
With my idiotic tongue
And presumptuous lip
Always rushing
Like one constant race
When the rules
Clearly states
Walk not run
Try to slow my tracking feet
From making another big leap
Intensively driven
Pretty glass eyes girl
Did you want me to admit my defeat?

Tessa Calogaras
Copyright 2016

#love #awkward #relationship #obsession #trying #fast #lgbtq #lesbian #movements

Tess Calogaras Mar 2016

Making walls

Sometimes I think
of what a tragedy it is
for us to build towers so tall,
that we couldn’t see.
That it was not a home
but a barrier of walls.
Stacked so high with bricks.
With my weakened state and
feeble limbs
I could not crack
Nor chip away
At aggregates and paste
to see even the slightest trace
of light.

Tessa Calogaras
Copyright 2016

#poem #relationship #sorrow #concrete #lgbt #tragedy #breakups #walls #barrier #limbs

Tess Calogaras Feb 2016

An easy departure

Because I wrote an entire book
About us drowning in our self contained marines.
Like trying to hold on to liquid
Running loosely through fingers.
Amid my hand,
you lay;
Fitting like my own appendage.
But what a fool,
To not even think
That an easy fit
Would not become
*An easy departure.

Tessa Calogaras
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2016

#poetry #metaphor #relationship #sorrow #water #breakup #lgbtq #liquid

Tess Calogaras Feb 2016

A foolish jump

The head is an annoying place to be stuck upon.
Once known for knowledge;
its reputation no longer stands.
Left with sole stupidity
and wider jumps.
"What a fool"
she thought,
swinging off the edge.

#poetry #relationship #thoughts #sorrow #fool #lyric #misled #jumps #accusations

Tess Calogaras Feb 2016

My Muse

Walking in archways
What felt like worlds between us
High above my tower I see you
As your face stays determined not to crack
They said I lost my muse
But she's in every crease upon my bed
Not able to wash the memory with a splash of soap and water
I thought about throwing it to the streets
Let the homeless make fortune over our mistakes
Cradled up in the nook you used to sleep
Sleep?
What lies
For no moisture was lost
No teeth mark not tear
Because I failed you
And all of the coloured flags
I couldn't help but call your name
In the nickname only I used
Ignoring then sudden realisation
Never looking back
Head locked like a brace
While hidden hands forced my face to your seat.
Even after you left
My eyes lingered over what used to be.
She ran
Out in to the night
As I sat among the nightmare
Excusing death in a movie
For why tear drops fleeted
Down my cheek
She escapes
Leaving quickly out the door
Couldn’t leave it up to chance
She leaves as if she couldn't stand to watch the credits role
But I know her
Spent what felt like days watching names roll on screen
While we meshed bundled
and blissed.

#depression #break #relationship #sorrow #*** #muse #metaphors #ups #pretty #sexuality