I sit and i think.
Think, and then i think some more.
Think, until there is no more.
Nothing else but to pour.

I sit, and i pour.
Words, lines, paragraphs and more.
I sit, and i pour.
Lines, up-down, straight, curved and more.
I sit, and i pour.
Emotions!!
Bitter, Sweet and Sour.
Pour and i pour,
Pour until there is no more.

Empty and vacant,
Nothing to do now, but recieve,
Chip up & shoulders back, i smile.
Dust my self & prepare,
To be filled with,
And be fueled by,
My,
Evidence of Existence !!!!

What's gone is gone, i say,
Yet,
What's coming, feels the same.
Regrets and mistakes,
A life, on stakes.
Past Haunts me,
Future Scares me,
Present, is where i want to be.

What i did, resents me.
What i'll do, will represent me.
A life on the line,
Dangling hopes,
I wish, were mine.
Past Haunts me,
Future Scares me,
Present, is where i want to be.

Who are you ?
Do you know what you want ?

Yes, You !
You are suppose to do this,
You are suppose to do that.
You are good,
You are bad.

Melted and mended,
Scripted and sclupted,
You are now made.
You are now successful.
you are YOU.

Meanwhile !

Wanting all the love and care,
I, became needy !
Wanting all the happiness and joy,
I, became greedy !
Overloaded with compassion,
I, became a burden !

Yes, I !
I, has been forgotten,
I, has lost its way,
I, has lost its purpose,
I, has been sacrificied,
Sacrificied for YOU !
For now, you are YOU,
And i, simply was.

Feelings, so stern !
Desires, that burn !
Feelings, that haunt !
Desires, that hurt !

All this weight,
While i wait.
Paitently, i linger.
Loosing my paitence,
Confusion & anger.
All this weight,
While i wait.

The wait for someone,
Someone long gone,
Gone so long,
IT's TIME !!!
To move on and to choose.
To let go and to close.
The door, and
The Chapter.

If only i could, I would !
I wish !
I wish i could,
If i could,
I know i would,
IF
If only,
You'd let me.

I wish i could,
Let you let me,
Make you feel the way i feel,
Hold you, caress you, and
Show you to the world,
The world, i want us to be.
IF
If only !
You'd let me.

Every breathe, every moment,
And Everything that i own,
I'd give up !
I wish!
I wish i could,
JUST
be with you !
IF
If only,
You'd let me.

Give you everything that you deserve,
Treat you like a queen,
If only i could,
IF
If only !
You'd let me.

Love you with all i've got,
My soul, my mind, my heart.
If i could, I know i would !
IF
if only,
You'd let me.

My mind thinks things!
Things my mind thinks !
What is this thing that i think ?
Is this thing worth thinking ?
Do i really want this thing im thinking ?
Or, is it just a thing to think?
Things my mind thinks !
My mind thinks things !

YES !
I am lost.
YES !
I am silent.
YES !
I ponder.
NO !
I am not depressed.

if you tell me, i am lost, i'll agree.
if you think, i am strayed, i'll disagree,
i'll tell you, Lost are those who seek !

if you tell me, i am silent, i'll agree.
if you think, i am mute, i'll disagree,
i'll tell you, words must make sense, not noise !

if you think, i am protracted, i'll agree.
if you think, i am idle, i'll disagree,
i'll tell you, I am conscious !

if you tell me, i am useless, i agree.
I am,
not,
to be used.

YES !
I am lost.
YES !
I am silent.
YES !
I ponder.
NO !
I am not depressed.

I am content !
I am at peace !
I AM ONE !