Shannon Soeganda

Shannon Soeganda Aug 2021

Bemoan

Neri Oxman once said:

"You have to go away, to come back home.
You'll never truly have a sense of home,
until you leave home."

Such discontentment over the thought of home
can never carry the despair that is just so wary.

Henceforth; I bemoaned of home---
only to wander far away from it.
Only to never come back home.

Because in truth, my "home" had been lost.
My "home" already went away.

New one, old one---
They depict such distinct disparity

But then again... this is as good as it can get.

Yet, bemoan I still.

How discomforting it is, to accept what had been lost, and all the could've should've beens.

#home #bemoan #neri #oxman #discontent #disparity

Shannon Soeganda Mar 2021

As Above, So Below;

As within, so without---

As the universe, so the soul.

And so it is.

I'm done.

With my life (path).

I humiliate my self every time I manifest things wrong. The Universe conspires against us all, not working on our behalf.

#universe #******* #bull #crap #life #soul

Shannon Soeganda Jan 2021

Enjoying the Silence

Beseeching words
genuinely rooted from
the wounded, rotten heart

whispering
to the cold, thin air of
"I have nothing left to say---"

Thank you for putting up with me, dear self. For teaching me to make peace with my demon; not to get rid of it.

#inner #demon #wounded #innerchild #silence #cold #thin #air #words #whisper

Shannon Soeganda Dec 2020

Utter Discomfort

You dismantled my ego like how she broke my heart.

You,

your boundaries,

and your strong sense of self.

Allow me to detach from us.

It's never pleasant to work on our unhealed, anxious attachment style. I truly detest my irrational fear of abandonment. But at least I'm facing it now, and not running away from it.

#utter #discomfort #anxious #attachment #style #fear #abandonment #bpd #borderline #personality

Shannon Soeganda Dec 2020

Misconstrued Paraselene

Feelings,
Shown—

Feelings,
Grown.

I can’t help but to
                                fall in awe
                                                   with her
                                                                   idyllic astonishment;

like how the moonbeam shines its ray
to lit up the darkened night sky
amongst all the unrest souls in their
                                                                (not so)
                                                                               blissful slumber.

I beg your pardon, m'lady—
for I have mistaken your
                                              b e a u t y
                                                                   for
                                                                   Misconstrued Paraselene.

Something is up.
Hereby, I abnegate my all to both of us.

#misconstrued #paraselene #feeling #feelings #idyllic #astonishment #moonbeam #slumber #overall #health

Shannon Soeganda Dec 2020

Tête-à-tête

I may be foulmouthed to the core,

let alone when we have our very own

\\ tête-à-tête //

but honey---

I know my heart is genuine.

Hit me up after your Saturn Return, girl.

#ttette #foulmouth #heart #genuine #saturn #return #planets #planetary #astrology

Shannon Soeganda Dec 2020

Inane Innuendo

Isn't it a pity that,
what she and I have
might be a
foretold; untold tale?

This writhing soul might be a fool to be

- t a n t a l i z e d -

by her honey-like scent,
with the topical rose redolence;
percolating every existing room for air
in my thickly tar-scarred lungs
from every hush of her troubled breath---

only then to realise that

every passing seconds spent

have always been a constellation of

== inane innuendo ==

to pique the lovelorn in me.

There's always something in me that's been worried of her troubled breathing. She doesn't smoke, so I'm concerned. I mean, her lungs aren't tar-scarred like mine.
P.S: I like the smell of her perfume.

#inane #innuendo #lovelorn #perfume #cigarette #tar #tantalize #percolate