I pretended I didn't have any scars on my body, and he pretended not to see any while we steamed up the windows in the car last night.

Come and lay your head down next to mine on this empty field of grass. Feel how soft the ground is all over your skin as all the clouds begin to pass.
Astonishing clouds all shapes and sizes drifting along in the sky. Cerulean images fill my colorful mind as we loose track of time. I float along with you ever changing, morphing oh so amazing these clouds above transform so quick the winds a blazing, while our eyes stay gazing at the view from up above.

This silence speaks more languages than words can ever understand, I'm losing myself.
You run through my mind and seep into my veins. Lately I've been craving you even more than usual, and you break my heart every night you fall apart. Just let me be your everything. I want to hold you close, skin on skin, hear every breath you inhale and exhale, and let our heartbeats have a conversation. I can't do anything but keep on loving you.

My love for you is like a vivid flower that has just been picked...
                   dead and gone the very next day.

I want to be someone.
Someone important.
I want to do something that
means everything to somebody out there.
I want to make a change, be a change.
Hear me out.
I want to be the difference.

Time flies in a blink of an eye it's like you're here then you say goodbye.
But don't be shy just stay with me,           
                                          please stay with me.
I promise we will be together for eternity.     
     
                    Don't you wanna be?
           Oh darling don't you wanna be?

Can't anybody see that I'm just a mess? A blue haired freak wonderin' the streets. Cigarertte in hand, blasting my bands and could give less of a **** about what you think.

You're my 11 o'clock craving,

     my 12 o'clock mistake.

     My 1 o'clock headache,

      and my 2 o'clock hate.

You and I
Me and you
us together,
what can be better?

She's absolutely perfect in every way, but she chooses the guys that make her feel like she only deserves the usual "weekend chill".

I'm looking in the mirrior.
I'm a wreck, and I wish I were dead.
I'm tired of feeling numb, and of missing you all the time.
"No wonder you left"
I tell myself as I stare at my own pittyness in the mirror.

This blank canvas mocks me as I stare blanklessly at it.

Time freezes as I trace my fingers in patterns along the crevices of your skin, I crave you in the most innocent way possible. I want to touch you in places where my hands can not, I feel high off of your vibes.

I'm an Adventurer,
I was born to travel this world
I shouldn't be tied down

I need to be free.

I have to be prepared
to set sail and explore
the deepest and the darkest,
the highest and the lightest
parts that this World has to offer me.

I'm so ugly... but I really miss who I used to be.

I miss my clear lungs, not the ones that are presently black and filled with cigarette smoke.

I miss my clean wrists, not the ones that are now filled with tally marks.

I miss my mind that was once cleanly open minded and free to the world around me, not the one that now sees into 4th dimensions with drugs that are ******* me up.

I miss my fat thighs, not the ones that are still fat, but that now have countless scars across them.

I just really miss who I used to be.

I fell in love once before, and trust me I won't be doing that anymore. Boy, you completed me, and now you're nothing more than a memory. You were like my favorite song and you made me want to sing all night long.

I smile and laugh simply to make everyone else happy, but why am I not truely happy?

Why do I cry myself to sleep, and why am I filled with scars and bruises?

I wish I didn't feel like this, why can't this pain be a choice so that I can chose not to feel like this.

Why can't I be normal and not be sad all the time, and why can't I just love myself?

Why?