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Nobody Nov 5
...
I sit at the table
While a different part of my brain
Tells me that I can't eat
Or i'll go through more pain

The bullies will come back
They'll hurt me more
I hate my life
I miss how it was before

Why is it so hard to eat
Why is it so hard to talk
Why is it so hard to run
instead of choosing to walk

I don't want to gain weight
I don't want to lose
I wish that whether I eat or not
Is something I can choose

My friends have started to notice
How little I eat….
I don't want to talk about it…
Nobody 16h
10 years of drawing
9 years of being friends
8 years of being bullied
7 years of being bullied by you
6 years of guilt
5 years of trying to fit in
4 years of writing poetry
3 years of letting you manipulate me
2 years of knowing something was wrong with our friendship
1 year of trying to tell you
0 years of freedom
I am not 10 years old, that would be weird af, this is just the years i remember the most.
988
Nobody Nov 8
988
i still remember the first time i texted
988
i was in the 6th grade
crying
holding a Swiss army knife
bleeding
from my shoulders and wrists
and heart

it was 2 in the morning
i was in my room
they gave me a list of reasons of why i shouldn't
it didn't stop me from trying

one week later
i texted again
same story
then the next week
then the next
they started to recognize my number
they remembered my name
every time
i haven't texted them in a while
i wonder if they miss me
i wonder if they're happy i haven't

i kind of miss them
Nobody 2d
A for ***
because that's what you were to me
B for *****
because that's what you are
C for crap
because that's your opinions
D for ****
because that's what you act like
E for eternity
because that's how long your words will repeat in my head
F for *******
because those are the words i held back for so long
G for game
because that's all i was to you
H for hell
because that's what you put me through
I for incinerate
because that's what you did to my self-worth
J for joke
because that's all our friendship ever was
K for ****
because that's what you made me want to do to myself
L for loser
because that's how you always saw me
M for mortician
because that's what you'll need by the time I'm done with you
N for no
because that's what i said but you kept insisting we should be friends
O for onion
because you act like one, always making me cry
P for promise
because you never really could keep them, could you?
Q for question
because i have a ****-load of those for you
R for real
because i wonder if you even know that i am
S for sacrifices
because i made so many for you
T for torch
because i was in the dark but you hid yours
U for ugly
because that's what you kept on calling me
V for vaccine
because you make me sick
W for war
because that's what's going on in my brain thanks to you
X for x-ray
because i want to dig deep into your mind to find out why you did this to me
Y for you
because that's what i blame everything for
Z for zip
because zip your mouth, you cannot be talking about pain

a whole alphabet about you. i feel like we need more letters
because there definitely is more to be said
well that took forever lol
Nobody 7d
Anxiety seeps into my soul
Like stains on a white couch
Like songs to your mind
Panic rises
Thoughts coming faster than before
"Maybe I'll die"
"Whats happening?"
And sometimes
No thoughts at all
But never any barriers
To brake my fall
What's wrong with me?
Loud noises and yelling remind me of what happened...
Why though?
Nobody 7d
am i going crazy
i cant believe my eyes
people telling me
its going to be alright

the chaos in the room
the noise passing by
panic arises in my soul
rightfully so?

it's too loud in here.
haha
i think I'm going crazy
because it sure feels like it
maybe I belong in an asylum :)
because I can't ******* do this anymore
Nobody 4d
whats going on
chaos moving in my brain
chaos and panic
world passing by
while i'm stuck
here
in this hellhole
that's bringing pain
and hoping for death
and destruction
i have no idea
whats going on
heart rate going up
breathing fast
brain going crazy
too much happening
for my little, anxious, stupid, empty brain
Just saying.... this was the 69th poem i posted lol
I have the humor of a literal 5 year old
Nobody 1d
anxiety affects
my fragile heart
you can't make it stop
when someone already made it start

anxiety affects
my useless head
asking me "what's going on?"
and "why am i not dead?"

anxiety affects
my confused soul
makes it ask more questions
makes me want to hode in a hole
Nobody Nov 3
Build me like IKEA furniture
With wood and screws and pain
Let me talk to you deeply
Let me take up part of your brain

Let me love you truly
With no lies, wrongs or cheats
Let me care for you lovingly,
Let me wrap you In clean sheets.

Let me ****** those who wronged you,
Let them bleed Out on the floor,
Let you smile honestly
When I come knocking at your door

Let nobody near you but me
Let the pain stay far away
Let me be your medicine
You must take me every day.

Don't leave me.
Please love me.
Who is she?
Does she replace me?

I'm not obsessed.
I'm not obsessed.
I love you.
DONT LEAVE.
Let me say that this isn't relatable to me in the slightest, but here it is folks 🍷
Nobody Nov 10
Avoid the question
Ignore the problem
Try to stop
Try to eat
Won't
Can't
I
I can't
I can't *******
I can't ******* do
I can't ******* do this
I can't ******* do this anymore
Nobody 5d
dance to the song,
you beautiful ballerina
we are all watching
don't mess up

move your feet,
you beautiful ballerina
or we will attach the strings
to your useless little limbs... again

paint a smile on your face,
you ugly ballerina
if you smiled more
more people will like you

why did you eat that,
you fat ballerina?
you'll just gain more weight
you wont fit into your size -5 dress

you made a mistake,
you useless ballerina
maybe you should just go
nobody even wants to see your show.

Quit hoping for freedom,
You disaster of a ballerina
You are our marionette
We have full control

Stop lying,
You rat of a ballerina
We have never hurt you
We just discipline

Stop being dramatic,
You drama queen of a ballerina
You dance
You don't act

Stop moping,
You hideous ballerina
Just because he doesnt like you anymore
Doesnt mean you have a right to frown

Start smiling,
You sad ballerina
Nobody will like you
If you frown...

you deserve better,
you precious, imperfect, kind, sweet, beautiful, nice, wonderful, friendly, injured, hopeful ballerina.
leave this awful place.
you deserve so much better...
As i said before in like 2 different poems, i am NOT a girl. But that doesnt stop me from beimg a feminist. My older brother is, my dad is, my uncle is, stand up for those wonderful people.
Nobody 4d
getting the burnout
tired of everyone
tired of life
tired of school
tired of art
tired of rehearsals
tired of being in the school play
tired of playing trombone
tired of painting
tired of drawing
tired of singing
tired of hanging out with friends
tired of doing homework
tired of writing short stories
tired of life
again
tired of responding to texts
but i keep sending them
tired of showing up to class
tired of correcting people on my pronouns just to get called a ***
tired of literally everything
but i know
i'll feel better in a little
and then it'll start all over again
so for now
i'll just hide my scars
mask my problems with humor
and wait
for happiness
Nobody Nov 6
Life feels like a carousel
Spinning and spinning
I want to fall off
Too much happening
Nausea sprouting
Anxiety rising
More future scars appearing
Spinning
Spinning
Spinning
All alone
Nobody 2d
today
i was changing after PE
(in the girls locker room, of course.)
too scared to come out to the school.
i was changing out of the blueberry colored sweatpants
when a girl commented
"how did you get those cuts?"
"do you have a cat or something?"
and i just stood there
like a rabbit
hoping
that if i freeze
they won't be able to see me
they ask me if i'm okay
...
i ran away

i know
that i have problems
but i think that they're starting
to turn into issues
Nobody 3d
Coffee
Never really helped me
Stay awake
Because I never really wanted to be
Concious
So coffee
Just makes it worse
Too tired for this ****
Nobody 7d
Maybe I'm going crazy
Because I think I might like him.
I might want him to like me
Am I going crazy???
Because it sure feels like it.
Haha maybe I am πŸ˜…
Maybe I have a crush
Maybe
Just maybe
He does too
... probably not though
And for context it isn't anyone on this website, I made sure he doesn't have access to my account because hell. No.
cry
Nobody Nov 8
cry
Last night I cried myself to sleep
The night before as well
Tonight I can't stop crying
And life feels like hell

Scrape the paint off the walls
Make me feel insane
Scrape the skin off my arms
Let me go through pain

My tear-stained pillow
Can't take any more
It soaks up my sobs like a sponge
Unlike the cold hard floor

Cold
I think I know something about that word
Like your heart by the end of the year
Left with nothing but migrating birds.
Leaving.
Running away.
Hope for happiness
... one day
Nobody Nov 3
Turns out
Crystal clear
Might not be as clear as we think

I look through glass
And I see a warped version of you
A twisted version of the person I once loved

I look through quartz
And I see a kind person
Someone who cares
Someone who loves.
That's not who you are.

I can see for myself.
I don't need any crystals that manipulate me into thinking you are good.
You're not.
Leave me alone.
Love yourself as much as you should be. (A lot.)
Nobody Nov 10
there's no such thing as cupid
just an electrician
who makes the spark between two parts
and lets them fan the flame
cupid my ***

there's no such thing as cupid
there's no such thing as fate
there's no such thing as love at first sight
there's no way to open the gate
cupid my ***

just randomness
two people that meet in the abyss and sometimes manage to make it work...
cupid my ***
Nobody 6d
Dont call me trans masc
When ive always been a boy
Gay people didnt 'used to be straight', so why would i 'used to be a girl'?
Nobody Nov 8
**** it up, buttercup
It's only gonna get more hard
Ignore the hunger
You'll only get more scarred

I know they're watching me eat
Everything I Blink I see them staring at me
Judging me
... let me be

Don't eat
Don't eat
Won't eat
Won't eat
Can't eat...
Nobody 2d
Waiting for the worst
Because in 8 days
They will come
The family
The elders
I think people need to stop saying
"Respect your elders."
Because why should i respect them
If they don't respect me

Respect is earned
Not demanded
So maybe
You should stop calling me she
Or transphobic comments
And start treating me like the grandson i am

Grandpa addicted to cannabis
Grandma addicted to alchohol
Their garage reaks if sadness
I think the reason they do this to themselves
Is because they might hate me for who i am
But I think they hate themselves more
Yup my grandparents are coming over for thanksgiving, wish me luck because transphobia isnt their only tactic.
Nobody Nov 10
My eye is twitching always
It didn't before
I wonder if something changed
Just a reverse haiku i wrote at 2 in the morning last night lol
Nobody 6d
fake
like plastic
left me alone
to cry
and die
and deal with my own problems
didn't care
that i was struggling
didn't care
that i was hurt
didn't care
about me at all
didn't care
you never did
you are just a piece
of useless plastic
in the junk yard
worthless
making the earth worse
harming
hurting
haha i hate you so much
Nobody Nov 8
I once saw the beauty in fall
With the colors
And joy
And holidays

But now I just see the leaves dying
And falling hopelessly to the ground

Funny how your perspective can change so quickly.
Nobody Nov 10
Someday you'll figure~
You'll figure out that I love-
That I love you so~
Nobody Nov 6
open the gate
who do you hate
"people who know who they are",
he said
i have to leave
i have to flee
I'm now in a country where i can't be
who i want to be.

open the gate
who do you hate
"everybody but me",
Trump won the elections.
Nobody Nov 3
What is wrong with humanity
We torture animals to entertain ourselves
We separate them from their families
We burn their homes
Flames licking at ancient trees
We poison their waters
We fill them with plastic and oil
And say that we have it bad
What have we done?

You can't go anywhere that Hasn't been touched and ruined by humans.
Not a forest with no footsteps
Not an ocean with no plastic
Not a mountain where humans haven't planted their flag.
What have we done?

Homes
Gone.
Lives
Lost.
A collapsed society, built on greed and neglect
World awful
Whoever has more money wins
People stuck on violent, garbage filled streets
Animals in chains
What have we done?

Birds try to fly
But wings are tied
Fishes try to swim
But gills are caught
What have we done?

The only way to fix it
Is to start over
If only.
If only we could.
Goodbye, dear earth. I'm so sorry.
Humans are awful. We hurt and harm and leave the world worse that when we found it.
Nobody 6d
What is wrong with humanity
We torture animals to entertain ourselves
We separate them from their families
We burn their homes
Flames licking at ancient trees
We poison their waters
We fill them with plastic and oil
And say that we have it bad
What have we done?

You can't go anywhere that Hasn't been touched and ruined by humans.
Not a forest with no footsteps
Not an ocean with no plastic
Not a mountain where humans haven't planted their flag.
What have we done?

Homes
Gone.
Lives
Lost.
A collapsed society, built on greed and neglect
World awful
Whoever has more money wins
People stuck on violent, garbage filled streets
Animals in chains
What have we done?

Birds try to fly
But wings are tied
Fishes try to swim
But gills are caught
What have we done?

The only way to fix it
Is to start over
If only.
If only we could.
Goodbye, dear earth. I'm so sorry.
i'm reposting this because it was the first poem i ever put and i spent like 5 hours editing it, and it got like 0 reactions. I POURED MY HEART AND SOUL INTO THIS POEM. SO I'M KIND OF ****** >:(
Nobody 4d
Happy pills
Leave me feeling empty
Numb
And to be honest
Ive stopped taking my meds
Because id rather feel ******
Than feel like styrofoam

Happy pills
Leave me feeling nothing
Like plain yogurt
But ive stopped taking my meds
Because id rather feel like a plant without
W a t e r
Than an unsalted pretzel

Are the pills helping?
Because they are supposed to make me happy
But they somehow make me feel worse...
Inspired by a comment from RyanGeoffreyHayward!!!
Nobody Nov 7
Come one, come all
Come see this display
He once stood tall
Come now, don't delay.

Show and tell,
A sight to see,
hopelessness etched into my skin
I realize I'll never win
Ha. Silly me.

Sleeve fell down
Everyone saw
I want to run away
And break the law

He goes through pain!
Everyone see!
Ha. Silly me.
Nobody 5d
i know that hate never helps
it never helped anyone
only makes things worse or keeps it the same
doesn't change what happened
can't change the past,
saying this is meaningless.
but after all you did to me,
i think i have the right to say this:

i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you.

okay. one more time.
I. HATE. YOU. 😊
Nobody Nov 11
I Hide everything about myself
The fresh cuts and scars with a sleeve
The stomach with an oversized hoodie
I want to leave

I Hide everything about myself
The pain with a mask
The trauma with a wall
Finally, silence...at last...

Pure quietness
Silence
Darkness
No conscience
...
That's the dream.
Nobody Nov 6
An unfinished poem
An unfinished song
A nonexistent place
Where everyone feels like they belong

An imaginary escape
Fake people with open arms
A mere dream of a place
With no hurt or harm

The real world with endless pain
The true world with tears and grief
The actual world
Where I'm not allowed to be me.
Nobody 7d
How many times have I said
"I'm fine"
"I'm fine"
I'm fine"
When I am not okay
How many times have I said
"In time"
"In time"
"In time"
The feeling will go away
The felling of fear, the feeling of failure
The feeling of being lost
Can maybe be healed...
But at what cost?
I'll lose my friends, my reputation,
I'll be all alone
Just because I can't do this on my own
Over time, nothing has changed
I still say
"I'm fine"
"I'm fine"
I'm fine"
When I am not okay
...
Nobody 7d
I miss the days
When I could just eat without thinking about it
Without counting the calories
Without shaking with guilt
Without feeling so awful that I shove my fingers down my throat just to pull it out
To remove the weight
To release the guilt and shame and food into the toilet bowl

The cold bathroom floor has become comforting.
Knowing that after kneeling down on it, my hands trembling
I'll lose weight
Haha I hate my brain i miss how it was before
Nobody Nov 3
I barely recognize my reflection
Who am I?
Who is the person in the mirror?
I don't look like myself. This isn't my body.

I'm not a girl
I'm not a girl
I'm. Not. A. Girl.

The mirror says the opposite of my heart.
A stranger looks back.
We argue.
My eyes verus my mind.
My body versus my soul.
My heart.
Glass shatters and breaks it.
I feel it fall to the floor.
Blood dries on the ceramic bathroom tiles.
So do tears.

I refuse to be a girl.
I won't be a girl.
I never have been.

I'm. Not. A. Girl.
Trans guy problems πŸ₯²
Nobody 6d
is it just me
or does everybody seem to hate me
is it just me
or does nobody really care
is it just me
or are the stares a sign of resentment
is it just me
or is there tension in the air
Is it just ne
Or does everybody want me dead
Is it just me
Or these thoughts might not just be in my head...
When I walk down the halls, i get death stares. **** knows what i did to them.
Nobody Nov 5
It happened again.
How dumb of me to think I could go more that 24 hours without it.
My worst enemy.
My best friend.
My problem.
My solution.
I don't even know why.
It just happened.
I'm so sorry.
Nobody Nov 7
I wonder if you even know
How much you affected me
I wonder if you even know
How hard you made life for me
I wonder of you know
Why I get panic attacks
I wonder if you know
That I get panic attacks
I wonder if you know
Why I hurt myself
I wonder if you know...
That the cuts you made fun of me for...
Were your fault...
Sorry this gets a little intense. This is about my experience with bullies and heartless jerks.
Nobody 2d
Up up
Down down
Left right
Left right
B A start
Thats the konami code
If only my heart
And soul
Were that simple
It goes more like
Up up
Side to side
Twist it all around
Squeeze the blood out
Keep getting reminded
Restart
Down
Down
Down
Down
To the pit of my stomach
And then itll leap into my throat
And then sink back down again
Never really level
Up up
Down down
Left right
B A start
Twist
And tug
And pull at my heart
Its not simple
Its anything but
Nobody 1d
Ive found a new type of loneliness
One that can be felt in a crowd
Surrounded by people i dont know
Like a storm in a sky of fluffy clouds

Ive found a new type of loneliness
One that can be felt with friends
Feeling so worthless
I hope that this ends

Ive found a new type of loneliness
One that i know will never stop
Itll jeep going and going
Until the second I drop

I look forward to that day
Nobody Nov 11
Words no longer coming to my head
Fingers no longer able to hold a pen
Hands no longer able to type
My skill flown away
Losing my mind
Losing my hope
Losing my happiness
Losing everything
Slowly
Going
Crazy
Not going to lie, I just watched about 13 minutes of a horror movie and now I am traumatized. The movie was 'smile' and now I want to hide in a hole πŸŽ€πŸŽ€πŸŽ€
Nobody 2d
it's just a bitter pill to swallow
one that should fix my mind
one that should make me happy
one that should make me kind

it's just 150 MLs of drugs
to put you to sleep
we've prescribed these pills
so that none of your problems leak

it's just a pill case that's bursting at the seams
no problem, no sweat
these pills are supposed to make me see nothing but smiley faces
but i still feel nothing but dread

if the prescription doesn't work
should we up the dose
or should we stop
because my mental health is a budding rose
making me want to drop

the pills have stopped working
well, i guess they never did
but i don't want to concern the doctors
so it's always something i've hid

pretend i'm doing okay
say that i feel fine
they write it down in their little note pad
i hope they don't know that i'm lying
i hope they don't know that i'm crying
i hope they don't know that i'm dying
every second i'm alive

if they could read my thoughts
would they send me to the hospital for the second time?
because if they do
i'll stay silent...
like a mime

no words
just like last time
running out of rhymes
so i guess i won't speak
poetry is how i talk
Nobody Nov 3
Quick breaths
Peppermint tears
And I said,
"Never again."
"Never again will I be the weakest link,
Never again will I fail,
Never again will the pressure
Hit my back like hail."
"Never again will I be weak
Never again will I be lost,
Never again will I feel this way,
No matter the cost."
I wrote this when I was a lot younger, so that's why it kind of ***** ***.
Nobody Nov 12
I love the way you write
I love the way you comment on so many poems
I love the way you post so often
I love the way you bring happiness and poetry
I love the way you show others you care
I love everything I know about you
(Platonically of course)
In the rare case you couldn't guess who I'm talking about, it's... (drumroll please)
Liana!!!
Liana is always so nice to us and comments so many positive things. Nobody is truly grateful though 😀 let's show Liana we care <3
everybody go like/love/comment on as many poems of hers as possible. she deserves appreciation :D
Nobody Nov 6
The worst thing in the world
Is the days where you feel like nothing matters
The days where no matter what
You can't enjoy what you usually do
The days where you feel nothing
And everything
All at once
Like styrofoam covered in gray and blue
The days where the sun is out
But you feel the rain drops hitting your sleeve.
The days where you scrape and stab at your skin just to feel something.
To feel anything.
Or nothing.
...
Welcome to living hell! Also known as my life 😊
Nobody 3d
Dont call me lazy
When I am sick
There's a difference between those 2
I'm depressed
Not lazy
I'm anxious
Not lazy
I'm burnt out
Not lazy
I have an eating disorder
I'm not lazy
I'm tired
Not lazy
I'm so done with this
Not lazy
I'm struggling
Not lazy
I'm sad
Not lazy
I'm nervous
Not lazy
I'm traumatized
Not lazy
I'm. Sick.
Not lazy.
Nobody Nov 6
Open your eyes
You're not safe
Get out from the open
Hide in a cave

Lock your doors
Hide with me
In the closet
Where no one can see
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