I lie on my bed, all curled up in myself.
No lights, no ventilation, no disturbance.
There's no spark that would lead me out of this cave,
As my brain suffocated on a thoughtless wave.
The weeds growing out of my mouth stops the little part of me from screaming.
I know no one will come to save me now.
I desire nothing lord, thank you for putting me in this self made grave.

We go on and on till we die.
Come here lie on the ground with me.
Don't hesitate, let's make snow angels and
Admire how the snow provides a blank paper for the sun to paint and embellish earth.
Feel how the evergreen conifers shine like Ornaments after a strong blizzard hit them.
Let the calmness of winter imprint on your soul,
Exhale all your uncertainty and watch it
Condense into a fog and leave your body.

In my melancholy blues
I wonder if all the problems
I have are because of me.
Intoxication doesn't wash it away
Your love is all that makes me stay
Sane and numbs all the pain.
So come and let me be with you,
Let my little heart feel the bloom.

'You won’t be able to take the pressure’, people said,
‘It is tough to get in and even tougher to carry on’, they said.
Well yes, saving lives was never supposed to be easy at all.
Its true it takes years to master but wasn’t it said that great things always take time?
After having their share of sand kicked in their face at med school,
They start working selflessly day and night.
Pandemic occurs, world undergoes a standstill,
They power through, never stop and take no rest.
You expect them to be curer of all and everything,
But then why don’t you give them the love,
The respect they deserve?

Looks don’t define me but do you know what does?
The talent in my hands,
The will in my legs to carry on,
The hunger to try out new things,
The power in my neck to keep my head upright,
The brain inside my skull,
The love inside my heart,
The soul inside my body.

You were my 'the one' at the wrong time.
You could've been the sun and
Could've made my moon shine.
But whenever we were together,
We caused an eclipse.
If only I could do you better,
If only we could co-exist.

Let's get tanned on the beach of Ipanema,
Where the breeze is always lively and artistic.
We'll climb Arpoador just to watch the sunset behind The Two Brothers as it casts color on the sandy bay.
As the night draws in we will head to a restaurant, where the air is drunk with bossa nova music and dance our night away.

If you've stood longer than normal in shower feeling hot drops on your cheeks than cold,
If you've felt an unknown entity clinging your neck with each step you take to future then you know what I'm talking about.
If you've learnt to suppress your emotions around people you love and soaked you pillow,
If you've made yourself distant from your family just to make it easier on them and suffered alone then you know what I'm talking about.
If you've felt music not being able to cure your mood and lyrics sound all monotonous to you,
If you've learned no drugs, no amount of alcohol can fix your soul then you know what I'm talking about.
If you've swallowed down pills just to be saved by a series of miracle vomits,
If you've got scars on your body you lie to people about then you know what I'm talking about.
If you've never shared your thoughts with someone just because it might be too much,
If you've made peace with the fact that it's not others at fault but just you then you know what I'm talking about.
And if you really know what I'm talking about just know that I'm cursed to write about it while you are unable to speak up.

As I got off the tube in London and
Climbed my way onto the ground I saw,
The increasingly tempestuous but melodious
rain collide with Thames like shiny little gems.
The aroma of sweetness abroad the air,
Led me to a small bakery on a secluded street,
And through the display window I saw you,
Sweeter than any pie, cupcake or pastry.

All of this feels strange and untrue,
but here I'm am in Chicago winters with you.
Where windows oversee the frozen lake
And snow glows on streets at daybreak,
As we sit in front of the fireplace,
blankets covering us as on your
arm I lay my face.

'Hold your phone this way for a better capture' he corrected and thus it all began.
Never did it cross my mind that I'll end up loving him so much hadn't it been the little things he did and said.
Apologizing for someone else's mistake guided me towards the road to fall for him,
He put me at more ease each second on our first date at the films.
Walking for a few moments after practice ended each day,
Kissing me first time on the night of our show seems only like yesterday.
I've done so many crazy things with you with no regrets of any kind,
If I could go back in time it'll still be you with whom I'll intertwine.

A tear trickled down my eye,
He was there ready to make me smile,
With one of his witty and allusive remarks.
I won't be lying if I say that
He has the potential of turning grey to
All of the colors of a rainbow's arc.

Posing naked in front of the mirror,
Practicing dance moves with you,
Watching movies lying on your back,
Eating new stuff that we never had.
While tracing back my happy days,
I'll write it down with glitter.

Is it strange or is it true that only when
Our present isn't gratifying
And the future isn't inspiring
That we recourse to our past.

The moon was abnormally large that night and
Seemingly keen to hear their heart to heart as
They sat together in what now is a forgotten bar.
His grey shirt stained with her red tears fated, He was going and she must love him from afar.

On the hangers of your closet,
Diverse masks dangle.
Which one will you wear to appease
the society tonight?
Will you let someone see the real you or always remain misunderstood?
Or will you let it drain all the oxygen from your blood?

A single drop of water seems inconsequential,
But a bunch of them create alternate reality.
Should we continue to hustle where we are?
Or should we plunge into the one below where
time is loosened and us free of captivity?

Wasn't it better when we were children and
Fear meant being alone in the dark with six-leged spiders crawling over our neck?
For look at us now, we're all alone, darkness sweeping us in while the strings of anxiety, depression, panic, sadness, insecurity and death traps us in their web?

Spring came and went by,
Some flowers remained,
Some wilted down.
I know there's no place for death in a garden,
But how do you uproot the ones which were once the jewels of your crown?

Each time when my heart broke,
It added a new cosmic beat in my song.
When my brain chose between you and life,0
A melodious symphony came along.
The smoke from all the memories I burnt,
Breathed out as tunes from my clarinet.
The senses that I tormented loving you,
Bursted out into an impassioned cassette.

What if my thoughts are not mine?
What if I do things without insight?
My mind is fractured by the world we live in,
And the breach is used to steal and replace
what lies inside my brain.
No memory is safe, no plan unstained.

Every road seems unfamiliar,
Every turn is different from the last,
Towards north I see despair,
And the south has evil in the air,
East and west look ready to ensnare,
Since you left me here unprepared,
Tell me who am I to trust amongst this mass?

I poured my heart out on a piece of paper,
Folded it into a boat and floated it across
The river, to the bank, to you.
But alas an endless rain befell,
If only I knew how to carve out wood.

Next time when tears roll down your eyes,
Catch those magical crystals before they
Fall and break on the floor and let them
Transport you to the magical world where
There are only hellos and no goodbyes.

The journey is long and full of dark turns,
If once in a while you feel like taking a rest,
Don't hesitate to lay under the tree,
Let the wind rustling through the leaves whisper you to sleep.
The morning will come again,
You will get up again,
Its okay to let go for a moment.

Poets make love immortal in words,
I hope your memories live on and if not,
I'll pray to God everyday to send me to heaven,
Because you'll be there and time, frozen.

If you feel like staying up a little longer,
I'll make you a cup of coffee.
If you have to wake up early next day and go to work for long hours,
I'll make you a cup of coffee.
If you wanna enjoy the rain in evening,
I'll make you a cup of coffee.
If you get cold and wanna warm up,
I'll make you a cup of coffee.

Lately I've been listening to a lot of songs,
Songs which evoke my memories of you.
Maybe its your absence making me yearn
For you, your voice, your touch. Return.

As my shoes collect dust inside the shelf,
I've finally found time to improve myself.
To colour my life a little bit brighter,
Red, pink, blue and a little bit greener.
©kanishka

When you first met me,
I was still broken.
My world, a draught ridden plateau.
Desolateness stretched till horizon.
Fire screeched through the soil.
As time passed, clouds condensed.
I wont say you were the first showers,
But the ones that turned buds to flowers.

My heart drowns a bit more each day,
Blood seeps in through the cracks.
Enduring through a lifetime of storms,
It may have grown frail or strong.
But the knowledge of it is not worth the test,
So let it flow through the eyes and
Hope the heart makes it to surface at rest.

I saw a full moon tonight.
The one which brings peace,
At the quiet of night.
I am in my prime in its presence.
Would it be okay for the starry sky
If I do?

Wearing your clothes I can feel you beside me,
The fibres blending into my skin, becoming one.
Caressing my blemishes and beauty evenly.
Screening me from the cold and harsh.
Oh how could I ever give it up?
How could I ever give you up?

The essence of you lingers on.
You stand there with your arms open,
A welcoming fire.
I walk in and feel my layers evade,
Catching fire.
Burning till cessation of existence.
The essence of you lingers on.

With your skin so near to me,
How can I do anything but crave to touch you?
The warmth it radiates draws me closer,
Inch by inch, breath by breath.
The desire grows stronger with
Every resist, every denial.
And when you finally let me trespass
There's no place I'd rather be,
No other fence I'd ever surpass.

Time seems to fly by at the speed of light,
When I'm with you, so close
That it makes me suspect,
It may be all lies or love.
Fall in and help me decide,
What's better
To radiate darkness or light?

I know its empty today
but someday I'll be your sunshine
And make your morning warm and cozy
With a hot cup of coffee.

I walk on this road while,
The winds conspire our union.
It might take longer than the true intend,
But I know that together we'll transcend.

I wish I had saved those poems,
The words portraying our love.
I wish I had done something more,
To sleep with you forever under this sycamore.

I love you with all my might,
All my heart and all my life.
But if you fail to put up with my battles,
I'll cleave our bonds with a knife.

I wouldn't praise our love today,
I won't dedicate you any song.
Not because something's not right
But because I'm afraid.
So I will admire us and let it live on.

Behind every successful man,
There is a woman.
To achieve this ideology,
I'm crumbling myself to pieces,
As best as one can.

I didn't feel like writing today.
I was afraid I'd say the unsaid.
I dont wanna face the truth,
I dont wanna give up on us.
Why cant you come back to me,
And be the way it's supposed to be?