Standing at the door, hesitant.
Wondering what I'll see.
The other side is haunting,
The other side's a mystery.

It could be the hell
I've always learned to fear
With dark emerging creatures
And an exit no where near

Drowning in your sorrow
Replaying every trauma
Screaming out to no one
It's more than highschool drama

Demons crawling under your skin
Breaking every bone
Scratching and tearing to get them out
You've never been so alone

Screaming in the night
Gasping your last breath
Ripping your own heart out
But never rewarded death

These images they haunt me,
But I've come to far to leave.
I must know what's in there
And what my future will be..

So here I go..
I open the door...

Oh my god..there it is....
This is what I've been waiting for..

I do things that people consider wierd, but living in a comfortable life, is better than living scared.
People stare as I crouch on my feet, reminding myself I will be home soon, under my covers and sheet.
I wear baggy clothes to hide,
Buried in the warmth, with my low riding pride.
But who is to say what's accepted,
When the world is corrupt and infected.
Yes, infected, by their image of life. Smoothed out like butter with a knife .
They learned to feel it is fine, to go abouts with materials things and fancy wine.
Rubbing their wealth in your face, scolding as if you don't try.. telling you you're a disgrace,
to the human kind.
That's what this world has come to, trampling their own for something to do.
While people like me just try to get by, without anyone noticing or batting an eye.
Curling up into my corner of the world, thanking God that i made it again. For this corrupt world might **** me in.
Fearing that society will point me out like at a zoo. Laughing and awe-ing cuz they can't tell,
if I'm wierd or cute.
This is what its come to if you're not like them you don't exist.
You're mearly something they can tell to their friends.
They don't care if you cut your wrist
or are soon to meet lifes end.
So hide beneath your blankets and sheet, and if knocked down get on your feet. Learn that the world, you have to forgive, and no one can tell you how to live.

When youre in the room and you're laughing while we're laughing it's almost as if we're laughing together.
And for a second you can believe that were a family again, but fantasies and fairytales, I guess you never learned, dont last forever.
So we look around and you can see it in our eyes that were pretending nothing is wrong as we sit with a broken heart.
The distance between us is inches but the miles in your head is what really keeps us apart.
Waiting for the second of attention we might acquire if you look up and meet our eyes.
We love you forever, don't take this wrong, it's the game that we despise.
It's ****** you in and all that's left is the empty corpse you once controlled
You think you're selling something and they believe your every word, but its your life you really sold.
Wakeup from the fantasy and realize the life you live isn't so bad,
Or one day you'll wakeup to losing everything you had.

I'm just a face for every picture,
Just a memory in your head.
Just that girl you won't remember,
Not a word I ever said..
I'm just a whisper in the wind,
Just a cold place in your heart.
Youll never remember me,
Though I was here from the start.
I'm a cold chill runnin up your spine,
Faint voice with a familiar song. .
I'm a shadow in the darkest night,
The one who was there when things went wrong.
Just a piece of broken art,
The footsteps in the snow.
The puzzle piece that doesnt fit,
But thats something you dont know.

Pay me no attention,
I'm just that dumb little girl,
Who couldn't seem to find her place,
In this messed up little world.

Finally silence as the knife hits the floor, you scream in terror "what're you smiling for?!"
My vision is blurred and the room starts to fade, as I think of my life and the mess I have made.
They told me not to trust you cuz you'd **** me straight to hell, they made me do things I had to promise not to tell.
They were always there whispering in my head, but they will be gone now for I will soon be dead.
You were always hiding things and sneaking from place to place, but you were trying to get me the help that I was afraid to face..
"But that can't be right you were poisoning us!" The voices grow louder as they furiously cuss..
"You little **** you tried to **** me we don't deserve this!" i mean.. think of all the fun you're going to miss..
All those games we played like hide the ****** corpse.. until we fought when you told me I have no remorse.
The poison though.. was the pills in my drink, You tried to tell me they were prescribed by my shrink.
But reality hits, this is really the end, all this time they said it was just pretend.
The voices fade as you stand there in shock, the only sound made is the tic of the clock.
I thought it was you but MY hand dropped the blade, this is by far the worst game I've ever played...
My memory was clouded but now I can see...
I thought you were crazy but the crazy one's me.

There goes my heart, there goes the pain,
there goes everything, just ripped away. There goes our love, there goes our fights,
there goes all those restless nights.
Don't turn your head, just wish me dead,
as the promises break that you once said... So I guess this is the end.

The pierce of a blade never felt so good, a rush of blood.. no one thought I would.
I'm past the emotions and the tears, sick of the fighting and my fears.
All this time I've wrote these songs, my life has been following right along.
I write my future, my present, and past, I didn't think the end would come this fast. But now I lie here on the floor, wondering if I could've done something more.
Anything to prevent this tragic end, maybe if I could rely on a friend?
But it's hard to talk when they won't understand, or say that they'll help cuz they think that they can
No one could save me from this darkness inside, it won't go away cuz lord knows I've tried.
Let me fade from this world with no remorse, or fall asleep inside my pale white corpse.
Whichever suits your afterlife thoughts, just be sure to visit where my body rots. And be happy for me cuz I've finally broke free, from this painful life of misery.