A lifetime spent
with you
still wouldn't be
long enough...

It’s splashing on some eyeliner
Make yourself look decent
It’s throwing on a crop top
When it's 20 degrees outside
It’s sitting in the driveway
You have 2 hours until he comes
It’s freezing your *** off
Because a skirt looked better
It’s listening to cars go by
And wondering which one will be his
It’s knowing he'll never wait in the dark for you
It’s getting in his car
And hearing “you look hot”
it's never understanding why he won't take you to his place
Am I not worthy of your bed?
Are you embarrassed?
It’s wanting to have a conversation
But he's only interested in what color your underwear is
It’s wanting to hold his hand
I just want to hold your hand
It’s having to tell yourself
You don’t mean a thing to him
When he bites your neck
It’s suppressing your tears
When he dives into you
It’s knowing one another
But not being able to look at each other
​For those who don’t know what 2am hangouts are like
It’s constantly telling yourself you deserve better
Why won’t I get better?

Back then
Life was easier

Back then
Life was happier

Back then
Life was calm

Back then
Life was at ease

Now
Life is challenging

Now
Life is a mixture of feelings

Now
Life is happening

Now
Life is sometimes at un-ease

all those little moments
meant the world to me
were nothing for you
and I know
you don't miss me
the way I miss you

You are the only person i know i won’t forget
Because no matter who else comes along, no matter what they do
At the end of the night when i let my mind free, it always runs straight back to you