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Paige Oct 2020
They think I'm joking

Those pills

                     That ledge

                                          The blades

All for their amusement because even while I'm dying I'm still a joke to you
This is a joke...probably
Paige Oct 2020
I just want to disappear
Or maybe for someone to hear
Or perhaps something to hold dear

But honestly I won't get anything here
Idk i just can't function anymore
Paige May 2020
I have one body
it's mine alone
something that nobody else can own
but, I don't really feel at home

Not since you laid your hands on me
now in the mirror that's all I see
It's like a solemn guarantee
that comfortable I'll never be

You left bruises all over me
fingertips that left a tole
not on my body but my soul
but, that was always your goal

I've never been more unprepared
this broken leaves you feeling scared
It's something that can't be repaired
Because in you I've been ensnared
I'm just kinda working through some stuff
May 2020 · 600
Eye like Stars
Paige May 2020
The night sky twinkles with a thousand tiny flecks of light
and your eyes always sparkle just as bright.
I hear the wind humming a sweet lullaby
and can't help but wonder why.
Why a person like me deserves a person like you
who shines like the sun whenever I'm blue.
Your  smile leaves my head dizzy
and your voice leaves me in a tizzy.
You're my one weakness. I can never say no
and I'll follow where ever you go.
Your moonlit lips make me weak
and with your heart, you always speak.
I love you with my entire soul
so my heavy heart must let you go
You only know you love them when you let them go
Paige Jun 2019
Dear L
I’m not gonna lie I miss you
I realize you were never mine to miss
But you taught me things
Things about myself that no one else could
In another life I’d tell you how much I loved you
How much I still love you
But you were always hers
I hope you will always be hers
Because I know how your face lights up when it’s her on your phone
And I hope that you will never loose that love.
That true bliss.
And if that means that you will never know that you’re the one who makes my face light up like that
So be it
Jun 2019 · 364
It was just you and I
Paige Jun 2019
We stumbled upon a view that wast tailor made for two
It was just you and I under a pale blue sky
I turned to see your smile and stopped to stare a while
Because even then I knew you were more beautiful than the view
You turned to go when the sun drooped low
And I heard your laugh down the golden path
As night consumed light the moon bloomed bright
And the stars blossomed too you know how they do
Lighting this lovely night with and the mood just right
I whispered in your ear “Oh how I love you dear”
Just you and I under a star lit sky
Stumbled upon a scene peaceful and serene
Jun 2019 · 413
Contacts
Paige Jun 2019
I hide behind my glasses
Because I believe if you can’t see my eyes
You’ll never see the pain inside
But that comes with a price
Because that pain makes me who I am
So until I let the world see
No one will know the real me.
They say the eyes are windows to the soul so would that make glasses blinds?
Jun 2019 · 190
Hopeful Dreams
Paige Jun 2019
I had a dream last night that I finally did it
I died
And let me tell you that it sure felt peaceful
I’m okay I promise
Jun 2019 · 1.2k
I believe in magic
Paige Jun 2019
I believe in Magic.
Not the dream come true kind but the gathering
I know it’s just some stupid card game
But when you don’t know how to make friends
Maybe a little magic will help.
Plus Magic is all I have left of you
Jun 2019 · 220
Building me
Paige Jun 2019
I look at the people who made me me
Not the person that I want to be
But this empty shell that walks alone
And can’t find a place to call home
I look at who I am inside
How most of me I want to hide
Like the scars that cover my midsection
And how people tell me they’re a sin
I hate that sadness that comes from pain
And I miss dancing in the rain
But now everything just feels the same
And I’m left wondering why I came
I hate the girl that I’ve become
And I know I’m not the only one
Because when I look at the people who made me me
It definitely isn’t love that I see
Why can’t you love the me you made me?
Jun 2019 · 121
Yellow
Paige Jun 2019
If yellow was a feeling I think it would be like my memories of you.
How young and bold we were and how we believed that love was true.
Before the world convinced us life is war.
Before you had to go and leave my heart sore.
Yellow is freshmen year in coffee shops.
Inside jokes, and soda pops.
Laughing on your bed room floor.
Car conversations even more.
I miss you desperately dear, but I do not despair when you’re not here, because my yellow memories out shine the blue and I just remember how I love you.

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