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Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
I love the one who
Hurts me the most, you hurt the
One you love the least
A cruel cycle
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
I am not sure how it really feels
To love someone with all your heart's got
I know what it's like to lose
The person you care about a lot

I have felt the bitter blade of lust
Rest softly against my collarbone
Witnessed blood run down my chest
You left me there alone

Gasping for air, victimized, sad
Trying desperately to gain back control
You swallowed the oxygen
Out of my very soul

Despite how hard I worked to breathe
Only strangled sighs bravely escaped
Changed the way I live my life
Sense of right and wrong you've shaped

You are a drug like ******
Injected into my veins
Attempt to still my addiction
This burning never wanes
Written 1-23-12
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
I wish you could understand how I feel
Realize that emotions aren't something I conceal
Although we've been together awhile
Can't quite pinpoint what makes you smile

I do not enjoy being misunderstood
What in my life has ever been good?
Tell myself I wasn't hurt before
But I have suffered a broken heart and more

I've changed, I'll never be the same
At least I know how to play life's game
I just want to learn and discover your past
So we actually make this last
Written 9-28-12
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
How do I make you truly love me
As deeply as you said?
Words you spoke out loud to me
Never matched ones inside your head

How do I make you miss me too?
Laughter, breath, and devotion
Are you capable of feeling
Greif or any emotion?

How do I make you care?
Enough to be a decent guy?
I am not asking for perfection
Just want you to ******* try

How do I make you share the truth?
You're not even honest with yourself
You built world of fantasy
To deny deteriorating health

How do I make you forfeit the drugs?
Tried to be an example, lead the way
The love in your heart wasn't strong enough
And I am starting to see you'll always drift astray

How do I make you love yourself for who you are?
Accept beauty of each scar
No one will stay if you don't
Hard to love someone who doesnt know who they are

How do I stop pain we feel?
Aching resounding in every bone
I cry when thinking about what we lost
Only if I am alone

How do I make you change your ways
Stop living life the way you do
Hardest question of these to answer
How do I quit loving you?
Just ketting out some pent up frustration haha
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
You think I really hate you
Know I ******* should
But I do not think I ever will
Any girl in my place would

In head screams echo off the walls
My soul rotting, begging to heal
Organs a meager cushion for substances
Heart beats but doesn't want to feel

Raindrops pound, I miss your kiss
And I swear painful truth is all I  see
Used to write my adoration for you
It is clear you are unworthy

Picking at emotional scabs
Left by resentful carving knives
I wonder between snaps of anger
If this is how you wanted us to live our lives
I wish you would have thought things through
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2018
Cannot shake these feelings
Love in my heart is stronger than me
Your memory harasses day and night
Shackled to past, will I ever be free?
It is never too late to start over
Not too late for change, don't you see?
It is never too late to be the person
You always wished to be
It's never too kate to be who yoy might've been
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