Zane Smith

Zane Smith Oct 2019

madness

out of place
out in space
my mind wonders
looking for something safe.
to hold onto
and cherish,
but I tend to stumble
and perish.
when fallen down
I'm filled with sound,
constant and booming
loud and looming.
once redirected
my head feels connected,
to the body I know
and my wisdom
I call home.

#loud #noise #mind #full #overwhelmed #stumble #wisdom #home

Zane Smith Oct 2019

sickness

like a cold
from missing you.
coughs interrupting
my breathing,
short intervals
like the time we get together.
resting in bed
allowing my body
to reset,
but I'm upset
when I can't hold you
near my chest

#sick #bed #cough #rest #miss #you #life

Zane Smith Sep 2019

what is this

I have been
down and confused.
feeling things
I used to
be used to.
it had become
a normal
but now,
it's new again.
feelings of guilt
for missing memories,
because the past
can't come back.
I don't miss the people
I miss the places
I miss the laughs
I miss the late nights
I miss the stupidity
the vulnerability.

#mood #off #memories #guilt #miss #past #confusion #hope

Zane Smith Sep 2019

tell me why

I have the urge to start over
to throw everything away.
tell me why some days
it's impossible to get dressed,
to get out of bed.
tell me why I want
to throw my phone in the ocean
to delete social media.
tell me why my best friend
isn't home yet
it's been over a year.
Tell me why my life feels
so put together
yet
so far away

where am I going?

#choices #confusion #slow #sluggish #lazy #why #erase #delete #life

Zane Smith Sep 2019

pause

the days I feel
my brain is blocked,
I take a step back
go for a walk.
no phone needed
through the neighborhood.
searching for peace
a quiet state of mind,
finding ways
to leave it behind.

one way I take my pause for the day, giving my brain a moment to process

#thinking #breathe #unwind #stuck #blocked #brain #time #away

Zane Smith Sep 2019

I don't know

what to think
anymore.
I want to write
my brain won't
create
poems like before.
this is ******
****
what a pity.
I think
I'm trying to hard

i sit down to write but nothing flows
I guess my feelings
don't want to show

#bored #idk #brain #eh #whatever

Zane Smith Sep 2019

blink

time flies by
with the blink
of an eye.
so when
do we truly
start living?