as i look at your eyes, i only see beauty
as i hear your voice, i only hear my heartbeat begging for more
not speaking for how much i love it
for when i am with you, i'll never ever get bored

winning you may seem impossible
but now you're with me, ******* what am i doing
do i make you happy or am i just sadness slowly taking you away
but for now
i'll think i'm just human being, now worth knowing

every station, every night
i beg and beg for more
because i'll be going home alone without you
every minute i wish you'd give me a call
and i miss you

J.D.B

go on, cut it's leaves and leave the thorns
you deserve to be happy

she was heartache from the moment that you met her

I'm happy and you're sad
I'm smiling and you're faking smiles
I'm laughing and you're crying
I'm contented and you're lost
I'm complete and you're broken

I left and you let me
I was a fool to believe that you would chase me
But you didn't hold my hand tight as if our hands are not fit together
I was a fool to believe that you will hug me
But you just look at me with a blank emotions
I was a fool to believe that you will kiss me
But you didn't and just sigh
I was a fool to believe that you would say my name and get angry
But you said your last goodbye and walk away
I was a fool to believe that after our path seperated,
I thought I will be happy
smiling
laughing
contented
and complete

But who the **** am I fooling?
I feel like a glass broke into pieces
I feel like a piece of paper slit into two
I feel like a wilted leaves
I feel like a snow falling on the ground
I feel like an empty jar

I'm tired
I'm tired of convincing myself I'm over
I'm tired of fooling myself
I miss you and It's killing me
I want that arms around my body again
I miss those hands touching my hips
That broad chest to lean my head on
That **** lips whispering on my ears
That manly voice saying my name
Yes, I want all of that
I want you back

Only you
No one else
Just me and you being together
But I was late
Too late to realize that I'm a fool for not keeping you
Too late to realize that I'm a fool for letting you go
Too late to realize that I'm a fool

you think you don't deserve anything so you ruin it

nothing we can do about it
just endlessly, tirelessly distract ourselves

i forget to hate myself when i'm with you

the words to my poems are lost and so am i

you don't need a boy who will call you beautiful
you need a man who will call you intelligent
a man who will tell your laugh is contagious
that you made him smile
that you have something to offer

Minsan kahit anong ingat mo na hindi matisod at magalusan
Darating ka sa puntong babasagin ka ng mundo
Hindi mo man malugod na matanggap
Kalaunan magpapasalamat ka nalang sa pagkabasag
Sa pira-pirasong sariling kelangang pagtyagaang pulutin para mabuo ulit
May mga parteng hindi mo na mahahanap dahil hindi mo na makita
Iba na kasi ang hugis
Hindi ka na tulad ng dati
Paniguradong iiyakan mo ang pagkamatay ng sarili **** may makulay na pananaw sa mundong akala mo'y hindi ka kayang saktan
Na tila ba'y nakatira ka sa isang palasyong may masugid na taga-silbi
At may isang magiting na prinsipe o prinsesang kukumpleto sa kwento mo
Sino ba naman ang hindi tatangis kung ang ganitong pangarap ay mawawasak lamang sa isang pitik ng mapanlinlang na pagkakataon o ng isang maling sirkumstansya?
May iyak na pisikal
May iyak na hindi kayang ihayag ng luha
Isang tapang na paimbabaw
Pero sa totoo lang, isang kaduwagan
Kailangan **** ilabas yan
Isigaw mo kung kinakailangan
Maglupasay kang parang bata
Suntukin mo ang unan
Magtapon ka
Magbasag ka ng pinggan
Ilabas mo
Ubusin mo ang lakas mo hanggang ang tanging kaya mo na lang ay umiyak
Hanggang ang kaya mo na lang ay ang isang tahimik na pag-iyak
Ang pisikal na pagkapagod ang tutulong sayo na magpahinga ng panandalian
Ipikit ang pagal na isip
Kailangan mo ng katahimikan o ng karamay na may nakatikom na bibig
Hindi gagana ang mga pinakamatamis na salita sapagkat manhid ka
Bagkus, kailangan mo ng kamay na mag-aampat ng umaalwak na dugo mula sa pagkabasag
Banayad na haplos ng pagpapayapa na ang sakit ay lilipas din ngunit sa totoo lang, matagal pa
Malayo pa ang tatahakin mo upang makaalpas ka sa sitwasyong ito Ngunit kailangan **** maniwala at dayain ang sarili
Para makaligtas sa delubyo ng kalungkutang may kakayahang pumatay ng paunti-unti kung hahayaan mo lang
Sa huli, pagkatapos **** malampasan ang mga sandamakmak na sagabal
Ang mga dating sugat ay magiging pilat at kalimitan ay nagiging kalyo na lamang
Mas titibay ang sikmura **** magtiis at mas tataas ang sukatan mo ng tapang
Magtataka ka kung bakit ang mga bagay na dati **** ihinihikbi ay mawawalan na ng epekto sayo
Hindi ka naman naging manhid, naging mas matatag ka lang sa pagkabasag na iyon
Hindi ka magiging ganap kung hindi mo ito mararanasan
Ang katotohanan ay walang taong hindi nabasag ng mundo Dalawa nga lang ang hantungan niyan
Ang mabasag ka't itapon o ang mabasag ka't buuin muli?

allow yourself to be in pain for the things you do not understand
watch the river make its way to you
and see how beautiful things will destroy you

i wish the people i love somewhat know it's going to be okay
i wish words would be as promising as what they seem to be
i wish their own ghosts wouldn't haunt them when they're alone past midnight
i wish they wouldn't feel the weight of a thousand thoughts drown them as they try to step foot towards what they genuinely want
i wish they wouldn't feel the burden of waking next morning after a restless night
i wish they know it's only a matter of time
i just wish it wasn't so difficult for them to believe it's going to be okay

i came to a point in life where every time i breathe i wish it will be my last breathe

when it comes to people i love, i'm so emotionally unstable i always have this tendency to **** up our relationship because i feel too much
and it causes baseless anger outbursts and intimidating coldness. it's like i'm waiting for everyone to **** up. i mean, aren't most people? don't worry. everyone's gets better at pretending that they got so good sometimes you'd think that they have their **** together. i usually just leave. but i couldn't. now that i'm accessing a wider, deeper aspect of his world, i know i have a feeling of being trapped.

it's a very competitive world out there
the competitive spirit is fine within limits
but it shouldn't drown the sheer joy of the game being played
it's natural to want to win
but for me, it's not natural to want others to fail