TW: Self harm, suicide
Why is the “s” word not talked about?
Why can’t people be more aware?
Keep a look out for those
Those in despair?
Why are those who think of or do the “s” word
Judged so badly?
Looked down upon
Like something is wrong with them?
Why can’t they be helped?
Why can’t they find someone to talk to, someone who will stay, and find help for them?
No matter what?
Why are those who finally muster enough courage to tell someone about how they are feeling,
Greeted with faces of disgust and anger?
And are shown that others have no home, no food, but are still fighting strongly, unlike them?
Can’t you understand how hard it was?
To finally try and find someone they trust?
The last thing they need,trust me, is someone telling them that there feelings are unatural and irrational.
Why are those who think of doing the “s” word
Looked upon as very weak and selfish
Can you not see?
Their brain is constantly telling them
You are a waste of space, and a burden
They aren’t being selfish.
In fact, quite the opposite.
They are trying to not be on a burden on the ones they love
The feel that they have no contribution to this planet
The self-hatred constantly encircling their mind.
Hammering them till it kills them.
Why can’t you see that?
They need help, can’t you see?
Someone to tell them that they are loved, faithfully
That they have a purpose, a very important one
That once they will be gone, it’ll never be the same they will find, all along
So please, please keep a lookout
Even on the unlikeliest ones
They may need a friend, as you’ll see
They don’t like being like this and having to hurt the ones around them
So they feel it’s better to end their misery and that of the ones around them, quickly.
Please keep checking up on them to make sure they are safe
Safe at home, in a responsible place
Please take any weapons or pills so they can do no more
Comfort them when they feel that way, especially at night
Stay with them, please,
Check in frequently.
They really really need you, trust me.
If you cannot help, or give advice much,
Just listen to them please
Comfort them
Wipe their tears
Look out for certain scars or cuts, in places like the arms or legs
They can’t stop those urges on their own
Yes, I know, it seems like they are being stupid, but I can truly tell you if you were in their place, you might end up in that way too.
Please remember in their head they are not being unreasonable, but trying to make the world better for those around them
Suffice to say they know some will hurt, but think they will get over it in the end
May I say depression changes a way a person thinks, not in a very nice way
And sometimes, it may even be the little things that are big to them, that make them feel that way
They may have distanced themselves from the people they love, in order not to hurt them
Or they may have no friends, and show no signs of trying to make any at all
For they don’t want to hurt and be a burden on others more than they already are
They may smile or laugh, but when you see
The smile doesn’t quite reach their eyes, their eyes crinkling up in happiness no more
Please look carefully.
They may to stay at home and show start to show no interest
And not find joy in things they used to love
Sit quietly on their own for long periods, and rest
They don’t care about anything anymore you see
Nothing, nothing at all
And this feeling
Heavy feeling in their heart?
That they are a waste of space and a burden?
It is exhausting
It takes all the energy out of you
Drains you out thoroughly
Till you have no energy or courage left to fight
Some days may be good and some may be bad
But don’t let them make you think they’re okay now
Because they truly aren’t, and trying not to be a burden on you
Recovering is a long process
And the feelings?
They may creep up on them anytime, slowly
So I plead, please keep a lookout for them
If not help the others on a large scale, I choose to start by raising awareness for those around me
For,
I really
Really
Don’t want others
To meet
The same destiny
As me.
An extension:
Can’t you understand how hard it was?
To finally try and find someone they trust?
The last thing they need,trust me, is someone telling them that there feelings are unatural and irrational.
Just hug them and tell them.
"It's going to be okay,
I'm going to help you,
You did it alone for so long, and so you are very strong.
But now,you don't have to do this alone anymore.
We both are in this together.
We are going to overcome this.
And you, are truly loved, and worth it.
You,have a purpose, in someones life at the least.
So come along, rise up, be strong, conquer it, i'll be here along with you.
Every step of the way"
With truth.
