"nitro" poems - Hello Poetry

Never should I love, For never will you love me. Never will your deep, blue eyes Look in mine and read my mind, Like a psychic running her fingers along the lines of my palms. Palms that belong to hands you’ll never hold, And handle with care like you would antique china And at the same time grip with a firmness that tells me you’ll never let go. You’ll never let go because you’ll never wrap your soft, warm arms around me in the first place. Your soul will never entangle with mine and fill that void Left by a **** sliced deep within me. A **** left by my father’s youth, And my mother’s faith, Whose knife cut out their acceptance for me And gouged out my trust in them. Can’t you see that you are the antidote to my lifelong suffering? The Accutane to my welted face, The braces to my crooked teeth, The nitro to my aching heart The rhino to my bulging nose The morphine to my broken mind, The running to my fading health Running, running, running away Far away from this broken house Where your dreams never do come true and Where you come out to yourself alone in the bathroom and Where they can’t ever know the truth because my house is Where God resides in the attic and Where Jesus is the only one you should let in your room at night and Where The Holy Spirit has possessed us all to live a lie because my house is Where lifelong love is dead at the delivery room And who is there to blame but me? Who is there to blame but me? But none of that matters to you. It can’t matter to you, Because all you do is love And love And love And love And love. But you never love me. Each year I have known you I have reached out farther than the last, Yearning for something I could never obtain. Fifteen pushes past Fourteen, Both of whom fall short of Sixteen’s growing arms, Which are narrowly outpaced by Seventeen’s spindly, wirey fingertips. Every Year’s efforts have met the same fate; Failing to reach their target they instead grasp fruitlessly Into a dark, brewing storm, Full of tears, And of crackling sparks of hope That are met with the resounding booms of fate Telling me that I am doomed to be alone. Telling me that never should I love, For never will you love me. But I never listen. Because I know you too well. And I know that someday, Someday soon, You’ll make the happy accident Of stepping too close to my many straining hands, And I’ll pull you near to me And you’ll realize that you never loved her at all. And that you always, always have loved me. -The Boy Who Loves You Too

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Sep 29, 2016

Sep 29, 2016 at 10:42 PM UTC

matthew-skelly

To the Boy Who Won't Love Me:

Never should I love, For never will you love me. Never will your deep, blue eyes Look in mine and read my mind, Like a psychic running her fingers along the lines of my palms. Palms that belong to hands you’ll never hold, And handle with care like you would antique china And at the same time grip with a firmness that tells me you’ll never let go. You’ll never let go because you’ll never wrap your soft, warm arms around me in the first place. Your soul will never entangle with mine and fill that void Left by a **** sliced deep within me. A **** left by my father’s youth, And my mother’s faith, Whose knife cut out their acceptance for me And gouged out my trust in them. Can’t you see that you are the antidote to my lifelong suffering? The Accutane to my welted face, The braces to my crooked teeth, The nitro to my aching heart The rhino to my bulging nose The morphine to my broken mind, The running to my fading health Running, running, running away Far away from this broken house Where your dreams never do come true and Where you come out to yourself alone in the bathroom and Where they can’t ever know the truth because my house is Where God resides in the attic and Where Jesus is the only one you should let in your room at night and Where The Holy Spirit has possessed us all to live a lie because my house is Where lifelong love is dead at the delivery room And who is there to blame but me? Who is there to blame but me? But none of that matters to you. It can’t matter to you, Because all you do is love And love And love And love And love. But you never love me. Each year I have known you I have reached out farther than the last, Yearning for something I could never obtain. Fifteen pushes past Fourteen, Both of whom fall short of Sixteen’s growing arms, Which are narrowly outpaced by Seventeen’s spindly, wirey fingertips. Every Year’s efforts have met the same fate; Failing to reach their target they instead grasp fruitlessly Into a dark, brewing storm, Full of tears, And of crackling sparks of hope That are met with the resounding booms of fate Telling me that I am doomed to be alone. Telling me that never should I love, For never will you love me. But I never listen. Because I know you too well. And I know that someday, Someday soon, You’ll make the happy accident Of stepping too close to my many straining hands, And I’ll pull you near to me And you’ll realize that you never loved her at all. And that you always, always have loved me. -The Boy Who Loves You Too