Your emerald eyes

a window to your beautiful soul

your sensitivity to mankind

zero tolerance for the unkind

Writing about you

is harder than any poem I have ever written

you are

the purest soul

You amaze me

every single moment

your commitment

to your dreams

I am blessed

to be in your presence

even more blessed

to be your mommy,

                     I love you

                                      ... unconditionally

The morning rainfall

drizzled petals pink and white

the chill in the breeze

morning coffee, woken soul

tiny birds sing a new morn'

unconditional
everlasting love for you
nothing more to say

Your beautiful voice
I close my eyes and hear you say
"baby, hold me"
"don't let me miss your arms"

Your smile
it use to light up
my darkest day
I could only... smile right back

Your love
you're gone
but I remember your love
it will last for all eternity

Our the wordless goodbye's
Misery of your silence
My mind screaming loud

lazy day, ponder
memories of you linger
memories fading...

Breaking into a pause mid-breath
your words cut into my memories
before dancing with the rain
across the path in a mirror reflection

Tears cascading down my face
crashing into my heart
my dreams are bound
by only a memory of your touch

As the night darkens
lonely heart weeps at stars
the sun smiled brightly

You ***** your
negative,
disgusting,
... words
oh, the deafening
sound of
absolute bliss

As I walk through

These blurred, darkened walls

Displaying portraits of my hurt

Bloodstains that gives

My memories color


My handprints

Grasping, at my will

To reach the light

Come and lay
Hold me close
Don’t explore

Just be still
Shut out the world
Clear the sounds
Close your eyes
Inhale
Exhale

Feel my warmth
Feel my love

Touch my face
******* lips

Our tongues dancing
To the sound of Debussy
Our hands wonder

Our souls meet
You are inside
Don’t leave yet
Don’t stop
Don’t move

We wake
To the sound of Debussy
You never left
You didn’t move...

I see beauty everywhere
a peach blossom
a lonely coffee in
a pretty cafe

The laughter
of a child
a smile
from a beautiful stranger

Lonely nights
the beauty in needing
your smile
just one more time...

I listened to
your tender, loving words
I have observed
your actions... closely

My once happy heart
has turned to stone
In my solitude
My soul accepts all my tears

With my head
in the palm of my aging hands
I live with memories
I will fail to bury

Johann Sebastian Bach,
the sounds that clear my mind
a river of memories
... flowing

With every
breath,
filling "Air"
into my soul

Solitude has become my
Beautiful lonely love affair
My prison wall of hurt,
My safety

As I heal, taking small steps
I find myself cheating
On my lonely love affair,
In silence...for now

Forever, maybe!

I sit here and think without a blink

you fill my memories old

my stale tears, stained to grey

the once beautiful now in decay


Our garden in ruins

our bright red roses

petals dry

f

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We have stopped the rain

my emerald green weep

another day

a darker shade of grey

In a cruel world
I love
without expecting
anything in return

I will give
perfectly
I will love
perfectly

In a cruel world
I hide my scars
and show my beauty
to the soul of a poet

A lavender breeze
The heavenly clouds
In shades of cobalt
An old willow tree
Swaying in the wind

The sun winking
In the distance
Amber skies embracing
My crimson lips
Seeking yours

Your touch
eyes
kisses
your voice

All of you
... Tu me manques

It's been years
we hardly talk
it's easier that way
but we remember, every second of the day

Incredible pain
Constant misery
loneliness
our hearts breaking

a million shattered pieces
that could never
be glued back together
we were just not meant to be

In our hearts
we kiss
we touch
we love, till forever

I always have time
to offer a kind word
share some news
sincere advice

It annoys me when I
invest my precious time
and it's not valued
It is the greatest disrespect to me

Do not give me your sugar-coated
words of entertainment
it really does not impress me
be real honey, that is awe-inspiring

You think I care
I do, more than I should - actually
I am independent and strong
I do not need to be your side distraction, honey.

I used to gaze

Into your eyes for hours

hold you

... while sleeping



Greet you

with sleepy eyes

coffee for two

laughing... as one



I never stop

thinking about you

How can I?

When it's always been you!



Your hugs

I keep them close

Your voice

I still hear, clearly.



My soul needs

you more than my

aging body

and broken heart



In my dreams

I am not alone

How could I be?

You are right there with me!

I love you.
With all of me, inside and out
In out, in out.
Deep, shallow-
deep, deeper, buried
in your heart
subsumed in you
by you, for you,
with you.
I love you.

Your hugs
comforts my sadness
You know my pain
my pillar of strength

With you I am safe
no hurt will penetrate my soul
We share so much
the good and bad

You gather my silent tears
and water our pretty garden
We are best friends
we need each other

This is no coincidence
our souls searched
and found the most
precious friendship

You are
a good man
I am
truly blessed to have you in my life

Your gaze will not penetrate
my steel frame, easily
my rusted heart
and olden thoughts
only know cold frozen emotion

My nights are spent with
memories, barely remembered
snippets of forgotten love
and betrayal  

My soul remains a muted
flickering light
of a little hope
and perhaps, love

I still hope
that one day,
love will unlatch
my rusted heart

My emotions

rippling through

scattered memories

liquid pleasures, my comfort


All the questions

that desperately need answers

my pen bleed

for you, tonight

My sacred place
where I demand
to feel
... feel the pain

Poured onto canvas
so abstract that
a handful feel it with me
I allow it

Extended versions
of the classics
prolonging the emotion
... to be felt

It's a process
allow, the emotion
to feel
to feel the pain from within

I make a wish
A rainbow of colours
I dream of your touch
Warm and tender

I fantasize about your kisses
Delicious
I stare into your bright eyes
Mesmerizing

In my dreams
...you are
In my thoughts
...you exist

I wish
Like a dandelion
Dancing in the wind
Towards your loving embrace

We share hurt
unbearable pain
our truths are not always pretty
but we have each other

We get excited about the little detail
and absorb aches in the aftermath
of hope ... lost
often we believe love is not ours to have

But we are friends
and we love each other
no matter what
to infinity and beyond, my friend, my Werner.

The beats of my heart... still
lovingly embracing
the night sky
ember ebbs to forever


I witness the stars
as they greet
where souls meet
under a galaxy of


loving dreams
of forever

Picking up the pieces

of the rubble of our love

scattered, rotten

memories of a long time ago


You have broken me

my heart a mozaic

of shiny, broken memories

between the debris


My soul rises

to greet the gaze

of a man that

keeps me safe


I am not afraid to

love with all my heart

my soul searching his,

under a moonlit sky

In the morning light

Happy birds sing their duets

The owl sleeps and dream



A willow tree weeps for rain

The thirsty brown leaves frowning



A thunderous storm

Soaking up the desert sand

Frogs leaping in ponds

I fell in love with him
The way he looked at me
His gentle touches
Third eye kisses

Moments and memories
Destined to last forever

I fell in love with him
... slowly
Then all at once

It is when
the rain
breaks my slumber
interrupting my glittered dreams
that I remember
... to cry
for it is in that moment,
3am thoughts
and almost forgotten
memories,
that I miss you

Deep tranquil aromas
steamy mirrors
warm liquid all around
my senses come alive

fantasies of your touch
in places I soak
in this luxury
reflect

I lay back
and feel
knowing
You are right here, always!

The sun seem brighter

The icy winter

A little warmer

Our hearts, a little lighter

It's been incredibly

Difficult to allow

Any beauty in ...

It's time for me to exhale ...

I'm breathing you in

... One moment at a time

Inhale with me

The smell of blossoms

Float with me

On this beautiful

Cloud of hope,

Perhaps, even love.

I awake in the early hours

birds singing

enjoying their feast

my hands exploring your body


Naked flesh on my fingertips

perfectly dreaming

about your touch

ever abandoned


Sleepy slumber dreaming of you

in loving embrace

interrupted dreams

with morning brew


These are the moments

I look forward to

Until the day you search for

my naked body on your fingertips

I love you
from the top of my head
to ...
the tip of my toes ...

je t'aime

Floating on the wind of change
traveling through
all the seasons of the world,
it brings me back to you

A darkness I have known for so long
I sit here and know
that I will never feel again
never love again

I feel everything
I feel nothing
without you
... I am numb

Memories of your kiss
Your tender touch
Your intoxicating laughter
The way you say my name

Your high walls
Your solace
Your fears
Your beautifully thin disguise

I am fine
I am ok
...today
I say, as a tear rolls down my delicate skin

Your voice 

Your face

Your beautiful soul 

The way you say my name


Ti amo

I feel your pain
I cry with you
Just a little
While watching the sunset

Ember ebbs
Into the night
Where hearts are broken
And lovers cry

A new dawn
We renew our souls
To love...
... again, once more

Full moon between clouds
The darkness all around me
Awaiting the sun

Embrace each moment
with tender thoughts and your soul
bleeding heart on page

I blame the wind

for whispering your name,

luring me

into the intoxicating

fury of your love

Nights
oh, lonely nights
liquid comfort
the classics a backdrop of a scene

Memories of love
memories of you
I do not hide my pain
I feel it

My pain demands that,
I feel
I remember
I cry

The morning sun
a new day
and more memories
of an ancient love

Wretched memories dance
Afraid to commit my heart
Dreamlessly dazzling