through the bars of love
she longed, a caress in stars
sunrise, acquittal

Full moon between clouds
The darkness all around me
Awaiting the sun

Wretched memories dance
Afraid to commit my heart
Dreamlessly dazzling

Lonely path I walk
one set of footprints, today
you are in my soul

While I gaze at the bright moon,
the stars know my heart ache well

to have you walk here,
Surrender to the heavens
I say goodbye, now

I remember your voice
Your words linger

Like a piano
ivory keys stoking

the memory of each
straight into my heart
... and memories

I do not cry
my heartache
bleeds onto pages
I share my words with beautiful souls

I write to feel
I write to bleed
I write to remember
and often to forget

I read your poetry
to feel with you
to reflect with you
and offer my poetic embrace

I never talk to strangers
it scares me to get close to the unknown
but, then I remember
how we met ...

We have been hurt
disappointed
insensitive words
... let it go

take a deep breath
... exhale
feel what I feel
give me... all of what you feel

You are always here
keeping me warm through the night
while I pray for morn'

It's been a long time

since we connected

beautiful words, shared

you are my friend



You don't utter unkind

you push me

to a better version of me

your respect for me, I treasure



A man, not mine

but you are in my heart

my soul searched

and found you, my Yusuf, my friend.

I have to forget
I have to let go
but your touch
lingers...into the night

My 3am thoughts
In your arms
Your hands searching
Caressing my body

I have to forget
I have to let go
But your touch
...I miss

Desperate kisses
Demanding all of me
I have to let go
but I miss... your touch

Fading memories

my soul concealing

hurt from my

aching heart



I am soaring

with majestic

angels on a bright red

persian dream



In a dream

where you never leave

In a dream

where you are still holding me



Tranquil sounds...

with every key

it moves me

further away from you



Paralyzed with fear

of forgetting your beautiful face

I know I will always

feel your love

"I'm somewhere
Between your soul
And my last breath"

You find a way to
sneak in briefly, tenderly
again, fading slow

Your eyes
I see your trust
broken and shattered
I know you are hurting

Sad sad eyes
I cry with you
under the moonlight
the brightest stars

Your troubled tears
let me wipe them
A third eye kiss
passion on your dry lips

Rain pouring
no colorful rainbows
baby, let me
hold you through this hurt

Give me your
hand...
running into
the night... passionately

My lips sealed
Crying into my pillow
Eyes wide open
Into the silence of the night
An echo in the distance, faintly heard

I remain...still
My heart shattered
Aching heart
Bruises that won't heal
Finality...Finally

The night's silence
chirping birds not yet in slumber
reminding me,
I am not alone.

Painfully remembering
Your loving embrace
my heart aches
Once again,

The day you said
your final teary goodbye
My tears won't dry
Take my beautiful memories with you

Scattered reminders
All around me
My tears won't dry
Take my beautiful memories with you

Empty bottles
Lonely sunsets
my tears won't dry
Take my beautiful memories with you

Standing at your final
Resting place
Weeping weeping weeping
You are gone...Forever, my love!

I woke up this morning

with the sun in my view

birds singing a happy greeting

flowers smiling as I tickle their petals with drizzly drops


But my heart is heavy

my tears are flowing

another day

colorful accessories covering my grey memories of you


Driving, as I do every morning

coffee at the office and the usual

small talk

back in my space, alone behind a closed door to the world outside,


allowing my emotions to flow

onto this page

it is the only way

I would cope through this day, my tears frozen, for now

Connected vibes
our souls dancing
our hearts paused
our lips locked

Forever is what we
dream about
Forever
oh, forever... my love

Spinning out of control
all day, baby
from dusk to
a beautiful sunset... my love

You are my dusk till dawn
to you I am drawn
Your voice plays like an orchestra
I dance to the tone
Of never being alone

You say I love you baby
oh, but I love you too

This is our love
This is ours to keep....

Tell me all the
things you will
never say
out loud

Whisper your secrets
into the deepest
part of my soul
I'll keep them safe

Unspoken chemistry
Infinite attention
Unconditional trust
from my soul to yours

My heart

frozen in snow

the chill of winter

will remain on these lonely days


I remember

our first kiss

your lips

was made for mine


We use to lay

entwined for hours

forgetting that our hearts

was ever broken


Everyone tells me

to let you go

finally, be free

of missing your touch


But they don't know

how I miss you

how much I need you

even though I know, I should not


We have tried

so many times

perhaps,

we didn't give it our all

You mean the world to me... remember that,

and keep my words

safely tucked into your

beautiful heart

                          ... forever

Share all the love
within your soul.
one day,
it will find
its way
into your broken heart
... and stay.

Afternoon naps
Blossoms in Spring
Cuddles on the couch
Drives into the countryside (I’ll navigate)
Exploring your body
Forgiving you for being silly
Giving you a love note
Having you by my side
Impressing you with my salsa dance (yeah)
Just holding you
Kissing in the rain (let’s get wet)
Loving you
Morning kisses
Needing more kisses
Oh, you are amazing, AF
Picnics in the park
Q & A’s
Reading poetry together
Sushi platter for two
Tickling your feet
Unlimited conversations with you
Van Gogh paintings
Walking hand in hand
****** midnights with you
Yes, kiss me
Zzzzzzzz’s… sweet dreams my love

Years ago
...Until now
Hurtful words
In between

The day we met
you...
dressed in all blue
I should have known

Blue
A window to your soul
Loss and pain
Unexpected bond

My mouthy thoughts
Many nights of anger
Your frustration
yet, forgiven for it all

I think of you daily
and in the darkest night
Beautiful sunny skies
Magnificent hues at dawn

I pray
I wish
I dream
I believe

Years ago
...Until now
I vow
to hold you close forever

My heart aching

my mind racing

I know you need me

you can't see me


I am here

every step of the way

you are not alone

I hold your hand


you will never walk alone

I don't care how

but you will know

you will feel me...

...right here

Waves washing away
The whispers from my soul
My heart breaking

Drowning all emotions
Wrapping my thoughts with a pretty bow
Willingly letting go
Of all of you

In my solace
I reflect
A glorious
New day

my morning dew
dandelions wishing
sunflowers smiling
raindrops dancing

All of you
All of me

a beautiful symphony
the most beautiful sounds
the prettiest rainbow
colours...bright lights

dancing to our heartbeats
one step at a time
sliding across
only us

Forever dancing
Forever in love

It is late and all is silent
The summer night has closed in...
A solitary whiskey to ruminate
on the world... I love you.

Three simple words that encompass
the universe and all its beautiful mysteries.

I love you,
Your soul is with mine, as you sleep,
Like strange incense, they wisp and play.

Our souls know more than
they will reveal...

I love you
The only certainty, my only truth
I love you

I carried you
for 9 months
In the safe confines
of my body

I sang to you
I played the classics for you
I read poetry
It was utter excitement

The waiting was torturous
could not wait to see
Your precious face
and touch your little toes

The day, finally arrived
pain, indescribable
Joyous tears
I was to be a new mommy

But here I sit today
remembering...
you didn't cry
But died

I held your lifeless body
my hands shaking
my heart shattered
you were gone

All these years later
On this day
I still remember
Your birthday

I celebrate your soul
for I know
God had better plans
The answers I may never know...

All I know
On this day, 22years later
I still remember how
Time stopped... briefly

R.I.P my little boy, always in my heart.

Somewhere between
the wind and
the rain
we missed the
beautiful rainbow

Show me
all the parts of you
that's not so pretty
your story, your truth

Allow me to share in
all your beautiful scars
even those,
... hidden

Love
in it's truest form
sees no colour
Love is love

Love
feels deeply
it is always kind
Love is love

Love
dances with hearts
breathes through souls
Love is love

Love
to the end of a love
to a final chapter on two hearts
Love is love

A collage of
colorful memories
turns to
tearful cheeks

If this love is a fire

I will burn

I will walk

I will dance this fire dance



Eyes gazing

holding a

a river of emotions

we have been denied for an eternity



The blood burning in my veins

My emerald view, glowing

You look at me, and I know

I will risk my heart, once more

The parts you won't

or can't show to anyone...

I see your scars

I see you


and it's ridiculously

precious  and beautiful

that you trust me

I see you

Do you want the sensual,

the confident and the *** appeal?

A woman who knows exactly

what kind of reaction she will illicit?

A woman who knows

her body,

her strengths

and her weaknesses

Who knows her body is aging

every single moment lost

Who knows that without a doubt

she has to up her game.

Days are busy

and all we really want to do

is be comfortable and relax

in oversized T's and no restraint of a bra.

An evening reading and sipping on wine or, an evening

in a glitzy restaurant with crisp white linen,

flutes of champagne

and fine dining.

Some would simply opt

for the cosy

fireplace evenings,

I certainly do!

In a world where time is money,

we often think that

without money spent,

we cannot enjoy an evening.

But it is in my moments of solace

that I reflect and know without a doubt

the cozy evenings are where real emotion

and memories are treasured.

The stars fading now
The moon a dull light
The breeze, icy cold
Time frozen on this darkest night

I smile at the faded
once colorful polaroid
while my tears
splash on my cheeks

Your arms holding me,
The memory keeps
me safe,
for tonight

Midnight laughter
turned to tears
into my pillow
a lonely body, once held

My soul weeps
begging to rest
while my aching heart
confesses to the Gods,

In my slumber...
running in the morning sun,
beautiful butterflies
dancing on petals yellow and pink

A light drizzle
a symphony,
designed for lovers
embracing into a dance

Birds chirping their morning greetings
I wake to a new, bright sunny day
and smile at the beauty around me
turning the pages of a forgotten, dark night...

Small steps
Towards what
I needed
To hear

Leaps towards
What I
Wanted to
Feel again

But it
Was the
One step
Backwards, quickly

That saved
Me from
Being hurt
Once again

A feeling
A spark
A fire
Blazing in the dark

Screaming your name
In the lonely midnight hour
Nothing will ever be the same
Our souls searching in vain

As the day bleeds
Into night
I lose sight
Of all my needs

Laying in the tub
Oh, how I need a rub

Just your one finger
I am begging you to linger

Feel my need for you
Look at your view

Kiss my lips gently
My hips move elegantly

My juices want to escape my body
I am beautifully greedy

Pause
Still
Breathe
Gasp

I beg for you
Your **** needs to spew

I stand
Facing the taps
Gripping
With both hands

A ******
Deep
Deeper

The deepest part of me
I am soaked and creamy

Brutal truths
... heard and felt
without any
pretty words


I have tried
and failed
One day, you will need to read the
filed memories
and absorb all my pain

Breathing on your skin
your body my canvas
with every brush of
my rosy lips,
the sound of
my voice,
a melody of my
... love
a never ending
... passion
for you ...

We all make mistakes
no such thing as big or small
they are all lessons
big, valuable lessons

We pick up the pieces
little by little
often, dragging them along
for decades

A river of thoughts
frozen emotion
icy tears
brutal scars

Our 3am
...thoughts
our only...
...companion

...words
unspoken...

Petals dry and withered
The once pastel blush, now pale
Given up your thirst for rain
... you fall
Petal after
Once, beautiful petal

Today,
I write about you,
antique words just pour out of me
I think of you
and my romantic heart holds love

I still feel your passionate kisses
trailing my body
your arms around me
embracing, our beautiful connection.

In my lonely hour,
my heart aches for
your touch
your soft whispers

My soul
consoling my broken heart
with memories of
your butterfly kisses

when morning comes
I am lovingly reminded
there is beauty and comfort
in a new day