Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
thoughts to dump Feb 2018
is it okay
for you
not to
see
me
anymore?

is it okay
for you
not to
hear
my voice
anymore?

is it okay
for you
not to
see me
trying
to be
the best
for you?

is it okay
for you
if i'll
stop nagging
and being jealous?

is it okay
for you
if i don't
say sorry
anymore?

is it okay
for you
if i'll just stop
being like me?
thoughts to dump Dec 2017
one, two, three
there's only you and me
and we will never part
four, five, six
i'll promise you this
to love you with all of my heart
seven, eight, nine
i am yours, you are mine
let's not forget how we did start
ten to the nth
you are my Keneth
my one and only, my love,
my sweetheart
happy 3rd baby <3
thoughts to dump Jul 2015
Remind me (again) of youth
Share (again) with me freedom
Come, let's play
Or just take me, take me (back)
To where we don't need to talk
About the big, big things
And the future.
3am
thoughts to dump Jun 2021
3am
that wasn't internet love
we weren't lovers
we could never be
we just talk over the encrypted airwaves
like chatty strangers meeting for the first time
at the grocery line
i'm always the one who tends to overshare
you always listen to all of my rants and woes
at 3am in sync with the echoing cuckoos
i know all of my telltales were like how songs
are played on repeat by a teenage avid fanatic
and by that you might just think i'm kinda lunatic
but i'm just a sad, sad girl
in need of a vent buddy
a friend, someone who never leaves
and you were there to fill up the role as what it seems
like a hero, a knight in shining armor
so i'm sending a million thanks, you've served my favor
and i hope you're doing great, wishing you all the best
oh God, how grateful i am that you exist
thank you for plugging in and staying up until 3am.
i sleep early now
thoughts to dump Aug 2022
my mind has been
wandering lately
creating love stories
with every
hahaha
you sent me
lalalove me
thoughts to dump Jul 2014
He’s been living in the big city
But just a small town girl, I always will be,
And I've been dreaming lately
That I could set foot
On that same wide streets
He’s been crossing everyday.

He’s been living in the big city
But a small town girl, I always will be,
And I've been looking at the night sky lately
Wishing he’s seeing
These same stars
I've been trying to count everyday.

He’s been living in the big city
But just a small town girl, I always will be,
And I've been thinking about lately
Not sooner or later,
I’ll be moving my dreams to the big city
Witness them come to reality
As we walk hand in hand
Along the fragile line of hope bravely.
thoughts to dump Jun 2021
healing is listening to the heavy downpour of rain
on a saturday evening
when you let yourself travel through your thoughts
dropping everything that's been so heavy
for the past few months.
taking the baby steps
thoughts to dump Feb 2022
We deserve healing,
The kind of healing that cures
Our deepest, hidden, past sorrows;
We deserve relief,
The kind of relief that sets
Us stable and tranquil;
We deserve peace,
The kind of peace that keeps
Us safe from the wars outside;
We deserve warmth,
The kind of warmth that eases
Our troubled minds and heart;
We deserve love,
The kind of love that feels
Home, a sanctuary.
We deserve happiness
We deserve to be treated so right
We deserve a soft landing
We deserve assurance;
We deserve to watch every sunset
And never doubt its glow,
We deserve to wish upon every shooting star
And believe that wishes always do come true,
We deserve this safe space between us
We deserve everything
My love, we deserve each other.
2/22/22
thoughts to dump Nov 2022
is it me or my anxiety?
althrough the days and nights
i've been trying to keep my sanity
but anytime now
i'm gonna burst and pop
like a balloon if no one will stop me
thoughts to dump Oct 2013
You gradually licked the little stain of her strawberry flavored lip gloss
left on your lip line as you start shaving off your goatee.

You could still feel the pressure from her chest when she threw
her arms around you one cold night.

You dazed yourself with the smell of her flirtatious scented perfume
when you bit her neck from side to side.

You imagined the perfect curves of her hips as you try to draw
her figure on the mirror. But you heaved a deep sigh.

Alas! You could have married her. And then,
you went inside your bathroom door.
thoughts to dump Nov 2014
Just tell me
   that you want
   to marry me
   only when you're
   really ready.

Not now,
   when both of us
   are still twenty
   young, and
   supposedly free.
But I've been so much longing to hear those words from you a long time ago. You're the king, I'm your queen.
thoughts to dump Apr 2015
I like secrets;
Secret friendships,
Secret relationships,
And secret songs
From secret playlists.

I am a secret,
Just waiting
To be discovered.
#secret #life #introvert
thoughts to dump Nov 2014
I picked you up
        when she locked you out.

For once I thought
         we were so high in love,
         I was your princess
         and you were my prince.
        
But all of a sudden,
        it came to my senses
        that you were still not over
        with a love within you
        that was long ago existed.

I was left with no choice
        but to endure the pain
        because a love like that
        is something I couldn't
        compete with.

And now, you locked me out
        I'm nowhere to be picked in.
My Casanova prince is gone. He left me behind, shivering in the storm. I'm yearning for his warm touch but people like me are gone forever when someone says goodbye.
thoughts to dump Aug 2015
Is the world I carry with me.
At the back of my head,
Are these words I play back and forth.
At my back,
Is a child who's always
Fond of furs and cats,
Afraid of thunder and ghosts;
And there in front of me,
Is a lady perfecting
How to become a woman,
Waiting for the right man.
To what generation do you belong?
What do you long to do?
thoughts to dump Sep 2021
i don’t think
i should grieve
over the ghosts
that lurked through
my whereabouts
when i used to
pass by their graves,
with names carved
soullessly,
coward,
born in july,
cancer vibes,
screaming impermanence
because
they should remain
as what they were,
the ghosts that
drifted without a might
like how august
slipped away
into a moment in time.
august slipped away into a moment in time
thoughts to dump Aug 2015
I have no idea
what life is.
I'm already
running
down
on
routines.
#life
thoughts to dump Sep 2014
To move or not to
On and off
One year or two
A part of me
Still yearns for you
But I can't quite tell
Why is this so.
thoughts to dump Aug 2015
W a i t !

The best of me
  is yet to come
  or maybe,
  just maybe
  it's hidden under these
  g a r m e n t s

        *or

        six
        feet


  under the ground.
And if I'm bound to be forgotten then I'd rather stop making memories than wait for nothing. Then, I'd pull the trigger. Maybe. Not yet tonight. So, I think I'd still wait because the best is yet to come.
thoughts to dump Jul 2013
The gloomy days of April are gone;
Here I am humming to this old lullaby,
Heading for home alone, hoping to see you soon.

It was half past seven.
It was something unexpected.
You waited for me under the moonlit;
Side by side we begin walking down the one-way street.

Slowly we stride along the outskirts if this empty town
I stopped my humming
I heard nothing but silence,
And felt nothing but loneliness.
I took a glimpse of you
And realized you were looking at me for a minute or two
Then suddenly, you grabbed my left hand,
wrapped it around yours and flaunted a smile at me.

It was like the stars are falling down on the soft earth;
I was tongue-tied, dumbfounded as it seems.
There was something in your eyes,
It tells me this one thing I’ve been so much longing to hear.

As the cool blows of these evening May winds
creep over my shaking hands and feet,
Your warmth seems to give me this soothing feeling
which brought me back to that early morning scene.

While riding on the first early train,
A vivid picture in the clear blue sky I’m seeing.
I was sound asleep like the sleeping princess in fairy tales
And you were the prince who stooped down to kiss my lips.
I know that was a sign that today will be a marvelous day.

Almost everyone started leaving
But please don’t you leave me alone
Because I’ll be needing you everyday..

You’re the only one who gets me.
Make me fall in love over and over again
Make my heart float into the thin air.

But I know, a lot of things could still be happening.
It’s hard to tell if now is forever
Now is something I don’t know;
Now is something I didn't foresee to be real.

We are walking in this road called forever;
But, what if the thunders will roar and the rains will pour?
And we can’t look for a place to hide
because it’s impossible in the nick of time..

I’m going to ask you one question in mind..
Will you stand with me in the pouring rain?
Or will you just leave me and have to run away?

I know there’s no point in asking..
Because the answer lies between now and forever.
And I was left in the pouring rain..
I just found the answer between now and forever.
thoughts to dump Mar 2021
Introduce me to all of your demons
Maybe they were once my acquaintances
Let me know of the bad news first
Then nevermind the good ones
Break my heart
Rip off all what's left
And don't ever try to mend it
Take everything that you'll find
I won't ask for anything in return
Because I'm okay with it
Wound what's almost healed
Let it bleed
Let me bleed for you
Leave a scar
And become my permanent mark.
you drew stars around my scars but now i'm bleeding
thoughts to dump Oct 2022
we were robbers
of each other's
time and space,
and at random hours
you still invade my senses
snow on the beach
thoughts to dump Aug 2013
I was that song you used to play in repetition
from your usual playlist with your headphones on
as you tap the edge of your study table to the beat
but you don't do it now because you think
the act is as stupid since the melody is already
old school to your eardrums and you're now
following a new genre.
thoughts to dump Aug 2014
In the dark where we try to hide
   all of the pain of the past.
Under the moonlight where we pretend
   to fall in love skin deep.
And all I’m seeing is his silhouette
   as his lips touched mine.
I want to know how it does
   feel to be wrapped around my arms
   and hear my breathing and whispers.
thoughts to dump Jul 2021
you held her like champagne glass
interpolated her with fake intentions
just as how you strategically poured in
your favorite drink not as close to the brink
you knew that every element of her
is delicate, fragile and vulnerable
same as the glass’ gleaming curves,
your face reflected on its surface
just as how you were mirrored
indulging in her caress
from your nape down to your
broad in denial shoulders,
and then you took a sip
took another, enjoyed every moment of it
like how your tongue played with her lips
silenced her mouth while her ears paid attention
to the sound of your breath;
it always tasted sweet,
day by day you craved for it
but suddenly everything turned sour
her heart that was glass
you just dropped without warning
fragments of her were scattered on the cold floor
like trash laying down, abandoned, abhorred
you asked yourself
should you clean up the mess you’ve made?
one step forward, three steps back
you’re indecisive
back and forth like the swaying pendulum
but you just barged out and never took a glance back
left her in broken pieces
wished you could pick them up even if it means
you’ll cut yourself from the shards and make you bleed
because once in a while she used to let herself wound
what's almost been healed,
let those thorns from your numb heart
pricked her again and again
and bled for you, nevertheless, until the end.
i get defensive and insecure, my own worst critic behind the closing door
thoughts to dump May 2021
i crave for you like coffee
i want you creamy, sweetened
but i’d still like you black, bitter
awaken me with your aroma
let me take a sip of your innocence;

but,

i want you more than caffeine
i want to feel you in my veins
and, i think you could be my serotonin
stabilize my mood and my well-being
keep me in your sight, keep me sane.
dozed off
thoughts to dump May 2014
I was more
than that
of a black hole
before your eyes,
five years ago.

But today,
you brought me
out from nothingness.

I’m shining
like Polaris,
watching over you
as you sail
through
rough seas.
thoughts to dump Oct 2021
why don't we give
the best for ourselves?
why don't we put
the silver spoon
in our own mouths
and then live
the ******* life
we ever wanted?
why don't we make it a daily habit to love ourselves?
thoughts to dump May 2022
Dave and Megan:
If the world was ending right in front of my eyes,
And you weren’t there by my side
I don’t know what afterlife could mean
I don’t even know if there is such to begin..

Dave:
I used to pray a lot to the angels and Jesus,
That if I fall in love for the first time in a long time
She should be the one that would make me feel,
Carefree and alive
And then she came at the most unexpected moment
My miracle, my answered prayer.

Megan:
I didn’t know if it was an answered prayer
Or am I just being saved from despair
I used to not to believe in commitments
Because there is a part of me
That hesitates and scares
Trust issues, here and there they exist
But he tried to understand and made me feel home and safe.

Both:
As both of us grew alongside with the twists and blues
The ups and downs we battled through
10 years, an amazing journey
Our love was tested but we
Emerged with victory
Because for us
To love is to decide..

Love is a decision
Falling in love is easy
But staying in love is what
Makes the ride topsy-turvy
As the days pass by
Weeks grow into months
And years went on by and by
When it’s not anymore the
Best foot forward
When euphoria has consumed
All the unbearable fleeting feelings inside
To decide to stay with the person
You choose to commit to
Is what makes love a reality
A lifetime conviction.

If the world was ending right in front of my eyes,
You should be here by my side
You and I, we’ll travel to the afterlife
And nothing can ever tear us apart.
Love is a decision
thoughts to dump Jul 2022
and once again, my heart skips a beat
daydreaming, my eyes sparkle
red flush, my cheeks contoured
i'm not usually like this, my brain fogs
am i too exposed? my second thoughts
nevermind, i just hope you knew.
all those other girls well they're beautiful but would they write a poem for you
thoughts to dump Dec 2017
at least we'll try, try, try
to make everything alright
you and i
together, forever
we'll shine brightly up high
like the stars in the night sky
and sing each Christmas carol
with the happiest of souls
you're Santa's best present
the sweetest kiss
under the mistletoe
the glittery flakes
of the snow
the prettiest sparks
in a fireworks show
and everyday is merry
because you are here with me
thoughts to dump May 2021
i was awakened by a dream
i never wanted to be in
a nightmare, as what it seemed
you were there, waiting for me
hoping i might give in
because it's been a week
since the last time you called me
i ignored you, i guess that's what you deserved;
in that dream,
you were ****** by a tornado
a catastrophic occurrence
that symbolized the damage you did
now look at you,
look at the mess you’ve made
my wretched heart, trying to escape
the misery you created,
but seeing you in despair
i cried and cried
till the whirling monster freed you;
then, i ran to you,
i ran back to all the pain i've already endured,
let the thorns from your numb heart
hit me once again,
i ran back to you.

i want to run back to you.
toxic
thoughts to dump Dec 2014
You know me,
    I know you.

I've tasted your breath,
you've drunk my soul.

Every now and then,
we drown ourselves
to an ocean of thrills
and sorrows.

You're surrounded by many,
I keep on second-guessing
with whom forever
you are going to stay.

You know me
and the things
I've told you about me.

I know you
and the things
that we always do.

But, how could
I ever tell you
that I don't want
you to go.
thoughts to dump Jul 2022
maybe my mind got a little bit lost
on that night our paths first crossed
the spirit of tequila stirred my inertia
and sent me into a different level
of adrenaline-filled stamina
you took me to the dance floor
our hips swayed back and forth
you held me like an expert
gracefully, swirling around
trailing the colorful lights
and exciting sounds,
shining, shimmering
like a dainty disco ball
first encounter
thoughts to dump May 2014
My lips wandered
In search for a quencher
To this selfish shameful thirst
But it couldn't get anywhere
Because it realized then
Where it must only belong to,
To that future.
thoughts to dump Oct 2021
we used to meet
in front of the mall
when the sun goes down
and i don't miss home;
small talks,
good when it lasted;
best-laid plans,
i suppose;
the sunsets now
are so much better.
thoughts to dump Apr 2016
Woman,
Don't cry over boys
Who tend to blame
You for their misfortune.

Woman,
Don't quarrel with girls
Who try to insult and accuse
You for stealing their boys.

Woman,
They are just boys
And they are just girls
Trying to be nice and cute
Then throw at you
Words such so and so.

Woman,
Be strong
Be firm
And dont let your emotions
Cloud your judgment.
thoughts to dump Aug 2014
She envied the way
He talked to the saleslady
Asking her for a pack
Trying to charm her in every way.

She loathed the way
He used to puff smoke from his mouth
Smiling at the passers-by
In front of the hallway.

She hid his ashtray
In the bottom of the top drawer
He searched for it
From corner to corner.

She went away
Carrying her suitcase
Never left a word
When she knew
He had found the ashtray.

She’s gone for a week,
But three knocks came
From the front door
He thought it was her
But it was never.

She wrote him a letter,
The mailman said
Handed it to him
Along with an urn.

She said in the letter
She breathed
Every smoke he blew
And now,
She turned into
Like that powder in gray
On the ashtray.
thoughts to dump May 2022
and in every person
that we meet
is a different multiverse..
i love you in every multiverse
thoughts to dump Aug 2015
And, it all turned out you were just the dirt on his glass window that he needed to wipe off because he wanted to get a clear view of that humming bird which kept on hovering around.
thoughts to dump Jul 2013
The depths of my despair are gradually fading away.
My downfall, my shortcomings, I've familiarized them already.
Any wise words could never ever blow a gun on me,
Preach to me not, nothing would matter really.

It was like a century of pure sentiments;
You will be haunted of my innocence and silence.
Discontentment will creep back to you as if it were a consequence
Run to your hideouts now and bid farewell to your merriment.

Shuffling yesterdays and tomorrows that may fall into a fusion;
Have you pore over yourself and have your own evaluation?
Oh! My dear old friend, I guess you haven’t.. it’s just safe not to mention.
And for a conclusion, that’s why you've made that quick decision.

Well said, well done and my emotions enslaved me for an instance,
An avalanche of good and bad memories flashes back without any nuance
But, fearless, I am this time and ready to embrace acceptance;
Rejection and motivation that is definitely a balance.

A blue sky, I’ll paint and maybe world peace, I’ll create,
You will soon notice me like fireworks with just a free spirit
Midst conflicting egos before anyone could speculate,
I’ll leave my mark, a highlight, and that is how I’ll operate.
thoughts to dump Sep 2015
You keep my thoughts running,
Making me want to crave for more.
We are eternal,
You are rainbow to my rain.
We are a sad story,
You are thunder to my lighting.
thoughts to dump Jul 2015
You understand now
why he likes her so much
because she is pretty
and she talks so sweet
while you
on the other hand
only talks so loud
in words
that he can never touch.*

He has made her princess
in his gray strokes,
in his small town
while you
on the other hand
have been making him
a warrior
in all of your poetry,
in your world,
in your universe.
"London Bridge is broken down
Broken down, broken down
London bridge is broken down
My fair lady.

Set a man to watch all night,
Watch all night, watch all night,
Set a man to watch all night,
My fair lady."
thoughts to dump Apr 2022
maybe i was wrong
when i believed
that it should age
like a fine wine
because sometimes,
it's only good
when it started.
thoughts to dump Jul 2018
a year ago
you came to my world
and now it's yours too
first sight you loved me in secret
while i stole moments
looking at how you fold
the sleeves of your white shirt
dazzling me with your glasses
and your dark wavy hair
so then we noticed
we started quick glances
had conversations
if had grabbed chances
with words one or two
which were slowly turning to
i love you's
ten months
an amazing journey with you
the ups and downs
we battled through
the distance of the here and there
we don't mind and fear
so do hear this in echoes
you are my one and only
i will always love you
happy 10th baby <3
thoughts to dump Jul 2014
Pack me along
With all of your belongings
And gently place me
In the most desirable area
Of your newly bought suitcase
Because I want to come with you
In your upcoming trip
But if you won't,
Then I'll be patiently waiting
Inside your closet
Like the way
Your not-so-favorite shirt waits
Until you pick it up
To match with your jeans.
#suitcase #trip #leaving
thoughts to dump Oct 2022
and one by one
i tore these petals
he loves me,
he loves me not
then side by side
i weigh the priorities
this isn't right
he shouldn't be
crossing off of my mind
because like a sharpened knife
he pierces through my heart
and makes me bleed
every day, every night
thoughts to dump Oct 2021
there has to be no pattern,
there's no need to
practice a routine,
just let the cold breeze
seep through your skin,
carry away the
strands of your hair;
there only has to be
freedom from within.
run free
thoughts to dump Sep 2021
Knowing you was releasing the skeletons in my closet,
Every laugh that we exchanged were unscripted;
Right by your side, my feet laid comfortably beneath the passenger seat,
Busy streets, nobody knew what we did under the busy lights
Your face in front of mine, your tattoos i could still remember what they exactly looked like.
you don't deserve this but i still wrote about you; time started 6:34 pm finished 6:49 pm
thoughts to dump Jul 2013
I've been strolling for an hour along the outskirts of this sad empty town. My stomach grumbled upon the smell of the hot sweet corn cob sold at the nearby park. I hadn't eaten breakfast.

I see a lot of people at the park. There are street sweepers, lovers, and children. I stare directly into their eyes and they signify a common thing. But I can’t seem to describe it immediately. All I know is that I know they weren't happy.

One little girl playing a ball with her brother caught my attention. I always see them here. I know they are happy. They are laughing. The boy tosses the ball into the air then the girl catches it. Sometimes, she runs after it when she misses a toss. Then suddenly, the ball came rolling from her. She had a hard time chasing it. So I run after the ball and luckily I made it stop by blocking it with my body before it can completely reach the street. I’m also afraid the girl might get hit by any passing vehicle.
 
I guess that was a great leap. But I wasn't hurt at all.

Then the little girl picked up the ball and went back to playing. I was still there on that spot where I made the ball stop. I look around to see what the others are doing.

To my surprise, the little girl suddenly came near to me. She smiled, and then chuckled. Her cheeks were turning red as she gradually patted my head. Then the boy took something from their picnic box and later joined us. He gave me a half-eaten sandwich. I heartily ate it. My hunger was then satisfied. I barked twice as a sign of thanking those kids.

“Good!” the boy said as he was touching my back too.

I thought I would be having playmates this time. But the kids have to leave soon since it’s already lunch time. Their mom might be waiting for them.

Then they left. And I was left there at that park where I usually stay during day time. I see different people come and go.

I remembered one time when I met *****. She was so cheerful. We were playing for a couple of hours and soon she needs to go.

The next day, I wake up to the loud voices coming from business people having conversation about investments and sales. I hardly understand a thing about their talk. But I know they were arguing about big amounts of money. I know about money. They are pieces of paper and small circular objects which strollers used to buy food in the park.

Since I have no idea what those two people are dealing with, I just hopped and landed to the ground and ran away from that bench which they were situated.

Why do people keep on arguing about big complex things? This is a question which I can’t seem to answer. I have been living a simple life. My daily routines have never been changed since the day I made this park my home.

As I was running away, I bumped into someone. He was a frail old man with a wooden cane in his left arm. Our slight collision almost made him trip and fall to the ground. But he kept his balance, probably because of that cane which aids him in walking. I too kept my balance. Then, the old man stooped to sit down on the humid grassy ground. I was just there in front of him.
 
“You, little one,” he whispered in a monotone.

I was feeling a little bit of excitement upon being with this man for some moments. He talked a lot about his son named Abe who was taken away from him by the government because he can’t afford to sustain his needs. His wife too met another man while working abroad.

An hour has passed. A little girl suddenly came running near to us. She was Ashley, as what the old man introduced to me. I thought I’d be having companions for today but Ashley only came to fetch the old man because she was looking for him since yesterday. And soon, they left.

It’s always like this. I get to meet someone or some other people but then after a short moment of having enjoyed their companies, they would then leave. I know they have their own homes and lives to attend to. And they wouldn't be wasting their time to some ordinary being like me.

I wished of leaving the park, move to some other place and maybe hope that someone would like me and bring me home. But I guess there would be no one. And I, would always be that same hopeful park dog.
thoughts to dump May 2021
i know what you like
girls with their backbones shown off
curves trailed in their silhouettes, perfect
tops cropped, bottoms stripped
cherry lips, glass skin, white as porcelain
a sight you always imagine;

but,

i wish you would also like
girls with their bare faces in the mirror
curves scribbled with their pens as thoughts deepen
tees vintaged, bottoms unstripped
chapped lips, scarred skin, mosaic heartbreaks
a sight that also sees you beyond and between.
good girls hopeful they'll be and lonely they'll wait
Next page