Don’t throw away the poems the poems I write
I know they won’t matter. Not after tonight
Maybe for a little while, rereading them will hurt.
But eventually, my words will be meaningful as dirt
You won’t even hear my voice whispering each word
In your head. It'll be some other voice that is heard
Don’t throw them away okay? Don’t throw away me
Don't throw away all that we used to be.

Do you remember that night under the stars and moon,
such a great time, but it ended far too soon.
Cause I remember that kiss, short, soft and sweet,
with the prettiest girl, that I ever did meet.

Do you remember how, it all came to an end,
cause I'm struggling here, just to be your friend.
You were mine, I was yours, I didn't need more
But now she's gone, that sweet girl I adore.

I know you left and that was your choice
but may I just ask, do you still hear my voice?
When you read all my poems through
is it my voice reading them to you?
Are my words in your head
or to you are my words dead?

How long has it been, since you really loved me?
Do you even care about what we used to be?
About the days spent, talking of tomorrows?
Before you left me, to drown in my sorrows...

I want you to know, that I still love you
But soon you'll hear my name, and just reply "Who?"
I'll fade from your memory, your hopes and your dreams
And that's what you want, or at least so it seems.

I know I mean nothing, to you any more
But I want you to know, it's still you I adore
I remember your smile, and your beautiful eyes
When you said that you love me, although those were lies.

Another long night, another long week
For how many hours, will things look so bleak?
I'm sorry my love, I'm sorry my dear
I've done something wrong, at least so I fear
Don't talk to me, fine, but I'll miss you
Each and every second, whatever I do

Either I'll love you forever, or one day I won't
and I'm not sure which option, scares me the most.
Forever feeling, the pain of losing you,
or that one day, your Ade, might just be a ghost.

Endless possibilities, I won't be controlled,
no such thing as fate, don't trust the lies I've been told.
Mind over matter I'll get what I want,
destroy destiny and it leave so gaunt.
I won't bow to the whim of the past,
I'll make my own future, forever to last.

I don't have any words, no not any more,
there's some guy I can't stand with the girl I adore,
she's ignoring my messages because now she has him,
she doesn't need me any more, I was cast out on a whim.
So here here it is, another poem, because I don't know what to do,
Could you please just tell me, why I'm not enough for you.

"Eppur si muove."
"And yet it moves."
The truth's the truth,
regardless who approves.

There no way to win, a war you're not waging,
so I'll channel this fire, that inside me is raging.
Yet I won't let it change me, my honour I'll uphold,
and let never be said, when my story is told,
that I did the wrong thing, to fulfill my desire,
even if saying I got it, would make me a liar.

I don't know exactly why, or how
All I know, is you hate me now

Every 'I love you', every kiss
every moment of pure bliss
Ever dream, every blush
every smile, every touch

All of it means nothing now
I'd forget you but, I don't know how.
So I won't, but I hope you do
Even though, I still love you

My soul's as empty as your eyes
that night we said our last goodbyes
I can't feel a thing, because I refuse to
and you don't even care now do you?
But still I sit and think and write
and dream of you, every single night.

Radiant, beautiful, orbs of grey,
one look infinitely, brightened my day.
Strands of red-gold, falling flawlessly
my mind dreaming, wildly, lawlessly.
A sound I hadn't heard in too long,
that confused my heart, spawning this song.

Everything hurts, and I want to die,
I don’t understand, why we even try.
There is no point, no light, no hope,
Just this endless downhill *****,
From perfection to this untold pain,
Yet I always let it, it happen again

Every villain is a hero, in their own mind.
Every monster, is just normal, to their own kind.
The monster in the dungeon, well they live there.
But when I am who I am, you all stare.
To become a villain, I just did what was best,
then let you all know that, and you did the rest/

Fake a smile, 'life is great'
I'm totally not, full of hate
For how much I've failed, how much I've lost
I fell in love, I guess this is the cost.

So I fake a smile, pretend I'm fine
Stop thinking about, when you were mine
and I was happy, and I had you
with your **** laugh, and eyes so blue...

But now I sit, and think of us
And work out how my life adjusts
To lack of love, of angels, of you
I've no idea what I'm going to do

Writing has always, been my calling,
and writing is but the act of falling.
Falling in love, or falling apart,
curse my ever, falling heart.

I want to show you the words I write,
whisper them softly to you at night.
But you're too far away and the words aren't good enough
My reply is always 'nothing' and you don't care to call my bluff.

Far away with other people, in a place I just don't know
Far away beyond where I am, beyond the hills and snow
But I've a blade of ice and heart stone
so I can handle this being alone

Yet remember when you laid your head,
in my lap and on my bed?
Remember the smiles of our first date?
Why haven't I felt that as of late?

Time is a really killer, and yeah so is distance too
far two long are both, separating me and you
Now I know I'm not supposed to care,
but I still see your smile everywhere

In my dreams, when my eyes are closed
but I hide it and keep composed.
Far too long since I've seen your face
and even longer, since I made your heart race.

I finally found the words, but I found them far too late,
I guess I can't avoid, that cruel, cruel thing called fate.
I've wanted to tell you for longer than I can recall,
But now I've missed my chance, I can't tell you it at all.
So I'll scream into my pillow, scream till my face is blue,
Screaming all the words, I wish I could be whispering to you.
But it's too late, I messed up, missed my chance,
No more future for the two of us, but at least we had that dance.

This song reminds me of her voice,
funny how, she was always my choice,
until the day that I met you,
and silly me, didn't have a clue,
that you would make me feel this way,
and it breaks my heart that feelings don't stay,
because though you once though I was great,
you haven't cared as of late,
and that'd be fine it'd be all cool,
if I wasn't stuck here like a love-sick fool.

Kisses stolen
I love yous whispered
Listening to the beat of your heart
Laying beside you, in my bed

Memories, of things now gone
Everything's okay though.
!

The fire laps, at my willing skin,
as I wait for my ending, to begin,
the heat it sears, and skin turns black,
as I hope this time, I won't come back,
but then water runs, along my arm,
this was just another, pointless harm,
yet I am glad, for harms distract,
and I need time, to recompose my act.

The fire burns, life-giving and warm
But I prefer the all destroying storm.
Sure fire reveals with a burning red light,
but all is hidden by a stormy grey night.
Fire breaths light into a lifeless earth
and people crowd round a nice warm hearth,
but the storm covers the tracks left in the snow
and leaves the wolf cub free to go.

She'll love you forever,
but I think that you'll find,
Forever just means,
till she changes her mind.

So don't waste a moment,
make the most of each day,
I know love is fleeting,
but you should love anyway.

I looked at the water as I sat on the sand
There in the place where I once held your hand.
I thought about you, and I made my choice
And in my head I heard your voice
You spoke of the things that we once had
But now that you are gone I am going mad.
What happened to that future with you and me?
What happened to all the things we were meant to be?
What happened to the promises, the hopes, the dreams?
Now I sit alone trying to muffle my screams.
Because I had finally gone and chosen you
If only I had know you wouldn't choose me too.

I'd be a fool to think, I have a chance,
the wise would take a pessimists stance.
It'd take a fool to hope at all,
yet you made me hope, and care, and fall

A tear rolls down, my puffy red cheek
What I wouldn't give, to go back to last week
Back to that last, desperate kiss
And live forever, in the moment of bliss
Looking lovingly into, your perfect eyes
And be happy in that moment, where nobody dies
To spend forever, learning how your lips taste
and wrapping my arms, around your waist
and whispering the words "I love you"
Words that will always, always be true

Your eyes are all dull and your cheeks are all red,
Forever with you? Ha I'd be better off dead.
You're such an ugly, manipulative, little piece of work
the thought I once called you perfect, makes me go berserk.
How could anyone love, someone like you,
how could I be so stupid as to once want to.

Your eyes still know me, but do your lips?
Do you remember how it felt, to have my hand round your hips?
I know you remember who I was, but do you know how you felt?
Do you remember the way I made your heart melt?
Do your hands remember mine, like mine remember yours?
Do you remember how I laughed, when we were sitting outdoors?

I don't think you do, I think you forgot,
and for that reason alone, I envy you a lot.

Soft, sweet laughter, and moments enjoyed,
Half hidden smiles, and people to avoid,
moments of tenderness, such love unchecked,
a time long gone, that once was perfect.

******* it Atlas, let it go,
you don't have to hold it, don't you know?
******* it Icarus, calm down,
if you fly too high you'll only drown.
******* it Sisyphus, you'll never win
when will you learn not begin?
These were lessons learned so long ago,
there were things I was supposed to know,
but I didn't pay them any heed,
and so I lost the one thing I need.

I guess this is it, you're really gone
but how can you expect, me to carry on?
You're dead, dear angel, you left me alone
and I sit here crying, curled up with my phone
You were always an angel, my dear, sweet love
Now you've returned, to heaven, high above.
But if this it, and you're really gone
I don't think I, can carry on

Such a simple word
to convey a world of sadness

You weren't an enigma, worth a try,
nor a perfect mystery, just a lie.
Falsehood after falsehood, let them all die,
I've found you out now, I guess it's goodbye.

What should I do? My muse said'goodbye'
She left every idea, to shrivel and die
I don't want to write another word
I'll go back to games, and being a nerd
'Cause all of this site, reminds me of her
But now things are different from how they were.
Goodbye you dreamers, you poets, you writers.
I'm off to go study, and pull some all-nighters

Goodbyes typed, with shaking hands
the pain in the chest, that slowly expands,
till it consumes, every last thought,
all the hope, has lead to naught.

Maybe one day, this feeling will die,
but then on that day, so might I.

Goodnight my dear, I hope it's great,
better than, those as of late,
I hope you sleep and dream so fine,
even though I can't finish this next line.

Goodnight dear friend, if that I can say,
though I hope you're more, perhaps some day.
But yes goodnight, and sleep so well,
and I'll keep this a secret, never to tell.

Goodnight, my friend, I hope you sleep well,
I hope that tomorrow, doesn't put you through hell.
But if it does, then I want you to know,
that you're cared about no matter, where you go.
You amaze me more, than words can express,
and I'm sorry for the days, your life's full of stress.
But chin up my friend, tomorrow'll be good,
if we get what we deserve, then it really should.

No matter what, you'll never believe,
but the one thing I now hope to achieve,
it to convince you of what I know to be true,
if anyone has been gorgeous, it's you.

Do you stare too at the dot of green,
Wondering why, and what did it mean?

Are you out there unfazed, unfettered, unseen?
Or do you sit too, and curse what has been?
Mad you said things that you didn't mean?
Or is it just I who stares at my screen,
Driven insane by that dot of green?

My favourite colour, has long since been grey
But I didn't know why, until today
I envy grey, grey doesn't commit
Any strong emotion, well grey isn't it
Grey's not red anger, red hate, or  red love,
Blue sadness, yellow fury or perfection's white dove.
No, grey is nothing, no emotion, no pain,
no commitment, no dichotomies, I want that again.

I've been so caught up in love as of late,
that I guess I kinda forgot how to hate,
hate the world for taking you away,
hate you for leaving that day,
hate them for laughing at me,
hate him for being all you see,
hate me for being in love with you,
hate the words "I love you" too,
hate everything that ever was,
hate everything just because,
I miss you so ******* bad,
I don't want this pain so I'll get mad,
and fight and kick and scream and hate,
because it was too little too late.

I was put through more hell by my little angel, than I ever will by any devil.

Her eyes shining, like burning stars
Idle chat about this future of ours
The soft sweet voice, of my next mistake
Has now got me, tempting fate
A simple kiss of burning desire
I'd say it feels wrong, but I'd be a liar
I check my phone, and it's her number I dial
She greets each text, with a soft warm smile
Now I'm not sayings she's set my heart alight
I'm merely implying, this all feels right

I just love to come here, and I know why I do
Something 'bout the ocean, reminds me of you

I've been up here at sunrise, just once or twice
The sun may be beautiful, but your hair's just as nice

I sat up here one night, and saw every star
Sure they looked good, but you look better by far.

Her words fill my stomach with butterflies
there's no more beautiful sight than her wondrous eyes
I'm falling, falling so far in love
and now she's girl I'm dreaming of

So I say hey, how have you been?
I tried to stay mad but that isn't my scene.
I always freak out about what to say to you,
But who is it that I am really lying to?
Cause we all know, what it is I mean,
When I say hey, how have you been?

I look out the window, I walk in the street
I look around at this place, and I feel complete
I walk to the forest, to the sound of birdsong
This is the place I truly belong

I have seen so many of the world's greatest sights
But I belong here, it's my place by rights
I've seen much of the world, from Beijing to Rome
But here's the only place that I'd call my home

It's the light in your eyes, that lights up my world,
and kept me hopeful, when the darkness unfurled,
so don't you ever, let that light disappear,
nothing's more perfect, than you my dear.