Months later I still wake up missing you
With your perfect voice and eyes so blue
After how long is not okay to cry?
After how long will I stop wanting to die?
Things change and feelings fade
You’ve forgotten our memories made.
You were everything you said you weren’t
Your fiery perfection got me burnt
I still remember every minute,
Your life goes on but I’m not in it.

I miss being with you, more than a flower misses the sun while buried under a foot of snow. I also miss your lips, you more than the desert misses rain. I miss the feeling of your hand in mine, more than the new moon misses the sun's light. I miss you, more than any words could ever express, because I miss you more than anything.

How odd that the girl who made me believe,
  in love,
   and in hope,
    and that things will get better,
doesn't believe those things herself.

Should love feel like coming home?
Like shelter after you roam?
Like peace and quiet and hope and sleep?
Like a safe pair of arms in which to softly weep?

Or is it adventure we seek?
When on our lips of love we speak?
Within you you feel a fire burn,
For love's the adventure for which you yearn.

But perhaps my dearest, sweetest you,
Both of these loves are always true,
And in your love I've always found,
Both kinds tend to be abound

Bloodied knuckles, and a bleeding wrist
Waves of a feeling, I haven't missed
I thought I was done with feeling this way
I thought I was over crying everyday
It's just as bad as it ever was
It never ends it just goes on pause
Hurts for the reason it does every time
Hurts in the way that makes me rhyme.

Before it happens, I always know
I've had only, one surprising blow,
But it doesn't matter, and neither do you,
she's gone, and now, you are too.

Hey there sweetheart, it's kinda been a while
and I was thinking that I kinda miss your smile
and how about another kiss?
as we talk about the times we miss
how about you stay another night
and I can try to make things right,
make it up to you and make your heart race
with the lies that hurt you in the first place
I could press you against the wall,
remind you of when we had it all
or we could go back to that park
steal some more kisses after dark,
or maybe I could tell the truth
that love's as real as the fountain of youth

With your eyes like stars, and beauty aglow
You are an angel, that much I know
I asked you out, you said I do
Now I plan on forever with you
I hope I never forget any of this
I also hope, we share many a'kiss

My only good poems were to make her fall
because once she left, no one cared at all

I want to die when I find the right words
words as beautiful as the songs of birds

But I can't, the words left when she did
now I'm alone, just me and my id

The rhyme has gone, and reason has too
and so to the world, I bid you adieu

I broke my promise, and you know why
I can't sit here, just wanting to die
I just needed, a moment of release
just one moment, to be at peace.
I broke my promise, my promise to you
but I don't care, because neither do you.

80 days later and I can still feel her touch

It's like I can't write poems about you
No matter how much I want to

My trail of thought goes, eyes, eyes, what rhymes with eyes?
You have pretty eyes, I like your eyes. And so the poem dies
Or I'll be writing a line about your hair, your perfect hair
And my brain just stops working, it just isn't fair!

What she said was so perfect but she's not you
and so I can't reply with an "I love you too"

I have no choice, but to be alright.
I can't be heartbroken, I've lost the right.

I used to make you laugh, and smile and blush
Now all I can do is make you cry
and I don't want to live that way
but I don't want to live without you either
so I guess I want to die.

I can think of one-hundred and one
Reasons I love you, and you're the one

I can't think of one reason, why you'd love me
I don't think you do, and I think you'd agree.

I can't fight the thoughts I've had since the start,
can't hope to ease my broken heart,
but then the voice, it calls to me,
and reminds me that, I want to be,
so far far far away from here,
so far from love and life my dear.
It'd be so easy, if I were to try,
I could do it now, just up, and die.

You know what?
I can't believe my luck, 'cause it's getting late
and I'm talking to her and everything is great
and we're laughing.

And it never even occurred to me,
but maybe this is how things should be.

So far away,
and it's been such a while,
but I can't but smile,
I could do this.

It's not what I wanted but it's not so bad
and for the first time in a while I am actually glad.

I cried the night you left,
And I woke up missing you,
And I know it's for the best,
And it's what we had to do,
But **** it I'm in love,
Girl you hold my heart,
And I swear to god above,
I wish we didn't have to part,
But as it stands we do,
And now you're so far away,
And I'm still in love with you,
But neither of us could ever stay.

I don't want to break my promise
And I refuse to say goodbye
So I'm not giving up
I'll love you till the day I die

I was so stupid, why couldn't I see?
That she never, really ever loved me.

I was an idiot, I said 'I love you'
Because I kinda thought, she loved me too

I was so dumb, I was out of my mind
to think I could get her, she's one of a kind

I'm still an idiot, because I'm still in love
With an angel belonging, so far above.

But she never loved me.

You know I lied, I don't actually care
You mean nothing to me as I'm sure you're aware
Just leave me alone, shut up and move on
I don't care about you, so you're better off gone
So leave me alone because I just need to think
and slowly, deeply, into madness I sink

Time passes, but memories don't fade
As I look back at the messes I made
How has no one realized, I don't deserve to live?
Even I, want me to die...I've nothing left to give
I've ruined everything that ever went well
Just let me say goodbye, and then I'll go to hell

I don't exist to the girl I love
Yet she's still the one I'm dreaming of
She won't read poems, she doesn't think I'm writing
about how every day's a struggle, and it's for her I'm fighting
But one day I'll lose, and I won't me missed
and on that day, I won't exist

You and I both know, that words are my thing,
I'm like a warrior, and they're the weapons I bring.
But why then, can I not explain,
this notion I entertain?
How come I can't say, what you mean to me?
It should be a simple, a few words would make you see,
but there are none in my head, just the thought of you,
but you don't know that, and so I'm feeling blue.
I could've told her, with a single line,
but with a thousand poems, I couldn't make you mine.
Perhaps there is no way, to word the way I feel,
perhaps thats how I'll know, that this is really real.

But even if I had the words, I probably couldn't say.
It's not a like girl a like you, could love me anyway.

I don't know how to word the way you make me feel.
But it's been so long, yet I still care, so clearly it is real.
But your feelings are a mystery, a cypher I can't read.
I'm getting such mixed signals, from each word and thought and deed.

I assume you're gone, but I don't know,
you won't even say, why you've hurt me so.
Still alone right here, I miss you,
my angel's gone, what can I do?

I have no words for how I feel,
but I feel it more, with each glance I steal,
I don't know, what this is to me,
nor what it is I want us to be,
but I do know, that you deserve,
all the happiness, one could observe.

I don't need these stupid thoughts you've left littered in my head
I don't need the reminders that you're no longer in my bed
I don't need your love, things will never be the same,
I don't need you any more, so take it all right to the flame

We're not something, that I regret,
though now I feel, my heart's beset,
every poem was still, so perfect, so true,
though just like, each 'I love you'.

I don't regret us, it was worth the pain,
and given a chance, I'd do it again.

How on earth do you expect me to be okay?
Because I'm living in pain, knowing you've gone away
What the hell am I supposed to do?
Because I don't to be me, if there's no you.

Your laughter was more beautiful than any song
now I've forgotten it, and everything feels wrong
I'm slowly forgetting, the taste of your lips
and the exact perfect curve, of your beautiful hips,
Now we're just memories, I messed up and lost you
I've just got the memories, I can't lose those too.

I don't want you to miss a single one of the poems I write for you,
they are so many words I left unpublished that she never even knew.
I'd written of the moment that light crashed to the floor,
and I've wrote a thousand words of her being the one I do adore.
But she's missed so many lines, and I wouldn't wish that upon you,
so for as long as I keep writing I'll keep sending you them to.

If you remember how I held you, I'm sorry I let go
If you love someone else now, then I'm glad that it is so
If you think I ever cared, know that I still do
If you think yourself forgotten, know I write of you
If I am forgiven, then even so I'm sorry
If you're not okay, then know that I still worry
If I am forgotten, I still remember every word
If I ever make you laugh, it's the best sound I ever heard
If I'm ever missed, I've missed you since we parted
If you're feeling all alone, know I feel brokenhearted
If you read my poetry, then I'll write you something new
If you wonder how I feel, know that I...

If I said that you were perfect,
you'd just shrug it off again,
but that's what springs to mind love,
whenever I hear your name.
If I told you how much I like you,
you'd laugh and just say 'cute',
but never the less I like you,
and it's a feeling I can't refute.
If I asked you to be mine,
your no would be nothing new,
but I'll still forever know that,
my heart belongs to you,

If I only had the words,
to say the things I feel.
If I could only let you know,
and explain that this is real.
If only I could find some way,
to take another chance.
If I could only hold your hand,
even for a single dance.
Well maybe then, I just don't know,
I'd love you for forever or so.

If I'd known that five thirteen
On the seventeenth
Would be the very last
Before "I love you" became the past
I wouldn't have left you alone
I'd have said "around you I feel at home"
Because I will love you always
But my hearts as empty as these hallways
Because now you'll never love me back
And now whole world's turning black
Because my perfect angels gone
But still my love burns on

As it always will.

I'd pull her in close, for a passionate kiss,
and hold the hand of the girl, I don't want to miss,
tell her how the poems were all about her,
and that's she's far more beautiful, than the stars ever were,
but I don't deserve, any more than glance,
and with a girl like her, I've not got a chance.

If it's all the same,
I'd like my heart back

If you read these words and they are my last
please remember all the poems, that have come to pass
remember each smile, each tear and each word
and even remember the ones you heard
what a way to end it all
what a way for the mighty to fall.
Goodbye dear poetry, goodbye my life
and most importantly goodbye strife.

A million couldn't describe
the beauty in just her eyes.

I hide my poetry from you,
to hide the things so painfully true,
the things I don't have, the words to say,
so I keep them from you, but maybe one day...
I won't have to.

I never should have let you go,
I realize that now, just so you know,
You make me smile, more than I'll admit,
I'd stop this now, but I just can't quit.

Why does it always end this way?
Knife in hand to take the pain away.
Every part of me just wants to die
Because yet again I've made her cry
I can't keep living without her
But things are no longer as they were
She has no time for me anymore
I no longer make her go 'aww'
Now tonight may be my last
I'm missing the days gone past
If she reads this then I'm sorry
I did not mean to make you worry
I just need to die.

I just want you here,
Oh in my arms.
I love you dear,
with all your charms.
This is not forever,
It's just for now.
But I'll forget you never,
'Cause I won't know how.
This love is true,
you must know that.
All I want is you,
Wherever you're at.

I love you as much as anyone could
And honestly, it makes sense that I would
Perfect beyond reason,  perfect beyond doubt
And you're certainly not something I can live without

I thought I loved you as much as I could,
But I clearly don't love you as much as I should
Because you always find ways to make me love you more
And every time you prove your angelic perfection, I sit in awe

I love her enough, to pretend that I don't,
I want to do something, but I know that I won't.
I'll just sit here and pretend, that it's all okay,
because if I did tell her, she'd not care anyway

What I expected, was certainly not this,
you're stirring up feelings, that I can't dismiss,
You cute, and you're funny, and a whole lot of fun,
and it made my heart flutter, when you laughed at my pun,
and I know that I shouldn't, but perhaps I've a crush,
so I'll conclude with just this, I love how you blush.

I love you, I love your laughter and I love your smile
just thinking of them cheers me up for a while
Oh sure you call stupid, then hit me with your books
But that only makes you perfect, regardless how it looks.
I love the look of your hair when it catches the sun
Just another reason why you're the only one
Then there's your eyes so perfect and beaut'ful
Their intense stare and the attention that they pull
I love it how I just can't stop thinking 'bout you
I love us talking makes things seem better too
I feel so comf'table telling you things
And you are my muse and so my heart sings
Talking to you's so much better than sleeping
And as I'm sure you know without you I'd be weeping
When I hear 'perfect' you spring to my mind
'Cause you're the only girl who is and you're one of a kind
I love how you call me Ade or even say my name
Girl you know I love and I know you feel same.
My poems about you, they got a much more lighter tone.
Compared to my old ones which now seem kind of drone.
Oh and when you read them, and you say that there good
Well lets just say it make me happier than it should.
I just feel so amazing every time I make you blush
And every time you do I get bit more of a crush
And when you get butterflies fluttering round inside
or when I've cheered you up, it fills me with such pride.
I love the way you make me think, I love how your lips taste
I love it how it feels, my arms wrapped round your waist.
I just feel so amazing, whenever we are close
They say love's a drug, well I've had an overdose
It's great that I can write of you, but I like the times I can't
You're so very perfect that there's no words I can supplant
You're perfect beyond words and distracting beyond measure
But you're a great distraction and it's always such a pleasure.
and I really love those times when I'm up till way past two
doing nothing all the while, except thinking about you.
Everything about you's interesting and you could never bore me
Regardless of if I understand or if I can really see.
You're the centre of the universe, the most important thing in life
The one thing that makes it worth every bit of strife.
Whenever ever I'm around you, the voices they are gone
Their endless dark is over and now it's time for dawn
Cause you are perfect in everything you say
I love you and wouldn't want life any other way
I could never tell you just how 'mazing you make me feel
Lets just say it's the one the feeling that I think's ideal
I don't think I've told you this enough so I'll say it yet again
You're so amazingly perfect that it's driving me insane
And whilst you've got all this, there is so much that I lack.
And so I'm quite amazed that you love me back.

I love you, more than life itself

I love the sound your voice
More than wind in the trees
Your voice is more lovely
Than the sound of any breeze

I love the taste of your lips
Way more than any other taste
The best taste in the world
Is when our lips embrace

I love the radiance of your smile
More than the warmth of the sun
More than I love a glowing fire
I love you, because you are the one.