i want to write
but
i dont remember how

For the love of god, write.
Write.
Write like all hell.
Write as if your heart is on
Fire, and the only way to quell it is to
Shoot
The
Flames
from your fingertips.
Your nerve-bitten nails &
****** ripped skin strips,
The papercut pains,
Have all been for this,
You
     have
            been  
                  trained.
No sweeter burn,
No better hurt.
Write, **** you.
Write.
Nobody knows your story
As perfectly as you.

i fear i'm drowning
i'm searching for the words to write
i need to express these feeling
in some way healthy
so i write
i write
i write
i write
i write stories that have no ending
and ****** poems
just to validate myself
i want to get rid of these feelings
so i write
i write
i write

why is it
so much harder
to write
in the dark?

I have lost my ability to write.
And with that, I lost a part of myself

chase the clouds away
anger in its wake
a hurricane, a storm
frustration takes form
let my rain speak
let it be gentle
but let the sky darken over it
let the waves toss ships
and let the wind destroy your home
let the cyclone
awaken your caution

but it's all in my head

‪i wish i could sing ‬
‪so i can write you a song‬

‪i wish i could make art ‬
‪so i can paint you‬

‪i wish i had better handwriting‬
‪so i can write you a letter ‬

‪i wish i could drive‬
‪so i can show you the world ‬

‪i wish you knew what you mean to me‬

i wish i could show you how i feel

I cannot dance
But I've danced
I cannot sing
But I sang
I cannot play
But I've played
I cannot write
But I wrote