#toxicrelationships poems

Tori Barnes Jul 2018

"This year, I got you
a reminder of all the
time wasted on me."

When you haven't talked to that toxic person in a long time and you're finally starting to feel better and then for your birthday, their present to you is ruining your day?

That's what this is about.

#birthdaypoetry #haikus #heartbreak #toxicrelationships #gaypoetry

Multicolored Eyes Jun 2018

rise over those that don't matter and run

I never understood mathematics;
however I can add your negligence,
multiply my displeasures
to summarize your subtracting feelings, and calculate your ******* behavior.
Let's divide.

Special dedication to those who have experienced toxic friendships, relationships, anyone that has ever made a negative impact on your life, etc.

*also, the title is in reference to rise over run in mathematics. See what I did there? ;)

#toxicfriendships #toxicrelationships #confront #strong #inspirational

George Anthony Apr 2018

hate

the worst part of hating you
is how i know that i don't
not really, not truly.
only in moments,
a kind of hatred matched
only by senseless love

hatred inspired by anger
and pain, and
“******* for making me feel like this,
for making me feel this way,
making me feel so deeply—
for making me feel at all.
for making me feel. period.
*******”

i don't like feelings,
and, sometimes, i don't like you
though i will always love you
and that's the truth
so ******* it, *******

you hollowed me out
like a bongo drum
then hit me 'til your hands
were the only things i recognised
and filled me with the sound of you
and gave me a heartbeat
painful and stuttering

i lost my rhythm,
getting lost in you.
so i hate you, i swear i do
but i just can't hate you
as much as i love you
and that's the grinding truth

#depression #toxicrelationships #relationship #hurt #pain #suicidal #love #hate #anger #mentalillness

Rebecca Sorenson Apr 2018

Me^6

I'm tired of wanting acceptance,
just for them to abandon me,
leave me in the darkened streets,
nothing in sight, nothing to see

Perhaps I should forget them,
and start to work on me,
leave them in the flood of doubts,
no matter how much they plea

They never cared anyway,
no one cares about me,
I'll push them out and lock the door,
swallowing the key

You were supposed to be the one,
the one who saved me,
but you ran away crying,
you always seemed to flee

And now I am alone,
no one but me,
maybe I can take my mask off,
and finally be me

#wisdom #depression #toxicrelationships #inspirational #sad #anxiety #relationships

Eddie John Oct 2017

Puff After Puff

I puff and puff and hope to forget. The pain she brought and all the ****. She ****** me up and here I sit. just wishing She never through that fit. I punch the wall, once then twice. A thousand times flash before my eyes of the things I said that weren't my lines. I wish I could take them back but the rage I felt took over my body and mind. I lay here wishing that I hadn't messed up what I had. Cause if I hadn't said those stupid things I would still have that life. When I see you smiling having a good time it makes me hurt because you used to me mine. I used to be your joy but now I'm nothing to you but an old toy. So here I sit and puff and puff and hope to forget..

This ones about a toxic relationship, and the inner dynamics of feeding off each other's unhealthy habits. Destroying each other and ourselves.

#depression #toxicrelationships #addiction

George Anthony Oct 2017

happy endings

i need a starting line so i can finish this
tell me where you end
and i begin
so i can map out the joins in our souls
and i can cut them off

emotional amputee,
the feel of your absence trips me up
but i'll learn to live without you
because i have to
and i'm stronger than this, than us

the stories i've spun━fantasy, make believe
trying to make myself believe
that there's a version of this hopeless chronicle
where the ending is happy

but we both know
i'm ******* chronic

pull the trigger.
i'll kick up the dust, a sprinting start
as if running away from problems
has a podium, has medals, prestige━
i could win the whole world
but never the spark in your eyes;
i'll never be rewarded by your lovesick smiles

so many sunsets i watched
trembling below the horizon
and wished the earth would **** me up the same,

the rush of blood in my veins,
louder than the speeding cars
drag racing through streets
and i thought to step out into the road and
let them rush me to other realms

where maybe
my fantasies
all of them, the happy endings
might be a reality

#love #pain #sad #depression #suicidal #breakup #hurt #mentalillness #toxicrelationships #life

Samantha Feb 2017

It's Not Fair

For the past days I've thought about a lot of things
Lately there have been many announcements,
from baby showers to wedding rings

Not that I'm looking for any of that at the moment
I just realized that I've been less focused
Distracted by what I want
blind for what I got

It's not fair
you don't get to feel what I feel
but at the end of the day you are always here

I'm slowly dying
wanting to like what you're supplying
wanting to like your personality,
your speech, drive, just you in totality

But I can't
You hurt me daily, not sure if its on purpose
You belittle me, make me feel bad about myself
never good enough and always at fault

But...
I love that your consistent, always there
I love that you physically care
I love how you push me to my limit sometimes
I love that I can be myself with you any time

How can I let go?
When I don't like you
But I love you

I'm afraid of letting you go because I think I don't have anyone else who would be here for me

#toxicrelationships

Little Bear Jun 2016

Pressed Flowers

Flowers so delicately bloom
their roots run deep and thrive
from white to pink
lilacs and hues of purples and reds
such baby blues
to the deepest indigo
a miracle
with the brightest
and most beautiful of petals
a scent to fill the air
fragrances to lift the heart
such a delight it is
to have sight of them
but flowers that are picked
by uncaring hands
will often crush their velvet petals
in their eagerness to have
handling
manhandling
allowing no light
nor care
a desperate want for their eyes
greedy
needy hands
and when the flowers begin to fade
through such damage
they are placed within a press
so that they may be held
for a longing
to covert
all light and care turns away
as the butterfly screws
tightens it's grip
of such delicate petals
time will pass
and maybe it will be remembered
and held to the light
transparent
a tiny shadow of bloom remains
placed
set
among others like itself
and it will be held
for all time
in a book entitled
scrap

I was so very fortunate to grow, be loved, be nurtured by loving parents and have deep roots within a loving family. Only for most of my adult life to find i was picked and pressed. Strangely enough, most of the physical and ****** violence i experienced are the things i am learning to live with. The things that happened will stay with me and i am a very anxious and nervous person as a result.

But it's the cruelest words spoken to me
that may stay for a while yet.

#abuse #domesticviolence #toxicrelationships

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