even before the 2 minutes that their lips came crashing down on each others they know it's meant to be
because even though she tasted like ***** and vanilla
and he tasted like cigarettes and cherry cola
they feel right at home with each other
and that's different for both of them because they're not perfect
and that's okay
but this feels like blissful oblivion
and they're both bad for each other and make the other person vulnerable
and they know it
but there's nothing they want to change
because this is better than any moment of their lives
and nothing was more perfect
even though it was almost 4 am
and they were strangers to each other who only met hours before at the club
but they don’t care
because their eyes locked
and they couldn’t take it off each other
and everyone said that they’d never last because they were the same, all leather jackets and rebellious and that alike repelled
but they’d disagreed
because they were too much in what seemed like love;
but he left her
and was soon behind someone else
and her heart broke and shattered
like how an intricate vase which used to be beautiful would
and she promised herself she’d never be vulnerable
and that’s why she’s got no identity now
but she doesn’t mind
and she prays,
oh she prays every night
that when she dies and goes to heaven,
she’ll meet him there
because she admits that she’ll gladly suffer heartbreak and hell in the afterlife
just for those 2 minutes of love like she’d never known back.

Hello world, It's me again
Lil Miss temporary bliss.
I'll hold you close, I'll hold you dear
You can vent and scream, You can shed your tears
If you draw me close, You will feel my warmth
My love, affection, You'll feel a connection.

I'm also good at being a replacement
Tell me the deepest fears you keep locked in a basement
I'll listen and support you, I'll do all I can
So you can feel at home, have a safe place to land

I've felt pain in my heart, as I'll never be as good as the original
I'll never be as wanted or as loved, unlike the beloved
I'll never be the final piece, That perfect life where you will feel at peace

I'm but the second rate individual, the past time to heal your heart
After that very first one, torn you apart
And it's alright to seek safety, seek love within my arms
I'm the fool who believes it, believes it will last

I need to learn to stop forgetting
That I'm but a rebound, a temporary person
Because I'll never be loved the same
Never as valued like their persons

So forgive me, Lord, as I'm a fool
I need to learn my place
And you keep giving me reminders
But I get lost within that smiling face

And my face it burns, with hot tears streaming down
The end ticking nearer, but I refuse to drown
I've been used all up, my expiration date is here
This one wants to move on, to somebody who he actually holds dear

So here we go again, I'll be returning to square one
With a lot of excess baggage, and trauma. Fun.
Use me, abuse me, beat me till I'm blue
As my famous line goes

"As long as I can be of some use to you"


All I ask is that you love me
Want to be with me
Is what I'm asking really too much?

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