I.

i’m alone. soon dead.

i’m going to die alone.

alone in my house.

II.

so open your phone,

and do not look at the news,

and pretend it’s fine.

III.

wish i’d remembered

to say hi to them before

the world fell apart.

IV.

the world fell apart.

even if this sickness ends,

the glass is shattered.

V.

you can’t fix the glass

after it has been broken.

we can’t fix the world.

VI.

week four of it all.

i’m going to die alone.

alone in my house.

2:00am
***** sheets
A locked up jaw
And dread-dried-joy

I'm fine.
So don't question why
tears are filling my eyes.
I'm stressed
to do my best.
I must confess,
I'm a mess.
All this work in front of me,
the work,
it hurts my mind.
So don't wonder why
I will sit here and lie.
If you ask if I'm okay
just know I'll say
the same thing every time.

I'm fine......

you need to stop leading me on.
you and you and you and you and you.
just leave me alone and grow up.
you boys and girls put a lot of stress on me.

Why chase your ideal view of perfection
You can have a bronze tongue disguised in silver
A bond built on brokenness that is never a whole
All the answers to the questions you view as important
But never have the answers to the questions asked
Hopeful but desperate for a silver lining
Sad but happy with how I am contributing
Not feeling I am doing enough
Complacent.Lost..Happy?

some say that it hurts
when you don't
accept the expectations

but some of them don't
know that it hurts
more knowing
that you'll never
reach them