but the questions kept coming.

do you love him?

do you love him?

and all of a sudden my eyes couldn't speak.

from one day to another i wasn't sure if my heart wanted to love you anymore.

I look at the boxes of letters I sent to you and the empty ones I kept just in case you missed me so much you had to write me back.

these boxes they haunt me, because they could have been full of the words you'd wished you'd spoken but never did.

but they stay empty till this day, proving once more that your love was nothing but artificial and that when you finished emptying out your boxes into mine there was no use for me anymore.

"this will not end in heart break" you said to me as you entered my soul and stole all that had meaning.

now I'm a wandering crow, soulless and hungry.

haven't you heard? when you feed a bird just once, they'll always come back for more.

On late spring nights
a breeze through cracked windows
feeds silent madness
It screams louder than life
Memories flow as a river
Their resentment for my existence
once brought depression
After years of absorbing rancor
the onslaught of sandpaper words
ground my soul into flakes
carried away in the wind

Hollowed into a human cask
guilt has nothing to grasp
Hatred from others means little
Perhaps amusement
A muffled chuckle
breathed into the pillow
breaks the silence
until sleep

And be released onto the streets

Where nothing eats

Because lost and nothing is all we are.

Loose beneath the stars

Sadness has taken its toll

I gave away my soul

Soulless through the eyes but not in your heart.
We once broke each other apart.
the puzzle of love did not come together.
Until we found each other again and forever.

On the outside I look calm & collected
But inside it's a mess of emotions I've purposely neglected
Id rather seem cold & emotionless
Than try to verbally express
I shut down & retreat to only a place I know
A place I always run to & go
Sure I may be alone there
Being alone I don't care
I am only in control
Because I am an empty soul
Don't try to tell me I'm not empty
I've heard those words a plenty
They don't have any value or worth to me
Besides I like what my soul has become to be
It makes caring less of a mess
& I have no worries or stress
Inside through darkness I stroll
Happily I live without a soul

I sit alone
In this dark cold room
Listening through the wall
Of your angry screams

I don't know why I keep doing wrong
I don't know why I can't control myself
I don't know why you always scream at me

You wonder why
I've become so numb
You wonder why
My silence is deafening
You wonder why
I'm a soulless cold monster

In my bed
I just can't seem to rest
Screaming silently
At all this violence

I don't know what I am
I don't know what I did so wrong
I don't know what to do when you scream at me again and again

You wonder why
I've become so numb
You wonder why
My silence is deafening
You wonder why
I'm a soulless cold monster

In my room
Wishing I could punch the wall
Wishing I could just runaway
From all this pain and misery

I don't know how I stopped fighting
I don't know how you keep killing me
I don't know how I got this way

You wonder why
I'm so empty
You wonder why
My silence is screaming
You wonder why
I'm this soulless cold monster

This soulless cold monster
You wonder why I'm soulless
You wonder why I'm so cold
(It's all your fault.)