On late spring nights
a breeze through cracked windows
feeds silent madness
It screams louder than life
Memories flow as a river
Their resentment for my existence
once brought depression
After years of absorbing rancor
the onslaught of sandpaper words
ground my soul into flakes
carried away in the wind

Hollowed into a human cask
guilt has nothing to grasp
Hatred from others means little
Perhaps amusement
A muffled chuckle
breathed into the pillow
breaks the silence
until sleep

And be released onto the streets

Where nothing eats

Because lost and nothing is all we are.

Loose beneath the stars

Sadness has taken its toll

I gave away my soul

Soulless through the eyes but not in your heart.
We once broke each other apart.
the puzzle of love did not come together.
Until we found each other again and forever.

On the outside I look calm & collected
But inside it's a mess of emotions I've purposely neglected
Id rather seem cold & emotionless
Than try to verbally express
I shut down & retreat to only a place I know
A place I always run to & go
Sure I may be alone there
Being alone I don't care
I am only in control
Because I am an empty soul
Don't try to tell me I'm not empty
I've heard those words a plenty
They don't have any value or worth to me
Besides I like what my soul has become to be
It makes caring less of a mess
& I have no worries or stress
Inside through darkness I stroll
Happily I live without a soul

I sit alone
In this dark cold room
Listening through the wall
Of your angry screams

I don't know why I keep doing wrong
I don't know why I can't control myself
I don't know why you always scream at me

You wonder why
I've become so numb
You wonder why
My silence is deafening
You wonder why
I'm a soulless cold monster

In my bed
I just can't seem to rest
Screaming silently
At all this violence

I don't know what I am
I don't know what I did so wrong
I don't know what to do when you scream at me again and again

You wonder why
I've become so numb
You wonder why
My silence is deafening
You wonder why
I'm a soulless cold monster

In my room
Wishing I could punch the wall
Wishing I could just runaway
From all this pain and misery

I don't know how I stopped fighting
I don't know how you keep killing me
I don't know how I got this way

You wonder why
I'm so empty
You wonder why
My silence is screaming
You wonder why
I'm this soulless cold monster

This soulless cold monster
You wonder why I'm soulless
You wonder why I'm so cold
(It's all your fault.)

Her memories swallow you down a warp
Transferring to a hidden thorp
Deep and dark place in your mind
With no control of experience or time
Mysterious place in a difficult maze GPS is searching for her face
Her direction leads you to a grey place
Between black & white is it real
Feelings rip your heart so you can feel
The pain you can not tame
It fuels this place Remaining the same
Addict like a drug fiend's veins
Is this love or obsession
Timeless progression
Seems like the Great Depression
There is no constant thoughts but doubt
Wondering how did you get on this drought
A well so deep filled with tears of sorrow
Drowning you purposely so it can borrow
Your heart & empty soul
So it can add coal
To the fire burning your self control