the hunger, the need, to be right by your side
my emotions, my soul, can't seem to hide
my pain, my fear, seems to be fading away
it's probably because I saw your face today
I want, need you to know that I actually exist
I harden, smile, I clench my hands to a fist
I dream, pretend that someday we'll be together
I wanna hear you say that we'll be always and forever
I just hope that you know that I love you, I really do
I'm just hoping that someday you'll say you love me to

This is it.
She is done letting the days
pass by slowly.
She is tired of being tired.
She is tired of missing someone that broke her.
This is the time
to finally begin a new and happier life.
It is time to fall in love with herself.
She is worthy,
worthy of her own love.
And one day,
someone will come along.
Someone who truly
deserves her love.
Someone who cherishes it.
But for now,
she will let go of the past,
live in the present
and hope for a beautiful future.

*When the time is right, that someone special will come into your life and you won't be expecting it.

On a warm night like this,
I wish I was in Paris,
underneath the night sky
resting on a balcony,
listening to La Vie En Rose dance through the air.
In the distance,
the delightful Eiffel Tower is standing before me.
The smell of bitter coffee
drifting through the air.
Down below,
couples take a lovely, evening stroll.
There is light breeze blowing
through my wavy, blonde hair.
The lace, burgundy curtains
dance in the wind.

With an aching in my heart
I miss Paris
I fell in love with the freedom
of a new city without boundaries
and the almost overwhelming beauty
flavors that melted my previous palette
sights so drenched in detail
looking down a single street
was the same as taking in an entire novel
new sounds that excited my nerves
and gave me a never ending buzz
I am forever attached to the feelings I felt
but sadly the city of love cannot love me back
I am simply an alien who wandered
onto her luscious soils with my foreign feet
and she only had a moment's chance
to recognize my presence
which most likely went unnoticed
but still I'll love her forever
and maybe someday I'll stay long enough
for her to throw her arms around me

-kk

Somedays I think that seeds are planted in my bones and are growing beautiful flowers to fill the cracks. I feel like my dazzling smile makes the boys trip and scrape their knees. I wave hello to the people who deserve it least and hope that one day their hearts swell with passion and love.

But other days, I'm drowning in a deep, dark abyss. I'm not sure which way is up or which way is down because my head is swimming with water and heavy thoughts. I can't find it in me to crack a smile at even the kindest people. My bones are brittle and dry because all the tears have already been spilled. It's hard to get up and get going on those days.

I've learned to accept that it's hard to prepare for the future when you have no idea what's coming. Therefore, no matter what day I'm having, a tiny part of my heart will still beat loudly and love will thud in my chest because I picture those hazel eyes and the sound of your laugh rings like a melody in my ears. Throughout my best days and even my worst, you make me feel like I belong somewhere in this crazy, beautiful world.

I saw you there
Holding a precious gift -
The one I dreamed for so long
So I moved and made few steps
To be closer to you
While you smiled at me
And made a sign that
You want to give me the gift

I made another step
And another more steps
But still I can't reach you
And the gift you wanted to give me

You are there
Smiling at me
While holding the gift
And yes, I can feel it-
I can feel the air
I can feel a different breeze
While getting closer
And closer to you

I know I need more strength
And persistence
So that I can hold your gift
Someday, somehow.

I left you
For no good reason
(I mean, apart from the plane tickets)
I left in our in-between season
Not just physically;
I checked out before then.
I checked out emotionally;
And my god did you know!

You kicked and screamed
You've got a sailor's mouth
Ranging from "******* anyways." To "please,we'll work something out."
It was the best thing for you
I knew you'd meet someone real
Only I didn't know how badly others would treat you, didn't know the deal.
They held you and hurt you
They caressed and scraped
They kissed and bit;
And a hollow girl they made

But I'll stay for now,if only through
Poetry and codes;
And maybe someday again,
We'll intertwine our roads.