I wish what happened had made me bleed.
I'd like to bite down on something thick like raw meat and if it's my own tongue then so be it. Even if I could keep my big clumsy mouth shut i'd still ***** or cut my wrists up all over the carpet for attention. Look at me! Or past me. I'm not good at being ignored. Or I'm the best at it.... I'm a phantom in the sense that I'll make you uncomfortable but no ones sure if I'm even there or what the hell I'm still bothering them for. So if you're not going to see me for me, I'll pull a white sheet over my body and creep through your house in the dark. And if you're going to look my way with a guilty face then you might as well just keep your eyes shut. And I hope someday you can remember who I am. And well...., ******* for not seeing a good thing when you had it. Now haunting you is just another one of my bad habits.

A step forward, a hundred back
with these type of flow, can I turn it back?
The time I spent wastin'
on all the things that amounted to nothin'

If given the chance to redo everything
Would I be able to make the right choices?
or Will I end up being with the current me?

would walking down that path again
also amount to nothing?
or will it bear fruit to something?

Something that might give hope to the me
who felt like I have lost sight of what's in it for me

you with all you're ****?
i'm getting bored

Monday:
Everyone cried,
So did I,
Nothing to be happy about,
I can't find a reason to smile.

Tuesday:
I couldn't sleep properly,
I nearly skipped eating,
I cried myself to sleep that night,
Can't be properly breathing.

Wednesday:
I thought all the **** would stop,
I underestimated it,
I was pressured more,
As much as last week.

Thursday:
I actually thought it would stop here,
I checked online,
I enjoyed what I was reading,
But immediately declined.

Friday:
Where all the crap built up,
What the hell did I do wrong this time,
Nothing became better,
You're not mad? No need to lie.

Problems build up,
Waiting at the end of the bridge,
But there's a shortcut out of here,
See you at the bottom of the ledge.